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[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged faintly. "I already knew though." I said sort of quietly. She didn't really have to admit it.. but I nodded again. "I wish I wasn't too."

[Arden Patricks]

I raise my eyebrows slightly, a little surprised because that seems to against what he was right about to begin with. Unless he's just forgotten the specifics, since we're being so vague and not actually saying what he predicted.
"That's odd...." I say slowly. "Thought you were a fan of all that love-stuff."

[Riley Pearson]

"I am, but.." I paused for a moment shrugging faintly. "What you've been through just isn't very fair." Not to mention I didn't like her second choice of Logan, so maybe I was just a bit bitter with the whole situation.

[Arden Patricks]

"Not supposed to be fair." I shrug slightly. "And what about you? Does that mean... you wish you'd never fallen in love? Would you rather have that than what's happened instead?"
If losing Travis and then being with a guy who's practically not human isn't fair with me, I'd think what he's been through with Ryann and then me isn't very fair to Riley, and by rights if he agrees that I never should've loved in the first place, the same ought to be true of him.

[Riley Pearson]

I paused again, not saying anything for a few moments now. "... I don't know... I don't think so though." I said after thinking about it a bit longer. Yes, I went through, probably more than enough of pain, but there were still a lot of good moments. "I will admit my life would've been easier without it though.. But I guess I don't.. regret it, or anything.."

[Arden Patricks]

I eye him for a moment, then nod. "I don't think I regret it all either, really. Except when I think that it seems as though we'll both be right."

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded faintly, "I mean.. If none of it happened I wouldn't have my kids.." I said after a moment. "... Wait, what about both being right?" I asked, not exactly positive what she means by that.

[Arden Patricks]

"That's true," I agree, tilting my head. "And... nothing in particular. Just... you remember what the bet was, don't you? I said I was planning to be a lonely old maid; you said that whether I liked it or not I'd fall in love at some point? So far you've been right, but I think in the end we'll both be."

[Riley Pearson]

I chuckled faintly and shook my head, I was going to add that no, I couldn't specifically remember it, but she started to say what it was anyway, so I stayed quiet.
I nodded faintly, understand what she meant once it was explained. "You don't want to be a lonely old maid, do you though?" I asked, finding it slightly odd if she did.

[Arden Patricks]

"No, not particularly." I laugh slightly. "But Logan and I are going to fall apart anyway, eventually, and even if somehow we don't he's going to get caught. So I'm just delaying the inevitable now, even if you were right."

[Riley Pearson]

I laughed faintly and nodded, "I was hoping not.." I said with a weak smile.
I shrugged faintly, I was pretty sure that I delayed the inevitable with Riyann for quite some time so I guess I can't really blame her for sticking around him... no matter what's bound to happen.
"You don't think there'll be anyone else?" I asked sort of quietly a moment later.

[Arden Patricks]

"Not very likely," I say, shaking my head. "I mean... how many chances does a person really get?"

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged faintly, "I don't know.." I said sort of quietly, "I don't think there's really a limit." If we all only had two chances, I was pretty much done for. Riyann and Arden. And to me that just wasn't fair. Only one of them loved me back, so that shouldn't even count, right? But then again.. I guess this was all just my opinion.
I would mention this, but I didn't really want to make it anymore awkward.. Plus, both of the people she loved returned the feelings.

Really, in the back of my mind, even though I knew that I was basically dead right now, there was something saying that once Logan was gone.. and some time had passed, she could love me.. Which I guess was ridiculous to think for two reasons. One being that I probably wasn't going to live that long and the other being that I'm pretty sure she's already told me that wasn't going to happen.
Which is the reason why I still don't say this. I think I'm sick of hearing myself say it anyway, so she must be even more sick of it.
The last thing I want is for her to think she has to leave.

[Arden Patricks]

"Not a specific one, no." I shake my head, shrugging. "I just can't imagine that there's anyone else I could love. Like fate's already given me two chances... maybe three... and I screwed it up so that's it. It isn't... isn't fate's fault that I used up my chances so soon, you know?"
And this is a strange thing to talk about, I realize, but kind of refreshing as well, in the way that it's not just a surface conversation, not just hi-how-are-you? It feels like it's been a long time since we could really talk like this.

[Riley Pearson]

"It doesn't mean you're completely out of chances though.." I commented after a short moment. I was trying to remove myself from all of this, because it seemed fairly obvious I wasn't involved in anything she was speaking about and it shouldn't, but it sort of bothered me.
Unless I was maybe the third chance?
"I don't see how you personally screwed anything up." I said looking over to her with a faint shrug.
Despite the slightly sore subject with me, this was actually sort of nice. We were actually speaking to eachother, so I guess I didn't mind the small bit of an upset feeling.

[Arden Patricks]

"No, not necessarily," I shrug. "But I think I've at least gotten as many as I deserve, so... it's really very doubtful there will be any more."
And there's really no response to the second thing he's said, except that I don't know either but that's how fate works.

[Riley Pearson]

"So you think deserve to be alone?" I asked, shaking my head weakly, wanting to understand more about what she was saying.
I was waiting for her to say something to the second thing I said, but I guess I wasn't that lucky because she seemed to just not reply to it. "Can I just ask though.. Travis and Logan, those were the two.. So was I the possible third?" I wasn't sure if this answer should be obvious or not, but I didn't much care if it was or not right now.

[Arden Patricks]

"Well... maybe," I shrug. "If I'm stupid enough to not... not be able to hold onto anybody, then I guess I'll just get what I ask for." Then I bite my lip, looking down before finally nodding. "... Yeah. That would be you. It's a 'maybe' because... I still just don't know, but I do know that I would be lucky to have you, so... I think it oughtta count in the 'letting things slip by' category."

[Riley Pearson]

"I thought you seemed to be holding onto people pretty well." I said sort of quietly with a faint shrug. I guess it was her opinion and I was looking at everything from a different point of view. "I don't really think anyone deserves to be alone though.."
I nodded slightly when she said that it would have been me. "You still don't know if you love me?" I asked, frowning faintly. If she didn't know, my guess would have to be that she didn't. "I don't know if I'd call it slipping by, exactly." Mainly though, because I still did love her and if I wasn't dying and she suddenly decided that she loved me, I wouldn't say no to her. ".. But I guess if you want to call it that.."

[Arden Patricks]

"I don't know, never mind," I say quickly, feeling unreasonably irritated that he doesn't know what I mean because I doubt I can explain it any better. "It's just... okay, so I lost Travis. Theoretically not my fault but it could have been karma, or... or something that I did, something wrong and I don't even know it. Then there was you, and I was... am... stupid enough to not love you back as much as I should. So then... there's Logan but that's just doomed because the universe us sick of giving me chances at this and if I can't hold on... that's it."
I don't think I normally let on, not entirely, just how superstitious I am. It's practically a religion. So this probably sounds a bit nuts, but it is the way I think.

[Riley Pearson]

"Yeah.. but I just don't see it as your fault. Especially not Travis.. or that Logan is doomed, or whatever." I said shaking my head weakly. "And you can't help who you love more.."
I don't think I much like the way she's think about these sort of things.

[Arden Patricks]

"No, not... specifically," I shrug, not sure if that's the right word. Pretty sure it's not. "But there must be a reason, I guess, so maybe that's just how it should be."

[Riley Pearson]

"Which bit are you talking about?" I asked a moment later. "Sorry, just.. you lost me a bit."

[Arden Patricks]

I shake my head a little confused myself, then shrug. "Never mind; it's all just stupid anyway."

[Riley Pearson]

I didn't really find it to be stupid.. but if she wanted to stop talking about it I guess I was just going to let her. Anyway, if I hadn't started asking questions we'd probably still be talking anyway. "Alright.. sorry I killed the conversation then." I said before starting to play with my own hands slightly, even after this long, I still wished I had my wedding ring to play with.. That got to be quite a habit for me and now I don't even know where the damn thing is.

[Arden Patricks]

"What are you talking about?" I ask, frowning at him. "You didn't kill the conversation; I did."

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged faintly, "Just feel like I killed it in the long run.." I said looking back over to her. "With all the questions.. and," I shrugged a little bit. "I dunno."

[Arden Patricks]

"No, it's fine." I shake my head. "That's the sort of conversation that's destined to die."

[Riley Pearson]

"We were doing so well though." I said with a soft chuckle, smiling faintly.

[Arden Patricks]

"True, but no conversation can last forever." I shrug slightly.