Confusing Thoughts;; [Arden]

[Riley Pearson]

I smiled faintly at her laugh and then nodded a little bit. "You actually want to stay then?" I asked looking over to her, saying it slightly quietly. "Or are you just.. being nice about it since you're leaving?" I asked, then slightly wondering how that sounded. I hoped it didn't sound mean or anything becuase that was really the last thing I wanted.

[Arden Patricks]

"I'm not really sure, to be honest." I shrug slightly. "Maybe I just don't like awkward goodbyes."

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded a little bit, glad that I didn't seem to have offended her or made her mad. I really didn't want to do that in any way. "I'm not really a fan of them either.. but I have a feeling this's gonna be one."

[Arden Patricks]

"Probably," I agree, laughing faintly. "And we're still not very good at the normal ones, are we?"

[Riley Pearson]

I smiled a bit as she laughed and nodded. "Yeah.. not too great." I said shaking my head a little bit. 'Specially since the last two ended in kissing eachother..

[Arden Patricks]

Especially what with the fact that there's a pretty good chance we'll do something regrettable again....
"Funny how that is," I say softly, shaking my head. "We never, ever liked to say goodbye. I mean, even the first time we met, remember? When we were drunk off sleep deprivation but still kept finding excuses to keep talking?"

[Riley Pearson]

"I remember.." I smiled and nodded a little bit with a soft chuckle. "I don't know why either... it did take an extremely long time to say goodnight then. I can't even remember what we talked about... then again, it was ten years ago, so I'm not sure you would either."

[Arden Patricks]

"Lot of introductory stuff," I shrug. "Things about our families, who we were, I guess. I do still remember something about sugar and ketchup packets." I smile slightly.

[Riley Pearson]

I let out a small laugh as she mentioned sugar and ketchup packets, having ocmpletely forgetten about that. "I still eat those you know.." I smiled. "I hope you haven't been eating the ketchup.." I smild, faintly crookedly over to her.

[Arden Patricks]

"Not since I was eight." I shake my head, smiling. "You would, though."

[Riley Pearson]

I smiled and nodded a little. "Good." I said with a faint chuckle. "And I would.. I do.. in fact, I think you should eat some now."

[Arden Patricks]

"No, I think I'm fine." I shake my head, still smiling slightly but now letting it catch up to me that there's a note of falseness in this normalcy. I'm leaving soon.

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged a little, smiling sightly weaker now and feelng sort like an idiot for evern mentioning something like that. ".. Okay."

[Arden Patricks]

I shrug again, looking at my hands and now feeling like I've ruined something.

[Riley Pearson]

I guess I was wrong that maybe that one small memory could maybe help things get a little less awkward. It seemed like an okay idea at the time.. Hell, I would've eaten a ketchup packet. I shrugged faintly now too, unsure of what to say.

[Arden Patricks]

I really should get going. It's not making things better to prolong this.
I look at my hands a bit more, trying to summon up the will to actually go through with this plan of action.

[Riley Pearson]

I don't really think there was anything to say. I kept trying to think of something, but everything was just getting away from me. Sitting here in silence next to her was honestly getting sort of horrible feeling, all I was being able to think about was that she leaving. I bascially would have my family, Riyann, the girls, mum, dad and sister, to talk to. That's pretty sad isn't it? I really thought I had more friends than that.
".... M-Maybe, um.. maybe we should just go." I said quietly, never realising how hard it actually was to say those words. I didn't want to say them, but I somehow found them coming out of my mouth.

[Arden Patricks]

I nod, bite my lip, and then nod again. "Yeah, we probably should...." I agree quietly, not making a move to get up.

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded faintly again, noticing her lack of movement after responded. "... Don't have to though.. if you wanna stay longer we can.." I said quietly to her, not really minding the staying longer part because I did want to stay longer.

[Arden Patricks]

"Not really a whole lot of point to that, is there?" I ask semi-rhetorically. "Can't put it off forever."

[Riley Pearson]

"Yeah, I guess not.." I said with another small sigh, nodding a little bit. "... yeah." I said again a little quieter.

[Arden Patricks]

I nod again, hesitate, and finally stand up, leaning against the shack again and crossing my arms.

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded slightly, watching her stand up. I paused for a few moments and stood up, figuring that I probably should. I leaned against the shack too, just facing her instead of having my back against it.

[Arden Patricks]

"So...." I say slowly. "I guess... I'll see you eventually."

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded a little bit, "Yeah.." I said quietly, looking back up to her from the ground after a moment. "So um.. I still get that hug?" I asked her a moment or two later.

[Arden Patricks]

"'Course." I smile slightly, if a little sadly, and turn to hug him.

[Riley Pearson]

I smiled slightly, sure that it appeared at least a little sad and wrapped my arms around her, hugging her back, slightly tighter than I normally would.

[Arden Patricks]

For once I really don't mind being held so closely in a hug like this. I still have no idea about the whole crush thing, but I know that I love him in at least one way, and am definitely going to miss him.

[Riley Pearson]

I let out a small breath as I hugged her, not yet letting go and wndering if she was midning this. Wondering if maybe she was just letting me just hug her right now because she was leaving.

[Arden Patricks]

"I'm going to miss you," I mutter as I finally pull away, looking at our feet. "I think I really will."