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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 3:17:30 GMT
The both of them nodded simply, though there was doubt in their minds. They had heard him yelling that she wasn't going to leave him, that she wasn't goint to take them either, and they had heard so many times their mum saying she was going to leave and he didn't have a right to boss her around. And then she'd left them instead of just Riley and it felt horrible, like she didn't love them and was just abandoning them. "She won't be." Charlotte whispered under her breath, Ella not understanding what she said, but left it at that.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 3:27:02 GMT
I hugged them tightly and hearing Charlotte pulled slightly out of the hug, looking over at her. "Lottie.. she'll be back..." I said quietly, wiping a few more tears from her cheeks gently. "She loves you too more than anything. She'll be back."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 3:29:41 GMT
Lottie just shook her head at what he told her, keeping her eyes shut tight and pretending that'd make everything alright again. "No she doesn't." She muttered softly before pushing herself closer to Riley, hugging him tighter and crying a little more.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 3:33:27 GMT
I felt more tears fall from my eyes and shook my head, hugging her tightly back. "Yes she does.. don't ever think that she doesn't." I said quietly to her, it breaking my heart even more than it already was. "She does."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 3:35:17 GMT
"Then why'd she leave me daddy?" She asked, pulling away to look at him with her lip quivering.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 3:37:12 GMT
I looked back at her and shook my head. "She didn't leave you honey..." i said quietly, shaking my head. "I promise... You didn't do anything."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 3:39:01 GMT
Charlotte shook her head as she pressed it against his chest again, Ariella just watching her sister and feeling even worse. She hadn't even really been thinking about those things, just about the fight really. But Charlotte didn't believe a word of it, mum didn't love her anymore and she'd left.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 3:42:43 GMT
"Mum loves you both..." I said again, shaking my head. "I promise.. I promise..." I added quietly, wiping my face again as more tears fell, becoming more upset witih riyann foir leaving now.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 3:44:37 GMT
Both of them stayed silent still, Ariella with her eyes shut and slowly falling asleep, Charlotte, trying to figure out what she might've done wrong.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 3:48:06 GMT
They were both quiet and I let out a small sigh, unlcoking the door to my room with magic and picking up both of them before walking inside and over to the bed. I set them down. Charlotte and then Ella on the bed, not wanting to wake Ella and seeing Lottie deep in thought.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 3:51:55 GMT
Charlotte barely noticed as Riley moved them into his room, her eyes falling on the locket laying on the floor and she moved off the bed she'd just been moved to and grabbed the locket up, seeing it open and seeing the picture. The locket itself was a little dent, but it didn't matter and she stuck it in her pocket, fingers clasped lightly on it as she moved back to the bed and crawled in next to Ella, hugging her sister with her free hand.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 3:57:04 GMT
I saw Charlotte move her eyes to the locket and a moment later, she got up and walked over to it. I watched as she picked it up, letting her hold onto it. she came back to the bed, laying down with her sister and I watched them for a moment, sitting back down on the bed, leaning against the headboard.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 4:00:03 GMT
"Love you dad." Charlotte whispered before shutting her eyes lightly and trying to fall alseep like her sister had easily done.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 4:02:11 GMT
"I love you too Lottie." I said quietly back, watching as she tried to fall asleep and got up, getting a blanket for them, putting it over them so they'd be comfortable. "Love you too..." I whispered quietly again before laying back down, hugging Riyann's pillow closer to me.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 4:07:41 GMT
Lottie felt the blanket fall over them and smiled softly despite the fact she thought her mum hated her and slowly fell asleep.
[[good job in making me feel guilty about this. lmao]]
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 4:09:01 GMT
I watch the girls until they were asleep before slowly falling asleep myself, wanting to stop thinking about everything.
[[ lmao, nooooo, haha XD um.. sorry? ]]
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 4:14:20 GMT
[[^^ lol tis okay]]
I bit down against my lip softly. I hadn't slept at all that night and I figured it was stupid to even stay the night at the pub because it was just a waste of money on my part. Shaking my head softly I slowly walked into the house, having had apparated outside the front door, and hoped I wouldn't wake anybody. It was early yet and I hadn't gone to work because I hated the job as it was and called in sick, which wasn't much of a lie. But right now it was probably close to 4 in the morning and there wasn't any other sounds in the house.
Nothing much had changed since I'd left and I was starting on thinking about leaving for good. At least just Riley. I loved the girls to death, but what if we kept on fighting instead of everything getting better like it had the last times.
My eyes were still clouded with tears as I searched through my bags for my wand. I was an idiot to leave with out it, a bigger one to put it in my bags.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 4:18:20 GMT
I woke up hours later, slowly opening my eyes, seeing the room to be darker. I wasn't sure what had woken me and I didn't know what time it was until I turned around and looked at the clock. Four in the morning. I looked over at the girls, seeing them to be asleep and slowly and quietly got out of bed. Maybe to get a glass of water.. or some tea.
As I was walking out I saw someone by the door and turned on a light, seeing it was Riyann and just staring at her, unsure of what to do.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 4:21:40 GMT
I ignored the footsteps coming out of our bedroom and continued my search, cursing very quietly under my breath as I couldn't find it, ignoring the light and staring eyes as I did look. Why I didn't just take everything with me was beyond my knowledge. Feeling my fingers clasp around the wood I smiled softly and pulled it out, stood up straight and shoved it in my front pocket of my jeans before shutting the bag and finally turned around to see who had gotten up at 4 in the morning and I simply watched Riley.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 4:26:05 GMT
I watched as she got out her wand and put it back in her pocket before turning around and looked at me. I watched her for a while, not smiling as I saw her. "The girl's are sleeping.." I said quietly, looking down at the floor for a moment. "You leaving again?" I asked as I raised a small eye brow to her with my arms crossed infront of me.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 4:30:01 GMT
"Huh, tell them I love them then." I said, watching him. "Doesn't seem like you much want me back as it is." I said, explaining why I told him to tell them, explaining with that that I was leaving again. I couldn't exactly expect him to welcome me with open arms, could I? This was the second time I'd left him so I deserved whatever he wanted to through at me. Brushing some hair out of my face I lifted a bag up and slung it around so it was sitting on my shoulder better.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 4:35:42 GMT
"I just don't understand why you're doing this." I said shaking my head slightly, watching as she slung her bag over her shoulder. "You should stay." I said quietly, still looking at the floor instead of her. I needed more time to cool off and she needed to tell the girls that she still loved them. The girls were who were important. "And I already did.." I started looking up to her, pretty sure my eyes were bloodshot. "Lottie didn't believe me." I told her quietly.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 4:41:44 GMT
"Why? Because I couldn't take it anymore and then things just got out of hand when you started telling me what I couldn't do Riley." I said, keeping my voice down because of the twins, but I shook my head, my eyes lightly closed for a moment before I looked back at him, seeing he couldn't look at me. "You don't seem to want me here." I said, shaking my head lightly. I could feel my heart drop when he told me that Lottie didn't believe it, but I couldn't tell her myself if I was leaving. Maybe I shouldn't, but I knew that I didn't want to be with Riley for now as it was. All because of a stupid misunderstanding and then yelling. Logical reasoning, huh? I didn't say anything about it though, just looked away when he looked up at me finally.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 4:47:04 GMT
I sighed a little shaking my head slightly. "I did those things because this is all I know.. I didn't want you to leave. Believe it or not Riyann, but I love you. I love you and I love the kids.." I said calmly, looking at the floor for a moment before up to her. "You're all I have.." I added quietly.
"I want you here, it just doesn't seem like you want to be here." I said quietly too, frowning slightly. "If you're leaving I want you to tell the girls why.. and I want to know why... cause I thought you loved me."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 4:56:29 GMT
I knew I could believe him with what he was saying, I mean I have had so many hours to think about it and I was the biggest idiot there ever was, but he couldn't even look at me as he spoke and I didn't know why, or what to say to him. When it came down to it all, he was all I ever would and have had. I moved a hand lightly and wiped my eyes and looked at the wall beside me for a moment. How do you tell the one you love that you made one of the biggest mistakes a second time and you want to take it back? "I love you Riley." I whispered quietly so that he could only hear it if the girls were to wake up and listen I wasn't sure why I said it that quiet, I just did.
If you're leaving I want you to tell the girls why, and I want to know why, cause I thought you loved me. It kept playing through my mind and I felt sick again and was tempted to run to the bathroom incase I did get sick. That hurt, to know that I'd left for a while, come back and only decided to leave because it seemed like he didn't want me here, and then he thought I bloody well didn't love him.
"I do love you though." I whispered, wiping my eyes again as I looked at him when I said it.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 5:04:18 GMT
I watched her as she stayed silent for a moment, seeing her wipe her eyes and then hearing her whisper quietly. She said she loved me still and that just made this all the more confusing. She says she loves me and yet she still wanted to leave.. she still did leave. I didn't know how much more I could take.
I looked up her again, seeing her wipe her eyes as she told me she loved me again. I did love her and I did want to say it back, so I don't know why it was so hard at that moment. I looked at her a moment longer before looking at the floor again. "Do you trust me?" I asked again glancing back up to her, and asking that instead of saying I love you back to her. Feeling bad about not saying it as soon as I asked her the question. I wanted to add it now, but I felt like it was too late to even though I doubt that it actually was.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 5:11:09 GMT
I heard the silence fall around us, feeling extremely uncomfertable at the moment. I couldn't stand it and turned and looked down at my bags, moving through them and getting them together, just so that it made some small amount of noise.
I heard his question and bit down against my lower lip a little harder. Why did I even have to come back? I'd messed everything up. Standing up straight again I picked up more bags, nodding my head lightly, not saying yes like I should have, being more unclear about it and glanced up at him. "Bye Riley." I said, holding myself back from breaking down infront of him. I knew he loved me, but it didn't matter how much he said he wanted me to stay his actions and word choice told me the exact opposite and I turned, placing my hand on the doorknob. Maybe it wasn't a waste of money to get the damn room for a night.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 5:16:40 GMT
I felt my heart drop even more as she said nothing, feeling like my face went white as she said bye a few moment later. I paused for a moment, not taking my eyes off her. I wasn't sure of what to do and I didn't even notice that she didn't asnwer my question. I didn't want her to leave. I loved her so much and I couldn't bare to think that Riyann would leave, just like that. I shook my head again, feeling tears run down my cheeks again.
I shook my head and walked toward her, grabbing her hand as she put it on the doorknob.
"Please don't leave.." I said quietly, feeling a couple more tears fall down my face. This hurt more than I remembered it hurting and I looked into her eyes as she stood there, realising just now how much I really depended and leaned on her.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 20, 2008 5:23:36 GMT
I hadn't so much as let another tear fall down from my eyes as I stared at the doorknob for what feel like forever when it wasn't very long before he grabbed my hand.
"I don't know what you want, but please don't make me stand here and figure it out." I whispered, looking up at him. He said he loved me, he didn't want for me to leave but he was so guarded and made it seem like he really wanted for me to go. This was starting to hurt me more than I wanted it, and I know it wasn't my bags weighing down on my shoulders that was hurting me. I bit down against my lip as it started quivering a little.
I hate this.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 20, 2008 5:29:09 GMT
I shook my head feeling a few more tears fall as I stood there. "Please don't go.. please." I said shaking my head as she stood there. There really wasn't much I could do if she wanted to leave, but I didn't want her to. I tried to put up a wall, but I just couldn't do it anymore. And I started to wonder why I did it in the first place. So here I was, standing infront of her, pleading for her to say. I really didn't realise how much I really did need her. I kept my hand on top of hers, closing my eyes for a moment and swallowing the small knot that was in my throat.
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