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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 18, 2008 18:22:05 GMT
"Sometimes you can't go back Shell." I whispered, thinking of Sydney, wondering why since I never really thought about that anymore, not unless I was proving that I was a screw up. "Kind of like Sydney." I murmured under my breath.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 0:39:07 GMT
"I know. That's why I'm not even going to bother to mention it." she says glancing up at her for a second before looking back down at her hands. "It's not that important anyway."
Unless you think me choosing Draven over you is a mistake too.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 2:05:35 GMT
I nodded, wondering if I should ask her or just leave it at that, as it wasn't important. Though I knew Shelby wasn't telling the truth when she said that. "Why'd you want to know?" I finally asked in a whisper, not knowing what else to say, so that was it.
Hopefully it's something that I can handle knowing. If she answers.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 2:12:08 GMT
Shell sighs, tucking her curls behind her ears before looking up at her. "I made the mistake of choosing Draven over someone." she says knowing that she would get it. "But there's no changing that like you said so it's not important." Shell adds, swinging her feet around so she could turn and face the other way.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 2:17:43 GMT
I was slightly surprised to see her look up at me, all because she'd been avoiding my gaze the whole day so far. "O-oh." I whispered, softly. If I hadn't heard the reason she'd asked I would have corrected it. I hadn't said there was no way, just sometimes. This time was one of those sometimes, and I felt horrible about it. "I-I'm sorry Shell." I said, biting my lip. I really had thought, convinced myself, that she didn't love me like that. "Is that why you didn't want me here?" I asked, quieter than I had been with everything I'd said so far. Did I even want to know?
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 2:23:41 GMT
"Yeah, I'm sure you are." she whispers, leaning her head onto her knees before biting her lip. "I would say so. But you need the job and I love you so much so I can't really let my feelings get in the way of this though." she adds softly taking a glance over her shoulder before looking back to her knees. This was harder than she thought it would be.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 2:35:15 GMT
"I am Shell, I'm sorry." I said softly, scooting a little closer and putting a hand on her back, rubbing it slightly. "Thanks." I murmured softly, now it sounded like I was being kind of selfish. She loved me and was willing to ignore that so that I could work at the same place as her, but I couldn't do anything?
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 2:44:32 GMT
Shell nods lightly before taking in a sharp breath feeling Riyann rubbing her back lightly. It was werid, even this little sign of sympathy was painful. Shell frowns a bit scooting slightly back so she could lean against Riyann if she wanted but stops when she felt Riyann's knees.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 2:51:12 GMT
I heard her take in a sharp breath and hesitated before continuing to rub her back for a little bit. I, I didn't know what this was doing to her, how hard it was for her, if it was hard or not, but I wasn't going to be with her again, I loved Riley more than anything, and if he didn't love me, which I couldn't ever see happening, then I'd only leave if he wanted me too, I didn't want to make another mistake. I watched her as she scooted back a little until she hit my knees. Moving slightly, I moved forward a little and moved so that I could hug her from behind, my legs on either side of her.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 3:02:54 GMT
Shell bites her lip from getting another gasp pass through. She clenches her eyes shut refusing to her tears fall. "I-I'm getting a divorce I think..." she says softly, leaning into a bit into her but she knew that Riyann wouldn't leave Riley, Shell didn't expect her to. "I'm just gonna be a cat lady and lay in bed all day." she laughs slightly at herself cause she was almost serious about it.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 3:11:33 GMT
"Sorry." I said softly after hearing her gasp, starting to move back from her. "O-oh?" I asked softly, I hadn't exactly been expecting her to say that, not after just getting married to Draven, not after I hadn't said anything to regretting going back to Riley. I laughed a little when she said she was going to be a cat lady who would lay in bed all day. "I won't let you Shell." I said with a grin. "I'll drag you out of bed and out of the house and make you come and do something fun. Else I'll get Briar to do that." I added, laughing softly.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 3:14:12 GMT
"It's just not right. Never home, I keep thinking he's off with someone." she shrugs with a sigh. "I'm staying single and staying in bed forever. I'm not kidding." Shell stands up and walks over to Riyann's desk and sitting on it. "And no you won't. Neither will Briar. I don't deserve love or fate has already decided that I'll be single." she shrugs lightly again.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 3:19:46 GMT
I bit my lip a little at what she said to explain why she might get a divorce. "Hm, we'll go out to a club and I'll be the fat and unattractive pregnant lady that everyone has to look at and then they'll see you. Or maybe we can just go get ice cream and get fat together." I said, biting my lip a little as I thought about it, ignoring her whens she said that she'll be single. Turning a little I faced her and the desk as I had been speaking and then laid back against the floor as I had continued rambling about what I'd get her to do.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 3:27:46 GMT
"I'm not going anywhere Riyann." she says with a nod. "Maybe to a few quidditch games or something like that but I'm going to be the next McGonagall." Shell mutters, twisting her loose curls up into a tight bun just like her colleague. "Now I just need some old fashioned sapphire robes and I'm set."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 3:38:50 GMT
"Aw come on Shell, like old times." I said with a small smile to her like we hadn't been talking about her thinking of getting a divorce with Draven and loving me more, regretting leaving me for him. "Yeah, we'll get you those robes for Halloween when we decided to act like teenagers and go trick or treating." I said, shaking my head a little against the floor.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 3:49:50 GMT
"Riyann, I'm too old to be doing that." she says sternly crossing her arms over her chest. "I'm not seventeen or twenty two anymore." Shell sighs, getting slightly annoyed now. She had changed so much and it bothered her. So much for promising to herself to always being cheerful and having a smile on her face at all times almost. People used to think it was creepy seeing her constantly smiling but now they would ask where it went most of the time.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 3:52:43 GMT
"Shell too old is when you're 73." I said, shaking my head a little. "I'm not letting you be a cat lady who lays in bed all day." I added, shrugging a little. "Doesn't matter what we do, just so long as you're up off your arse with no more than one cat in the house." I said, sighing softly. So much for trying to get her to smile or laugh.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 4:04:43 GMT
Shell shrugs lightly. "I feel like I'm seventy three." she says honestly looking to her hands after a few seconds. "Riyann I really don't feel like doing anything besides that. But if it will make you happy then fine. We'll do something and then I'll stay in bed."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 15:58:07 GMT
"And you're not." I said, sighing softly. "I'm sorry Shell." I whispered softly, dropping the whole subject of making it so Shelby couldn't be a cat lady who stayed in bed, the only way she'd do something was to make me happy, and I didn't want to do that then.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 19:49:53 GMT
Shell stares at her slightly confused. "Why are you sorry Riyann? You haven't done anything."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 19:53:17 GMT
I shook my head against the ground and just stared up at the ceiling. "Nothing, nevermind." I murmured.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 20:36:05 GMT
Shell sighs, walking over to where Riyann was laying and sat down next to her. "I'm sorry about this. I shouldn't have told you Riy." she whispers, biting her lip lightly as she continued to glance at her.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 20:42:25 GMT
I heard Shelby get up and walk towards me and looked towards her as she sat down. "It's fine Shell." I murmured softly, shaking my head. "I asked." I whispered, looking at the ceiling again.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 20:45:39 GMT
Shell nods letting out a deep sigh. "So well this is awkward." she says softly looking to the ceiling as well for a few minutes before glancing back at Riyann.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 20:54:51 GMT
I shut my eyes lightly after a moment before looking at Shelby again. "I supose." I said softly, smiling weakly towards her.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 21:07:00 GMT
"Yeah, is it bad that I almost kissed you maybe four or five times already?" she asks averting her glaze to the ceiling again.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 21:10:16 GMT
"No, because you haven't." I whispered when she looked away again. I knew all along I would either be hurting Shelby or Riley in the end, but when she went with Draven, that made it so it wouldn't happen, because she wouldn't love me like that anymore. Except she still loves me and I'm hurting her.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 19, 2008 21:12:34 GMT
Shell sighs, almost tempted to do it again. "I'm sorry but..." she says moving a little away from her. I can't sit next to you that close. "I'm sorry." she whispers, feeling sorta guilty for some reason. She choose Draven and then Riyann choose Riley. She never was expecting to fall into this situation.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 19, 2008 21:19:09 GMT
I nodded a little. "You don't have to be sorry or apologize." I murmured, shaking my head a little this time. I didn't want Shelby to have to apologize, I'd gone and hurt her because I still loved Riley over her and she loved me more than Draven and I wasn't going to do anything like ruining my marriage again. "I knew I was going to hurt someone." I said quietly, shutting my eyes lightly.
You hurt Riley too, cheating on him and then leaving him to go stay with Shelby for those three weeks or so.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 20, 2008 4:12:35 GMT
"Riyann sweetie it's fine. Don't worry about it. Had my share of heartache, doesn't hurt as much as you think after so long." she nods, slightly lying but she didn't want her to feel bad about this. Shell made her decision, and Riyann made hers.
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