|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 0:25:17 GMT
I nodded a little, shaking my head faintly. "I'm not even entirely sure if I meant that." I murmured softly and opened the door, turning to June. "Uhm, I'll just be a few minutes and then we can all head out from here." I murmured softly, smiling weakly.
|
|
|
|
Post by Juniper Hastings on Nov 25, 2008 0:34:00 GMT
"I didn't think you did.." I said shaking my head a little bit.
I was actually thnking about following her in the house, but after what she said, I just nodded. "Alright.." I said with a small nod, stopping where I was outide the door.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 0:37:06 GMT
"Uhm, sorry, you can wait inside if you want." I whispered softly, stepping in the house now. "Just, don't wander to far." I said. Don't follow me. "Just have a few things to do now." I shrugged faintly.
|
|
|
|
Post by Juniper Hastings on Nov 25, 2008 0:42:17 GMT
"Thanks.." I said quietly, crossing my arms infront of me before following her into the house. I wasn't planning on it.. I thought back to her, so she would be able to hear it.
"Alright.." I said back to her nodding a bit.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 0:50:02 GMT
I nodded a little and shut the door after her, jumping a little when I heard her voice in my head and nodded a little. "C-can we try not doing that without me knowing?" I asked, looking at her and laughing faintly. It was kind of funny that she'd made me jump.
|
|
|
|
Post by Juniper Hastings on Nov 25, 2008 0:51:13 GMT
I laughed a little bit and nodded. "Yeah.. Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you or anything." I smiled.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 0:54:59 GMT
"S'alright. Just not exactly used to that stuff." I smiled faintly and then started down towards the bedroom. That and I wasn't exactly used to hearing other voices in my head. Unless, that could've been what was going on with me before. Someone constantly in my head, talking to me. I shook my head faintly and shut the door behind me, the wand June had lent me earlier still in my hand.
|
|
|
|
Post by Juniper Hastings on Nov 25, 2008 1:02:03 GMT
"Understandable.. It takes a while to get used to." I said with a small smile and shrug as I walked a bit further into the house, looking around it curiously.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 1:19:52 GMT
Looking around I first just tried to forget everything that had happened in this house, from Riley to the kids, everything and just stood there, leaning against the door for a moment.
Sighing when it didn't work and I could only think of those things I moved towards the dresser, grabing a few sets of clothes, mostly old and ratty things that I could wear from now on and then moved again, sitting on the bed this time.
Too much had happened here, made me almost want to burn the place down. I just couldn't do that.
Digging under the bed now I pulled out a box, and then a pair of tennis shoes, throwing those on my bare feet, not minding the fact that I wore no socks and then I dug through the box, finding several pictures. Ones from our wedding and just looked at them before taking the wand from my pocket and burning them, I hated the memory as it was I didn't need the pictures lying around where I could find them, or where Riley could find them.
Then, digging round through the rest of the pictures I found the ones with me in them and burned them, well, I burned myself out of them.
I didn't once burn a full picure again unless it was that one wedding picture, or simple ones of me.
Other pictures from our wedding, I left the ones with Riley in them and burned me out of them.
Sounds funny, doesn't it? Burning yourself from your wedding pictures? But I had my reasons. Riley didn't know how he ever could have loved me and now he didn't have pictures of me, if he ever came back here. And soon enough I'd get the rest of them.
Maybe he'd forget about me. Maybe the twins would too. Maybe Justin wouldn't ever have to look at a picture of me.
|
|
|
|
Post by Juniper Hastings on Nov 25, 2008 2:11:43 GMT
I had to admit that I was slightly curious what she was doing, but I was keeping my word. I wasn't goin after her, I wasn't following her to see what she doing just for the heck of it. I walked a bit around her living room, observing my surroundings seeing them be quite covered with dust, a lot of their things still scattered around the house even though I was pretty sure that they hadn't been living here for quite a while... hence the dust, I guess.
[[ meh sorry tis crappy ]]
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 2:29:59 GMT
I knew that this wasn't all the pictures, just all the ones that I'd gathered after Riley left and I put them all in one box under the bed. The ones I couldn't have would happen to be with Riley and they'd be impossible to burn until I found them.
Sighing softly I shut my eyes for a moment, recieving a burn on the tips of my fingers as the whole picture shriveled up and I sucked in a deep breath, and quickly put out the flame before blowing faintly on the tips of my fingers and then I examined the picture I'd been burning. It was one of Riley and I back at Hogwarts, before the whole war business, before me dying, or cheating. Maybe the day he'd proposed to me.
Biting my lip I could feel a few tears well in my eyes. He had been so happy back then, before I messed everything up.
Now I'd just messed with his life too many times and he didn't do anything anymore. He wasn't himself. He didn't play guitar like he had like to, like he had before. He didn't do anything. No instead he was working two jobs, just finishing a divorce, probably falling in love with Arden, dealing with Lil's death, his mum and dad, and our kids.
Biting my lip I shook my head faintly before getting up and away from the pictures, deciding that maybe it wasn't the best thing for me to do right now. Instead I walked to the closet and opened the door, shifting around amoung the clothes, and looking in the back of the closet, trying to find anything.
Grabbing a few more articles of clothing from in there I moved back to the bed and stuffed all the clothes into a cloth bag before going back to the dresser and grabbing the two rings that sat on top of it, looking as two circles were clear of dust but the rest of the top was still coated.
|
|
|
|
Post by Juniper Hastings on Nov 25, 2008 2:40:56 GMT
This really was taking unecesarrily long. Either that, or I was just really impaitient today. Which is why I decided that after looking around the living room and kitchen, I walked back to where she went. Slowly making my way down the hallway. I thought I smelled something burning anyway, so that could always be a reason to go back here.
I got closer, seeing Riyann in a bedroom, removing two rings from a dresser. Wedding rings I guessed.
I saw the burned pictures on the floor and frowned a bit more. "I think you're gonna regret burning those.." I suggested quietly.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 2:51:21 GMT
My eyes flew to the door when I heard it open and I saw June, though I wasn't sure if I should be mad at her for following me when I asked her not to, well she'd read my thoughts that I hadn't wanted her not to, or if I should just excuse that fact because she could've been worried about the fact that it smelt like smoke and like I was burning something.
Turning around so that I was facing her I shoved the rings deep in my pockets and watched as she looked at the pictures I had on the floor. The ones with me burned from them.
"I've regretted far to many things for this to worry me." I muttered. Besides Riley wanted a divorce so he got one. He wanted nothing to do with me, he wouldn't have anything to do with me and he'd be fine.
"What are you doing back here June?" I asked, raising my eyebrow to her now, wanting to ignore the pictures I'd started and almost finished burning. Those weren't a matter at this moment. Well asides from the fact that I just burned our wedding photos, burned my face from most other pictures. Oh yes. This was all so very smart on my part.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 25, 2008 2:57:17 GMT
"I um.. sorry, I just, I smelled smoke." I said with a small shrug. "But I see that was just your wedding photos.." I said, glancing back at the pictures again. That was when I walked further into the room and bent down to the pictures. I picked up one of the random ones, only seeing Riley's face. "Was this really necessary?"
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 3:06:57 GMT
I nodded when she apologized and then explained why she was back her and I brushed it off. It was my own fault she'd come back here after all. "S'alright." I murmured just after she apologized. "Yes, just my wedding photos." I whispered. From doing that, all in anger it hurt that I had, it made me realize how far over we really were. Made me realize that everything was my own fault. Made me realize that I really shouldn't have ever been able to go through with half of what I did. All the good things, I shouldn't have had them. I really shouldn't have.
"Yes. It was." I answered blankly and nodded faintly.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 25, 2008 3:12:19 GMT
"I could never burn those." I said shaking my head a little bit. "He may not like you right now, but I don't even think he would do something like this." I said shkaing my head a bit more. "They're good memories.. you shouldn't just.. destroy them like this."
"Why?" I asked looking up to her.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 3:20:30 GMT
She sounded like she was trying to be my mother. Telling me how she wouldn't be able to do this, that didn't mean I couldn't. What Riley probably wouldn't ever do didn't mean I wouldn't ever do it. Hell I did do it.
I don't do things because others won't. I don't not do things when others don't. I do things only if I want to.
They're good memories.. you shouldn't just.. destroy them like this.
"I don't see what your opinion has to do with anything." I muttered, biting my tongue to not make anymore comments.
"Because. I have my reasons, that's what matters. Maybe it's because he should finally get to forget about me. The twins won't have to deal with me and Justin won't even know who I am. It'll all be better so stay out of this June." I said, hissing at her at the end.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 25, 2008 3:28:58 GMT
I stood up, dropping the picture I was holding back to the floor. "I'm just commenting.. I think you might regret doing something like this later in life. That's it. It's nothing personal and it's nothing you have to listen to." I said shaking my head a little bit.
"I don't understand the way you think.. I should think you would want your kids to know who you are." I said shaking my head faintly before just starting out of the room.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 3:40:55 GMT
She dropped the picture and my eyes went for June right to the picture that was dropping to the floor. "Well thanks then, and I hope you take no offense for me listening to none of your advice." I said, shrugging now. I really wasn't planning on listening to it. I was better off out of Riley's life, which meant out of the kids' life. Though burning the wedding picture, okay, so maybe that was on I should've kept, but that was too late to change now.
"No one does." I said, shaking my head faintly. "I think they'll be far better not knowing."
|
|
|
|
Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 25, 2008 3:43:57 GMT
"No.. no offense taken." I said looking over to her, shrugging a little bit. ".. Well.. Mum knows best then." I added raising my eyebrows faintly, even though I didn't happen to agree with her this time.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 3:49:22 GMT
"Good." I said with a small smile, not saying anything else on that part of our beautiful conversation.
I narrowed my eyes slightly at her comment but I brushed it off and ignored it instead. I did think they'd be much better off without me. Justin especially, which meant he should know nothing of me. Actually if I could I'd go erase myself completely from everyone's memories, though I knew I'd never be able to.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 25, 2008 3:58:18 GMT
I nodded a little bit, not really liking the tension that was starting to build up in here. "I'll wait for you in the living room.." I said not bothering to say anything else on the subject. It was bothering her and I could tell.. Her day has already been bad enough without me making it worse.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 4:05:46 GMT
"Right." I said, nodding faintly before watching her now. Really I did want to get out of here all the more faster. And I would. I'd get the last of my things, leave the last three pictures of me and then get out of here before the house is invaded by ministry personal. Moving to the bed again I grabbed the bag that held my few things and turned to her.
"No need to meet me out there I'm all done in here."
|
|
|
|
Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 25, 2008 4:07:47 GMT
I nodded a little bit. "Alright.. so where from here then?" I asked looking over to her.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 21:39:51 GMT
"I dunno yet." I said softly, shrugging a little as I thought about it. I needed to go see Shelby, have a little run in with Arden, probably several other things. But right now, I didn't know where to go.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 25, 2008 22:20:02 GMT
I nodded a little bit. "Alright.." I said after a moment, unsure of what I should do with myself now.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 22:24:25 GMT
"Think of anywhere else?" I asked, raising an eyebrow towards her. I hadn't really anticipated getting this far.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 25, 2008 22:29:32 GMT
I shook my head a little bit. "I don't really think you should be going many places though..." I said, lookign over to her.
|
|
|
|
Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 25, 2008 22:30:27 GMT
"Obviously." I said with a faint smile and started out of the room. "Still need to find a place to stay and such."
|
|
|
|
Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 25, 2008 22:38:20 GMT
"Well, I already broke you out.." I shrugged a little bit. "You can stay at my place for a little while if you can't find anywhere.."
|
|
