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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 28, 2008 2:53:43 GMT
I dropped his hand slowly like it might burn me if I held it any longer. Moving back a step or so I gave him some space because I wasn't sure how comfertable he was with all of this. "Thanks." I whispered, looking down at the floor.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 28, 2008 2:55:02 GMT
"You were fine.." I said very quietly when she dropped my hand and moved back some. "And you're welcome."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 28, 2008 2:57:11 GMT
I shrugged faintly after he said I had been fine. That didn't matter, maybe, even though it was for him that I'd originally moved back for, maybe it was because I might be slightly uncomfertable from all of this, as much as I'd hate to admit. I really think I was starting to get uncomfertable. Here too.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 28, 2008 16:08:18 GMT
I let out a small breath and bit my lip slghtly as I stood there. I didn't know what to say to her. Honestly, I think I was a bit scared to speak, being sort of afraid of what else I could possibly say.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 29, 2008 2:05:08 GMT
I wanted to think of something to say, maybe move close to him and kiss him, but I didn't think that would be too smart considering I had just told him that I killed his sister just because it was his sister.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 29, 2008 2:08:02 GMT
I glanced back to her for a moment, unsure of what to say still. Hopefully just my being there was good enough for the moment because I just.. couldn't think. I didn't really want to think though, so maybe that was my problem.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 29, 2008 2:28:05 GMT
"How're the kids?" I asked after a moment, just realizing I hadn't thought about them at all since Riley had showed up, but that was only because Riley had shown up.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 29, 2008 2:30:19 GMT
"Um.. they're okay." I said nodding a little bit and letting out a small breath. "Girls are wondering where you are though..."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 29, 2008 2:36:49 GMT
"No more worries, you've found me." I said with some dry humor. "What's okay mean? They're just not having a horrid time? Or they're doing great?" I asked softly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 29, 2008 2:39:25 GMT
"Right.. too bad I can't tell them that." I said quietly, shaking my head faintly. I shrugged slightly at her next question because honestly, I wasn't sure. ".. I think it's somewhere in the middle.. they've come around a little bit, but they mostly just stay in their room.."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 29, 2008 2:41:28 GMT
"Why not?" I asked, they had a right to know where I was, maybe not particularily why I was where I was, but still. If they didn't know I was where I couldn't get out of they'd be thinking I was ignoring them. Nodding slightly at his answer I doubt I could've expected much better. They were mad at Riley as it was for leaving me.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 29, 2008 2:46:24 GMT
"Well.. I mean, I dunno.. I just didn't think you would want them to know you were here." I said with a small shrug, looking over to her. "I can tell them if you want."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 29, 2008 2:53:53 GMT
"It seems better than them thinking I've up and left them again." I whispered, softly, casting my eyes downwards again. "I don't care."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 29, 2008 2:56:13 GMT
"I wasn't going to let them think that." I said looking over to her again. "And I'm sure you care at least a bit.. so please just tell me if I should tell them or not.."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 29, 2008 3:00:27 GMT
I had never thought he was going to let them think that, but really what else could be wrong that would mean I wasn't just abandoning them. Well there could be me dead, or me kidnapped or something dumb, but really that'd be lying. "I don't care." I muttered, shrugging towards the ground now.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 29, 2008 3:03:21 GMT
I sighed slightly and just nodded. "Fine.. I'll tell them.." I said quietly. "They're going to ask why thoguh.."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 29, 2008 3:05:57 GMT
"Alright." I muttered, stepping back again, wanting to just be slightly further from him. What he said next I shrugged slightly to. Of course they'd ask.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 29, 2008 3:07:52 GMT
"Well what am I supposed to tell them?" I asked as I noticed her stepping further away from me. "I don't bite you know.."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 30, 2008 1:58:15 GMT
"Whatever you want." I said softly, biting my lip and then looking back up at him. "I can recall times when you've bitten me." I whispered with slight humor, shrugging faintly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 30, 2008 2:00:58 GMT
I sighed and just shook my head a little bit, "I don't want them to be scared of you." I said again, looking over to her again. When she said her second comment, I let out a very faint chuckle, "Well, yes, but I wasn't trying to hurt you."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 30, 2008 2:09:42 GMT
"Then don't give them reason too." I whispered softly, shrugging slightly again. I heard him chuckle faintly and I could only grin slightly. Really when was the last time I'd heard him chuckle or anything? We'd recently split, before all that we barely saw eachother without fighting when Riley and the kids were staying at the old Servansikk place. "I know." I whispered softly, smiling weakly towards him.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 30, 2008 2:16:03 GMT
"I'm not planning on it.." I said quietly back to her, putting my hands in my pockets. I looked over to her, seeing her smiling weakly and smiled faintly back to her wth a small nod.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 30, 2008 2:22:19 GMT
"Okay then." I said softly, watching him closely now, just because I really didn't want to forget anything about him, or something quite like that. "Uhm, I'm sorry for everything." I whispered softly. "I was probably driving you to leaving me even before this and I'm sorry." I murmured.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 30, 2008 2:26:42 GMT
I sighed a little bit with a small nod, looking down to the floor for a little bit. I looked over to her when I heard her whisper. ".. Thanks." I whispered back to her quietly, frowning slightly, unsure of really what else to say. ".. Only a little bit.. and I kept changing my mind.. So.. I dunno.."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 30, 2008 2:31:31 GMT
I nodded softly when he said thanks and continued watching him, seeing his frown and bit my lip softly. 'Only a little bit.' I felt a slight ping in my heart at thoughs words. I knew he'd wanted to break it off at some point, even if he kept changing his mind. I was still pushing him away. "I'm sorry still." I said, trying to force a weak smile to my lips.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 30, 2008 2:36:25 GMT
I bit my lip a little bit, chewing on it slightly for a breif moment before letting it go. I was thinking about breaking it off.. more than once, actually. But I could never go through with that, especially when we actually weren't fighting. Why would I mess something up if it was possibly going to be okay?
I nodded a little at what she said, "Yeah.. I know." I said glancing over to her forcing a weak half smile back to her.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 30, 2008 2:44:43 GMT
Looking down now I locked my hands together and started playing idly with my fingers. This never was going to get better, not even if a certain something suddenly happened now or if it happened years from now. There was no way because I was more than sure he'd already made up his mind and in my mind it would just be way too complicating, though now that I think about it I'd try. I really would. If I lasted that long.
"Okay." I whispered softly, watching as he forced a weak smile to his lips, it wasn't even a full smile.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 30, 2008 2:49:05 GMT
I looked at her a moment longer before moving my eyes back to the ground and slowly dropped the small smile that I did have on my face. I bit my lip a little bit again and glanced over to her a moment before looking back down to the floor. "So um.." I paused for a moment before shrugging slightly.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 30, 2008 2:52:06 GMT
"I dunno." I whispered, wondering why he was still here, remembering that I'd begged him to stay, really not wanting him to leave, and he had stayed and now we were getting nowhere because we both had no idea what to talk about.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 30, 2008 2:53:43 GMT
The longer I stood there the more depressed I seemed to get. I really didn't understand how Riyann could stand being stuck here for so long. ".. I don't know how you stand it here..." I said quietly looking around faintly.
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