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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 15, 2008 23:51:38 GMT
I sighed softly. Job found, the only thing needed was for classes to start again. The least I could do is move my things into the office though, and that's what I was doing.
Teacher of Defense Against the Dark Arts, always was one of my favorite classes, along with Potions and Transfiguration, whenever I had shown up at least.
Wonder why I got the position. Dropped out of here and skipped most of my classes, seems, odd?
Then again I think what I had done was stupid, could you have blamed me though?
They had me start with 6th years and I was a 7th year by age, and then they were trying to hold me back again.
Still, me, a teacher?
I laughed softly at that thought.
I don't think Dumbledore was in his right mind to allow me in a room full of students when I hadn't have been bothered to show up as it was.
I'm going to be showing up this time around though.
I had told Riley I was going to look for a job since the house accident, and the first day I had, then the second. Finally on the third I was reduced to coming to the place I hadn't been in ten years, asked for a position, didn't matter what. I offered to work with the house elves, and he gave me a teaching position? One that I tried talking him out of doing, though I did quite like the class it was for.
Moving things up to the office, I sighed softly, looking around the empty classroom. The previous professor hadn't left anything except a few things, which I wasn't at all surprised to notice.
Except for when Dumbledore said he would supply some money for supplies for when I needed them for class. That I almost hit him for.
Almost, because there's no way I ever could come close to doing so, only could think about it.
I had old books, well they were Riley's I think, that I could teach from. Didn't see the point because I could just as well teach without a book, the whole Order, spy, and Death Eater thing.
Students would be happy not to have to lug an extra book around at least.
If I had money, which I will when I get around to getting a second job until this one starts, I'd go get new books, though I'd have to do that in time before letters were sent out for supplies list.
Turning into the office with a small shake of the head I looked around it, occasionally moving things to straighten it up. I didn't have a wand yet either.
"This'll be complicated."
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 16, 2008 0:10:04 GMT
Shell was walking down the hallway carrying a few books in her arms. She heard that there was a new DADA teacher just like every year since she's been there and wanted to help. Shell knew that she was still one of the younger teachers there and she proclaimed herself the welcoming committee when they did actually get a new professor which wasn't that often.
"Anyone here? I have these DADA books from the former professor and she wanted you to have them." she says walking up the aisle of desks and placing them onto the teacher's desk at the front of the room. She sighs, turning around and puts a hand through her straightened hair today, wiping the hair off her forehead.
Before opening her eyes, Shell caught a glimpse of Riyann standing there. "Why are you here? Were you talking to the new professor or something?" she asks crossing her arms lightly over her chest, still leaning against the desk now with a faint frown.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 16, 2008 0:17:04 GMT
I heard a voice, but ignored it for the time being, straightening several more things up. It didn't seem right and I already felt out of place. Just like when I left with Shelby, just like when I went back to Riley, just like when we went to his parent's house to stay for a short while.
Walking back out of the office, I smiled, seeing a small stack of books set at the desk in the front of the room. "Thanks." I said softly, turning my eyes from the books and to Shelby. I shouldn't exactly be surprised to see her, she worked here too. "Hi Shell." I said softly, smiling weakly towards her.
"Uh, or something." I said, biting my lip softly. "New professor." I said with a small shrug, seeing Shelby had a frown on her face, was it because I was here? Or because there's the possibility that I'll be working her. Moving a little bit I went and grabbed the few books from where she'd set them down and carried them back to the office that was now mine.
Wonder how long I'll be here for.
Not long if I didn't like it, just long enough for me to have money to help Riley out and everything.
Looking around the office briefly I set the books down with the others.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 16, 2008 0:30:11 GMT
She nods, just looking around the room and sighs a bit till she heard that she was the new professor. "You? You're not even graduated... how did you manage that?" Shell asks raising an eyebrow at her before she went off to the office in the back.
Shell sighs once she left, she felt a deep frown form on her face. Her and Draven well, were sorta falling apart. On top of that, her daughter was still with her least favorite cousin and the woman she told that she loved Draven more than her. Now it seemed she made a mistake but she wouldn't ever tell her that.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 16, 2008 0:37:41 GMT
"Don't try and ask me Shell." I said, biting my lip after I came back out. "Dumbledore offered me the job. I'm probably the most confused and surprised person there can be about this." I said with a small shrug. "He probably only gave it to me because I really need it right now and he didn't have anyone else." I said softly, looking away for a moment and trying to find something to do.
Sighing softly I looked back at Shelby and moved to the desk I'd be using for teaching and sat on the edge of it. "How've you been Shell?" I asked softly, looking towards her with a small smile.
Maybe this is awkward for her.
She said she loved Draven more, so she shouldn't be.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 16, 2008 0:45:03 GMT
"Yeah that's probably exactly it." she nods, pulling her crossed arms a little more tighter before pushing herself off the desk when Riyann leaned against it and sat on a student's desk just staring at the chalkboard. "Why do you need it anyway, you have Riley." she softly says, wincing slightly when she says his name.
"I'm fine." she says with a slight nod.
Why would you care anyway?
Shell sighs at herself, hating how she was being so bitter, cold and distant towards her right now. It was her fault she let her go, practically her decision. But Shell felt that Riyann would always love Riley and more than her.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 16, 2008 1:02:21 GMT
I sighed at her reaction, her arms crossed tighter, and wincing at Riley's name. "House is almost completly burned down." I said, smiling a little bit towards her, not entirely sure why, but maybe it was because she had to seriously ask why I needed a job when she knew I didn't like being dependent on people, maybe it was because, I should stop thinking of maybes. "Need the extra money for that reason and the fact that Zoe's pregnant and so am I." I said, shrugging lightly, not entirely sure if I should have said anything about Zoe.
"Oh, well that's good." I said, smiling weakly towards her. I tried to ignore the bitter and cold tone she used and just nodded a little bit, wondering if she was lying or not.
Why would she lie about it?
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 16, 2008 1:14:55 GMT
Shell frowns a little deeper at her reaction to their house being burnt down.
Why is she smiling about that?
"Oh well, I'll be paying for Zoe. Wouldn't want to burden you." she mutters feeling a sting go through her heart when she mentions Zoe.
She nods, letting her arms fall to her sides. "So, do you need any help with your classroom or anything?" Shell asks with a straight face, while still avoiding her eyes.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 16, 2008 1:19:15 GMT
I shook my head a little, a small frown on my lips. I probably shouldn't have smiled, but really it was only because of what Shelby said. I sound insane even to myself.
"It's fine Shell. We'll manage it somehow. We always do." I mumbled in a small whisper. I knew Shelby had a lot to take care of herself, didn't want her to pay for Zoe when Zoe wasn't even staying with her.
"At the moment, I don't even know what to do." I said as she avoided looking me in the eyes, but I ignored that and just looked at her for a moment longer before looking around the room with a small sigh. There was a reason I was here early, to figure out stuff before I made an even bigger fool of myself.
I always do in the end though.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 16, 2008 1:31:19 GMT
"No, she's my daughter, it's my grandchild, so I'll pay. I don't even want her there with you, debating on whether or not to enforce the I'm your mum and you're not seventeen yet rule." she mutters, finally looking up at Riyann but it was a death glare. "I've taken care of her for sixteen years and I'm not going to forfeit to anyone, especially you two." she mutters, feeling awful after she said that, but when it came to her kids she wasn't the nicest person when it was a negative topic.
"Just put your stuff where you want it, move the desks around for yours and the students' environment, and just get accustom to how you grade and deal with all the teachers." she shrugs looking back to her hands. "It's not that hard."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 16, 2008 1:41:18 GMT
"I'm sorry Shell." I muttered, not wanting to fight with her, but when she said especially you two I didn't even care. "She'll only hate you more if you make her do things Shelby, sorry for trying to give you advice and all since you're right all the time. But I'd avise you to leave if you're going to continue." I said, glaring at her.
"Thanks." I said softly, nodding a little as I kept my gaze from her.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 16, 2008 1:50:29 GMT
Shell just laughs a bit before standing up and walking over to her. "I don't care if she hates me. It's my job to take care of her, be a good mom and make sure she's safe. Don't think it's really wise to leave her with two people who almost fell apart, no actual house to themselves, and have a baby on the way." she says stopping about a foot away from her.
"Did you tell Dumbledore about your past? Trust me I'll find a way so you don't work here if you continue as well." she smirks crossing her arms again. "Now if you need help speak up cause I'm not gonna continue to stand here." she whispers, as she bit her lip.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 16, 2008 2:02:05 GMT
I continued to keep my eyes on her as she stood up and started walking over. "And you're a better choice to her?" I asked, laughing softly. "Don't forget what you've been through Shelby, what you've put your own kids through, you think what has happened between Riley and I is anything, think about that." I said, an amused smile on my lips. "We're going to fix the house and for now we're in Riley's parents house, it's bigger so I'm sure it's also better, right?" I asked, raising a small eyebrow. "If Zoe doesn't want to go back Shelby, I'll help her in whatever way she wants." I said, not moving from where I was as she stopped infront of me.
"Now I'm sure that's none of your concern, is it Shelby?" I asked, smiling towards her as she smirked and crossed her arms. "I don't need the help from you and no one's stopping you from leaving."
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 16, 2008 2:10:41 GMT
Shell just shook her head, feeling her temper starting to flare which meant Rubalyn was on the rise soon. "Oh Riyann. I know I'm a way better choice compared to a pathetic, former druggie that dropped out of Hogwarts." she mutters with a wicked smirk forming on her lips, before slipping into Rubalyn's state.
She glances around and was rather suprised to see Riyann. "Wow, wouldn't figure it was you she was about to attack. Had the killing curse in mind..." she says raising an eyebrow. "But for once I'm on her side, Zoe should be with her. After all, you can't even take care of yourself Riyann. Letting your house burn, have no money, and everything else she said." she says but she felt something strange from Shell's end. "God you're indecisive..." she mutters to herself in a way of talking to Shell.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 16, 2008 2:21:28 GMT
"Right Shelby, former." I said, shaking my head lightly at her. "And as I recalled she wanted to drop out from Hogwarts herself, but you know, forcing her not to won't work Shelby. You've got to be there for her instead." I said, not even caring what she said about me anymore.
Hearing her next words I let a small sigh from my lips, obviously it wasn't Shelby anymore. "And you let her not use it?" I asked, laughing softly. "Or did you just want to do the job?" I asked, shaking my my head a little with an amused smile still. "I had no control over the house burning. Zoe should be where she can be taken care of, not forced to do things. She's sixteen, she's not going to listen, she wants to do the opposite, forcing her will do nothing. And besides, you'd think Shelby would want her kids to be with someone with a little bit more self control." I said, glaring towards her, barely catching her talking to Shelby out loud.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 16, 2008 3:08:04 GMT
"Self control huh? You seem to make many mistakes and you know Shell didn't mean to say that to Zoe. She overeacts like she always does. Wanted her children not to end up like her and fall pregnant like she did. Shell practically raised those children alone. You couldn't even handle your two I bet." Rubalyn mutters feeling a bit of a frown forming on her lips.
Rubalyn sighs and just looks at her feeling a couple tears sliding down her cheeks. "Damnit." she mutters, knowing that they were Shell's tears and hated when Shell could take control back but wouldn't. "She just wants her daughter back Riyann. Zoe is still her baby and you keep her away from her. She never meant any of that..." she whispers, hating this more and more as the tears poured from her eyes.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 16, 2008 3:16:39 GMT
"I was talking about over you Ruby. Haven't you caused Shelby and everyone enough trouble?" I asked, glaring towards her. "I'm doing just fine, or are you going to critic my parenting?" I asked another question with an eyebrow raised, not paying attention to the frown on her lips.
"I'm not doing anything." I said, shaking my head. "Zoe came and asked me if she could move in. I only said yes because she needed someone who would not critize her, someone who could be a friend and not force them to do everything. Shelby should know that." I said, watching as tears continued to roll down her face. I couldn't tell if it was Ruby or Shelby crying. "I'm sorry, but it's Zoe's choice and Shelby's got to work it out with her on her own, not bloody well bossing her around like she does nearly everyone else." I said, knowing that I didn't mean half those words, but if it meant Shelby would leave me alone, then fine. I loved Shelby, I did, but I loved Riley more and she helped me figure that out.
That and she always says things to hurt me and I can't say anything back.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 16, 2008 3:25:00 GMT
Ruby just shakes her head turning around and walking to desk. "So you rather break her heart even more. Nice of you." she says shaking her head still before sitting on the surface just staring at her hands before Shell took back over and nearly fainted on the desk.
She looks at her hands just shaking a bit before feeling more tears pour down her face. "Riyann, I just want my baby girl back home where she belongs..." she whispers in a sobbing voice. "I'm so sorry to her, I just want her back."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 16, 2008 3:29:54 GMT
"When did I break her heart?" I asked, raising an eyebrow, realizing that I hadn't asked it fast enough and then Shelby was back. I hadn't broken Shelby's heart, not once. She told me that she loved Draven more and that hurt a lot, she broke my heart there and I got over it and got over Shelby and went back to Riley. I never told her she broke my heart, but it's irrelevant now.
"I can't do anything Shelby. You've got to talk to her." I whispered softly, feeling nearly worse now after hearing everything I'd said repeat back in my mind. "Even if I could she wouldn't listen." I said softly, shaking my head a little.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 16, 2008 3:38:56 GMT
Shell glances up at her and frowns deeply. "She probably won't talk to me." she whispers, wiping a few of her tears away. "You could have told her to go back home Riyann." Shell adds still feeling weak as she pushed herself off the desk nearly falling in the floor.
"But do you need any help around here Riy?" she asks softly shuffling her feet over to her teacher's desk slowly and trips a bit falling into the floor. "Damnit." she mutters, feeling more tears down her face as she just stared at her feet. "I can't do anything right can I?"
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 17, 2008 1:30:03 GMT
"Shelby, Zoe doesn't hate you." I said, shaking my head and taking a hesitant step towards her. "And have her not listen and go somewhere else that we wouldn't have an idea where?" I asked. "Shelby, she's stubborn like you are." I said, shaking my head a little.
"I don't, not right now." I whispered, moving forward again as she tripped and knelt in front of her. "Course you can."
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 17, 2008 1:52:11 GMT
"Yes she does, you said it yourself." she mutters, wiping her eyes again before glancing up at her. "No, but I just want her home Riyann." she says with a frown moving herself so she was sitting indian-style on the floor.
Shell nods, looking at the floor instead of her. "No I can't. Name one thing I have done right."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 17, 2008 2:00:50 GMT
"No, I did not say she hates you, I said she'll hate you more. So it sounded like it Shelby, I'm sorry." I said, letting a sigh past my lips, trying to figure out why I could never seem to say things right. "So it wasn't anything I could do Shelby, why don't you talk to her?" I asked, biting my lip softly.
"One thing, doesn't matter what?" I asked raising a small eyebrow. "Because I can give you more than one thing, but starting off with today, you brought the books here, didn't see any of them ripped to shreads." I said, smiling weakly.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 17, 2008 2:10:02 GMT
"But just a second ago you said that she doesn't hate me. Now you're saying that she'll hate me more if I take her away from wherever you're staying." she says slightly confused at this. Shell always hated feeling this way. Usually when she was like this she made her worst decisions. This reminded her of when she went on her walk when thinking about Riyann and Draven. She was confused then and made the wrong choice. Can't really change it now after she said that she loved Riley more.
Shell raises an eyebrow. "I mean something big Riyann, like preventing Zoe's condition, or Vi's broken arm or realizing that James is getting traces of being a werewolf like Jay." she says still staring at the ground.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 17, 2008 2:19:53 GMT
"I was referring to what I said earlier." I said softly, shaking my head slightly. "I'm saying she'll hate you if you're going to force her to do things Shelby, I know it sounds stupid and, and just utterly stupid, but she's sixteen, hardly old enough to see your side of this." I said, shaking my head a little bit again. I hadn't been meaning to confuse her, I just couldn't find away to explain any of it, maybe I should keep my mouth shut because I'm no good with explaining.
"How did you mess up James having traces of a werewolf?" I asked, not going to answer her until she realized that it wasn't her fault in any way. "Shell, people make mistakes, it doesn't always have to be your fault." I wonder how this was for Riley, trying to tell me these things when I had always been trying to blame myself.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 17, 2008 2:28:23 GMT
Shell just nods faintly, still hating how her little girl could have taken her so seriously when she had overreacted before about things. Shell never meant to, just she had a temper. "I know I know, it's she's so much like me when I was that age, but I guess not." she shrugs lightly taking a look up at Riyann. It still hurt even to look at her, so she averted her eyes back to the ground.
"Because he tried to bite a friend of his and his mother is all panicked about it. They might take James away somewhere." she whispers, feeling the tears forming again behind her eyes. "I feel like it's my fault Riyann."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 17, 2008 2:38:22 GMT
"She'll come around Shell." I said with a small, reasuring smile towards her, even after she looked up at me and then back to the ground. I wasn't entirely sure if it was because of something or if I was just that hard to look at. "You keep looking away Shell." I said, a faint laugh dancing in with my words, trying to lighten the mood a little.
"Shell." I whispered, moving a little and pulling her into a hug. "I'll help in whatever way I can, they won't, they can't take James away." I said, softly, feeling a tear or two fall down my face as well. "I'll do anything to make it so they can't."
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 17, 2008 2:56:53 GMT
Shell sighs still looking at the ground. It felt like they were glued there now. "I know Riyann, thanks for stating the obvious." she whispers, still with a straight face.
Shell frowns a little, barely wrapping her arms around Riyann and resting her head on her shoulder lightly. "Thank you love." she whispers softly before mentally kicking herself. Shell breaks from the hug and scoots back some returning her glaze to her hands.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 17, 2008 18:16:57 GMT
"Sorry." I mumbled with a small sigh, knowing that whatever I tried to do to lighten the mood or cheer Shelby up was not going to work.
I felt her hug me back slightly and smiled a little. "You're welcome." I whispered back before she pulled from the hug and moved away from me slightly, causing my to bit my lip and frown slightly.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 18, 2008 5:09:42 GMT
Shell nods lightly glancing up at her with a frown of her own. "What if I made a mistake Riyann that I wish didn't happen?" she asks with a sigh, biting her lip just like Riyann was.
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