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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 30, 2008 3:04:34 GMT
I shrugged faintly. "Honestly I don't either." I whispered, though I've noticed that it has become more and more unbearable, though I suppose with the hope of someone coming and telling me it was a mistake and I don't belong here helps, and I suppose Riley visiting helped too. Maybe if I could talk to someone every day it'd be even more help. "I wanna know how long I'm here for." I whispered under my breath, feeling a tear start to fall, and moved a hand to angerly wipe my eyes fast.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 30, 2008 4:16:29 GMT
I nodded slightly looking over to her when she spoke, slightly surprised at myself for how calm I was. My guess it was just the dementors effect on me. They were just making me remember things that I would rather not and it was making me a bit quieter than usual. "And I'm gonna find for you.. I can't believe they never told you."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 2, 2008 15:29:54 GMT
"Thanks." I whispered softly, though really did I want to know? Well I suppose it was a deciding factor between giving up on everything or just holding in there untill I was let out of this place. Though really, I'm sure that it'll just make me decide to give up on everything because I'm more than sure it'll be just way too long for me to deal with.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 3, 2008 3:41:57 GMT
"S'alright.." I said quietly with a small nod, slightly wondering if maybe that hadn't told her because she wasn't getting out at all. I shook my head faintly to myself before sliding myself down the bars and sat down, leaning against them.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 3, 2008 3:47:38 GMT
I nodded slightly, feeling myself shake slightly. That was another thing that was wrong with this place, it was always cold, sometimes you'd get used to it and wouldn't, or you'd just become numb against it, or else you'd notice it and wouldn't stop shaking for anything. "Do you think I'll even get out?" I asked before I could stop myself. What I really wanted to know was did he want me to ever get out.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 3, 2008 3:52:43 GMT
I didn't want her to ask that question. For one thing, I didn't really know if she would or not and other was that, well, I just didn't want to tell her what I was thinking.
I shrugged faintly, "... I don't know.. I just.. They said they would tell you.. and they haven't come back yet." I said quietly, glancing over to her.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 3, 2008 3:57:44 GMT
I bit my lip softly after hearing his question, he didn't think I would get out, not unless he magically had proof that nothing happened, which wouldn't, shouldn't ever happen, not for a long while in the least. Nodding slightly I looked at the ground, not able to look at him when he glanced over. I wasn't going to get out. That was it.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 3, 2008 4:02:39 GMT
"I'm not saying that you won't get out." I told her a short moment later, after she hadn't said anything. "You might.. I just, I don't know."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 4, 2008 2:18:08 GMT
There was almost too much hesitation to his answer, and in a way was added in too quick, more so because I hadn't commented in the least. So did I even want to believe him? "I doubt it." I whispered softly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 4, 2008 2:23:20 GMT
I shrugged faintly, staring down at my hands, slightly wishing I was wearing my wedding ring, if only just to fiddle with it. "Never know.."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 4, 2008 2:30:50 GMT
I shrugged a little at what he said, really I did. I could almost figure that I wouldn't be out for a long while, and by the time that that happened I'd already have given up or something completely stupid.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 4, 2008 2:37:55 GMT
"Just... hold in there, okay?" I asked her quietly, glancing over to her.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 4, 2008 2:44:14 GMT
I nodded a little, though I wasn't sure if I would, why would I want to try and hold in there if nothing was ever going to happen, well except for me sitting in here, never seeing my kids.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 4, 2008 2:49:56 GMT
"I mean... Tyler got out, right?" I said, looking over to her again, frowning slightly toward her.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 4, 2008 2:57:38 GMT
I shrugged faintly. What he was getting at, it meant nothing, what Tyler did may have been different. Tyler never had told me why he was there in the first place, I could only assume that it was death eater business. Besides, I didn't know how he could stand to be in here for seven years, I was barely dealing with two weeks at the moment.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 4, 2008 3:00:23 GMT
I watched her shrugged and shrugged faintly back. "I'm trying to help.." I mumbled quietly, starting to fiddle with the end of my shirt.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 4, 2008 3:03:03 GMT
"I know." I whispered softly, biting my lip to hold back a comment. "I'm sorry." Really I was, but what else could he expect? I was stuck in azkaban.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 4, 2008 3:05:57 GMT
"You don't have to be sorry for that.." I said quietly with a slightly shrug. ".. I know it's probably more than terrible to be stuck here.. but I don't know.. Just try to hold onto something."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 4, 2008 3:15:13 GMT
I didn't say anything to what he first said and to the second part I really wanted to say something along the lines of what? I've already lost everything, or something. And really, it shouldn't be like I have lost everything because I did still have the twins and I did still have Justin, even if I can't see them. But really what difference does that make? I didn't want to not be with Riley and it's not like we were going to get back together anytime soon. Nodding slightly I tried to think of something to say because I really didn't want to stay all that quiet. "Okay." I managed.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 4, 2008 3:19:52 GMT
I nodded slightly when she said okay and I didn't know what to add to that. I didn't really know what she had to hold onto, but I wanted there to be something. I mean, isn't knowing that if she gets out of here she'll be able to see the kids again? Either that, or she'll be in here so long that they'll come and visit. But that's not really the best though, is it?
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 4, 2008 3:25:14 GMT
Sighing softly I shut my eyes lightly. While being as tired as I was everything felt so much heavier, so much harder than it really was. It was hard enough to keep my head held up and to look at Riley when I did, but I wasn't going to let that show or let him figure that out in the least. "S-so um, how's work?" I asked like it was just an ordinary conversation that we were having.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 4, 2008 3:30:23 GMT
I shrugged slightly, kind of surprised that she asked me that, but starting to answer her anyway. "It's alright, I guess.." I said glancing over to her. "Nothing much is really new there."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 4, 2008 3:34:31 GMT
Why I asked that of all things I could've asked was beyond me, mostly because it had absolutely no releavence to this, and it really shouldn't be any of my business, and really, I was trying to aim for something a lot more random. "Both places?" I asked, remembering that he did in fact have two jobs.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 4, 2008 3:53:46 GMT
I nodded slightly, "Yeah... I'm getting better at handling it.. cut down on some hours at the Ministry actually.." I said a moment later, remembering that I did. "It hasn't been very busy there.. and mungo's seemed to need me a bit more.."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 4, 2008 3:55:22 GMT
"Well that's good." I commented softly. Really that was probably why he hadn't heard about me being in here right away, because he wasn't there as much as he used to be. Really where else would you hear about it besides the ministry?
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 4, 2008 4:00:27 GMT
I nodded slightly, ".. Yeah.. went to work today and one of my mate's came up to me and mentioned you being here.. had no idea." I said looking down at my hands again. "Guess that's what I get for not being there as much."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 4, 2008 4:02:23 GMT
So if being in here wasn't bad enough then the fact that it happened just at the time when Riley was cutting back on his hours and just happened to miss the fact I was here for the last week or two. "Nothing you can do, right?" I asked, smiling weakly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 4, 2008 4:31:36 GMT
I glanced over to her and shook my head slghtly, "Not right now." I said back to her attempting a fant smile back, even though I really didn't have a reason to be smiling at all. I was just smiling back because she smiled to me. "... But um.. I'll check around Ministry... Someone has to know something about this."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 7, 2008 3:05:39 GMT
I shook my head lightly. There wasn't anything he could do about it, not that I could see at least. "Right." I murmured softly, not acting like I didn't believe him. " 'Kay." I whispered softly, giving him a half smile.
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