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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 2:10:49 GMT
I nodded faintly, "Alright." I paused again, biting my lip for a second. "Since you're not drinking, and you won't let me drink.. why're we both still sitting here?" I asked a moment later.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 17:05:59 GMT
"That's a fairly decent question...." I shrug, shaking my head. "I don't know. Have any place in mind we could go?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 17:18:38 GMT
I shook my head faintly, "I dunno really." I said before letting out a small breath. "We could just walk or something.." I Shrugged.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 18:10:02 GMT
"True...." I shrug slightly, standing up. "That or go our ways, but I don't much want to go home yet and I want to make sure you're all right."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 18:15:29 GMT
"I don't really wanna go home yet either." I said a bit quiet before I nodded faintly to what she had said. "I'll be fine.." I said as I stood up off the stool, losing my balance a bit once I was on my feet, and falling slightly into Arden, though catching myself before long on the bar.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 18:19:54 GMT
I nod, starting to reply before he stumbles like that and I glare at him instead. "You know, I feel like your mother when I say this, but could you please promise you don't go out and do this again?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 18:25:08 GMT
I gain my balance, looking down at her as she glared up to me. ".. Sorry." I mumbled before nodding faintly. "... yeah.. promise." I said, even though I wasn't sure that was something I could promise, but I did want to promise her and I was going to try.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 18:32:07 GMT
"Good," I nod, though I'm suddenly remembering why I was so irritated with him.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 18:37:16 GMT
I nodded slightly, reaching in my pocket and putting the money for the drinks on the bar top. ".. Sorry if I end up breaking that promise though." I said after a moment, unsure of why I decided to say this now.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 18:44:42 GMT
I sigh slightly, then nod, because I don't suppose I really expected that he would never drink again just because I asked him to. "Apology accepted in advance."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 18:47:38 GMT
"Thanks.." I said quietly again with a faint nod. ".. Really am going to try though." I added, before starting to walk away from the bar, slowly though so it didn't seem like I was just leaving her there.
I really do wish she hadn't stopped me from drinking right now though, cos I'm really not feeling any better than when I walked inside.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 18:50:31 GMT
"Good," I say again, following him to the door. "And are you going to be all right without having that method of escaping from depression?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 18:53:57 GMT
I opened the door, holding it for Arden to go out first and shrugged faintly, "I guess we'll find out." I said, wishing I could say that I'd be fine, but I honestly wasn't so sure. I probably would be though... hopefully at least.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 18:55:04 GMT
I nod, biting my lip slightly and glancing back at him, though I really don't have anything to say in reply to that.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 19:00:03 GMT
"Just.. don't worry.." I said in the same quiet tone, exiting the Leaky Cauldron after her.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 19:01:12 GMT
"Sure... easier said than done," I mutter, then shake my head. "I just want you to be okay."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 19:07:50 GMT
I guess I understood that. Actually, I sort of felt the same way about her."I know what you mean." I said quietly, partly to myself. "I'm sure I'll be okay eventually.." I said with a slight sigh.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 19:11:28 GMT
"You damn well better be," I say forcefully. "I mean it."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 19:16:24 GMT
I was slightly taken aback by her tone as she said that and I looked over to her slightly quickly being a bit surprised. "I can't really control it, Arden." I said shaking my head faintly. "Do you think I want to feel this way?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 19:22:48 GMT
"No, I don't mean it that way," I say quickly, shaking my head. "I know it's not your fault, but you're just... not allowed to be like that. I won't let you."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 19:33:21 GMT
"Why am I not allowed?" I asked, feeling slightly more frustrated. "I can't not feel like this lately." I stopped walking and leaned against the wall of a brick building to the right of us. "If you care so much, and don't want me to be like this then maybe you should.." I paused and shook my head, not sure I was exactly positive what to say there. ".. Why're you with him?" I know I shouldn't be starting this again, but it sort of just came out.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 19:41:09 GMT
Again, that wasn't quite what I meant and I just meant I care, not that I'm trying to tell him to just snap out of it or some nonsense like that... but before I can argue this it appears that he does get it, a little, but is taking it all wrong anyway.
"Riley, don't." I shake my head warningly, only refraining from getting thoroughly annoyed again because I know he's mildly intoxicated and hopefully wouldn't be doing this otherwise.
"Don't start this again. I'm not going to leave him just to make you feel better."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 19:48:39 GMT
"That's not what I'm asking." I said, shaking my head, "I know you're not going to leave him.. I just want to know why you're with him." I tried to clarify. I knew that she wasn't going to leave him for me. I'm pretty sure that she's said it a couple times. "He doesn't deserve you."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 19:56:35 GMT
"That's what it bloody sounded like," I mutter, then fall silent a moment. It's a little bit harder to be annoyed with a comment like "he doesn't deserve you," seeing as it's more or less a compliment, but I'm still really sick of having these arguments with him. Especially when there's nothing concrete to argue about.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 20:06:14 GMT
".. Probably because I nearly did say that." I said looking at the ground instead of up to her. I shook my head again, rubbing my forehead, as I tried to gain my train of thought back. "I just don't understand why you're with him.. and I probably never will."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 20:10:45 GMT
"No, you probably won't. Not when even I don't have a clue half the time."
And I likely shouldn't've said that part aloud... but it's a little bit too late now.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 20:16:16 GMT
I looked up to her at the second part. "Then why?" I asked again, "Especially after the way he treats you. I mean, he's cheated on you, a few times now, why can't you leave him?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 20:21:35 GMT
"Because I love him, you idiot," I say... fairly mildly but still a bit exasperated. "And it's not as though he's done anything terrible... you could reverse it if you liked and say that he ought to leave me."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 17, 2009 20:26:44 GMT
"He's cheated on you more than once." I said shaking my head. That's something that I classified as terrible. Even though I was well aware that I had cheated and that Arden had cheated.. but it didn't feel good to be cheated on and I didn't understand why she was staying with him.
But the more I thought about it, the more I should realize that this was all sounding familiar. "I don't want to reverse it, Arden." I shook my head.
This was starting to remind me of how even though Riyann kept cheating on me, I never left her. But the point was I should have. Just like Arden should leave Logan before he really gives her a reason to leave to him.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 17, 2009 20:33:06 GMT
"But you could," I repeat, then shake my head. "I've cheated on him... almost more than once, both implied and explicitly stated that I would let him die or the world would be better off without him... so you can't really argue, or at least I can't accept it... never mind." I shake my head again, wondering why in the hell we're even talking about this.
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