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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 21, 2008 1:43:10 GMT
I smiled. "I love you both." I murmured softly, wondering when June was going to get sick of having to wait for me to see the girls and Justin, or when Riley would get suspicious of thinking that I'd kidnap them and this would be all interrupted.
"I love you, I love you, I love you." I said, kissing them both on the top of the head and then Justin on the nose with a small and wide grin.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 21, 2008 1:54:30 GMT
"Love you too." They both said at separate moments, smiling lightly and laughing a little bit as she kissed their head again and said I love you multiple times. Justin giggled again and smiled lightly, "Gah!" He said back to her with a small gurgley noise.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 21, 2008 1:57:12 GMT
"I know." I said with a small grin towards them all. Justin giggled and then exclaimed another gah, causing a laugh to pass my lips. "You're so weird baby." I laughed, moving my arm from Char Lottie and hugging Justin closer to my chest with a grin.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 21, 2008 2:19:34 GMT
There was the sound of a door shutting from downstairs and then a series of footsteps going down the stairs. The girls didn't pay much attention to it and just laughed along with their mum as Justin continued with a small gurgle, saying Da and Gah again.
There was some muffled talking coming from downstairs though and it was getting progressively louder.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 21, 2008 2:24:36 GMT
I smiled and kissed the girls again, hearing muffled voices downstairs and then I got quite as Justin continued and the voices got louder. Moving slightly I looked at the direction of the door and bit my lip. I should take that as my cue to leave, or go and see what the fuss is about. I mean really, it's probably Riley and June having a row finally, so I should go split that up.
"Here, will you watch your brother? I've got to go see what's wrong." I murmured, now completely distracted away from the kids unlike two minutes ago.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 21, 2008 2:37:13 GMT
"Course mum.." Lottie said with a small nod after Riyann asked if she could watch Justin. She looked toward the door, now hearing the camotion from downstairs and was slightly curious. She wanted to know what was going on too. But she just nodded about watching Justin and stayed in the room with Ella.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 21, 2008 2:40:14 GMT
I moved and hand Justin gently in Lottie's arms, knowing that they would watch him, that they were fine, that they've held him before and besides, it wasn't like I was going to be gone for all that long. Moving off the bed I went and opened the door, starting down the hallway and down the stairs. Too bad it didn't just sound like it could be Riley and June.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 21, 2008 2:49:23 GMT
"Mum, just calm down." I said shaking my head a little bit towards her, wishing she would calm down, but guessing that she wasn't going to. I never wanted her to know about all of this, but too bad I was talking to Arden about it one day and she just happend to over hear me. Overhear me talking about how it Riyann who killed Lilian. Not good. At least not for Riyann.
"No! Get her out of my house!" She said, yelling and pointing towards the doorway. "I don't want her here. She shouldn't be here!"
June for once, wasn't saying anything, in fact, she was actually keeping her distance from Riley's mum. She wasn't exactly pleasent right now.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 21, 2008 2:56:23 GMT
I stepped down off the last step, looking like a deer caught in the headlights, already hearing his mum yelling, and wishing so desperately I could fly out of here as fast as possible. Was she mad about June being her? Or did she know that I was here? I really couldn't tell, I could only see June keeping her distance.
When did she get here?
I looked right at his mum, wondering if now would be the time to get out of here while she didn't see me. I mean, it was blantly obvious that she knew I killed Lil.
I couldn't leave though. Not without saying goodbye.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 21, 2008 3:06:15 GMT
June's eyes widened when she saw Riyann and she made some hand motions to her to get back upstairs, but it was too late. My mum had already looked up from me and had her eyes directly on Riyann. Everything got quiet for a moment. Too quiet to really be comfortable.
"You!" She yelled pointing her finger out to her, her eyes brimming with tears. I really wished that she hadn't forgotten her purse.. that way, she would still be gone and this wouldn't be happening right now. She started to walk closer to her. "You get out of my house! Stay away from my grandchildren!" She yelled as she continued.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 21, 2008 3:14:28 GMT
It got really silent and I knew that I should've just turned right back around, actually, it was still quite tempting to while Riley's mum was looking at me. June had tried getting me to turn around, but I hadn't, why? I wasn't sure yet.
I could still turn around, even though now she was yelling at me. She started walking closer to me and I stayed where I was, getting almost completely filled with panic on the inside, though on the outside I stood there, looking blankly at his mum, trying to ignore her yelling, her telling me to stay away from her grandchildren. My kids.
I almost wanted her to step closer to me so I could slap her out of this frenzy of hers, then again that wouldn't help and she had a reason to be so worked up as she was.
Staying silent I tried to think of what to do or what to say. Should I just leave and not say goodbye to the girls? Should I just go right back up there and pretend that this hadn't happened even though I was sure she'd follow me, if not curse me.
Turning around sharply my still damp hair swung and hit the side of my face and I started right back up the stairs like that hadn't happened.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 21, 2008 3:29:40 GMT
"Where do you think you're going?" She called after her, as she started up the stairway, starting to go after Riyann.
"Mum, stop." I said running over to her and stopping infront of her, trying to hold her back and stop her from going upstairs. But that didn't really help and she just got around me and started to follow Riyann up the stairs. "I want you out of my house!" She called back to her, a few tears spilling down her cheeks. "I never should have trusted you! We never should have let you into our lives!" She yelled after her.
But this time the girls were peaking outside the doorway, with scared looks in their eyes wishing they knew what was going on.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 21, 2008 3:35:24 GMT
She started calling after me, but I kept walking, Riley told her stop, and I tried to no longer pay any attention to anything that was happening. Poor girls, they had to have been able to hear all of this. I shouldn't have left them, I shouldn't have gone downstairs. I was so stupid.
I never should have trusted you! We never should have let you into our lives. I could few several tears prick my eyes before falling down my face.
Why the hell did anyone let this deranged woman know who killed her daughter? WHY?!
Turning around and still only halfway up the stairs I looked at her. "Shut up. Will you ever shut the fuck up?" I asked, yelling, hoping she'd at least stay silent for a minute of our damn time, least give me the time to say goodbye to the twins, to Justin.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 21, 2008 3:43:05 GMT
I ran up the stairs after my mom and stopped between the two of them, trying my best to keep my mom away from Riyann.
"No!" She yelled, started to cry fully now. "You killed my daughter! My only daughter!" She yelled, trying to push past me to get to Riyann. This is why I never wanted her to know. why I never wanted to tell her. The girls stared with wide eyes down at them, gasping slightly what what they heard, not really understanding what was going on.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 21, 2008 3:48:01 GMT
She yelled no and I turned around and went up the rest of the stairs, turning to see the girls staring out the door and causing me to stop in my tracks. Of course they had no idea why I'd been in Azkaban, now they did, well if they put one and two together. Last I had looked Riley was standing between me and his mum and now I was looking at the twins, wondering what was going to happen now.
Least I'd seen them for a little while with normalcy.
"Char?" I whispered. "Ella?" I looked at them, hoping they weren't just going to hate me from here on out. This was the part I'd planned to never tell them. Though what was I going to tell them then? I ignored Riley, his mum, everything but the twins, just watching them with worried eyes.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 21, 2008 3:54:48 GMT
They understood after a moment and backed up away from the door, with tears brimming their eyes.
".. You killed Auntie Lil?" Lottie asked frowning with a weak voice, staring at Riyann, backing up with Ella still before they both stopped.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 21, 2008 3:59:29 GMT
I could feel myself shaking slightly and I just looked at the two, my heart dropping at the question, at the two of them stepping away, at their eyes filled with tears. There was no chance of them forgiving me, I could tell.
It was actually quite, that I was only slightly thankful for.
"I have to go." I whispered, taking steps back towards the stairs, fear more than likely showing on my face. Fuck. I never wanted them to know anything about nothing. "I-I, I hav...." I started and then turned around straight for the stairs, starting right back down them, aparating past Riley and his mum, just passed them so I could start back down the stairs. "June, we're going." I called.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 22, 2008 4:07:53 GMT
I watched her apparate around the both of us down the stairs. I never wanted that to happen.. I never wanted them to know that she was the one who killed her. I didn't even want my mum to know she was one who did it. That was between me, her and only two or three people.
June nodded and looked around at everybody for anothter moment before starting to walk towards the door.
"Riyann.. just hold on." I said walking down the stairs after her with my mum objecting to it behind me. I didn't reply to her and just kept walking after her. "CAn I just talk to you outside?"
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 22, 2008 4:14:03 GMT
I could feel tears threatening to fall past my eyes but I ignored them, wanting to get out of there as fast as I could now. I couldn't stand it. Next thing that would happen if I stayed a little longer would probably be his mum blaming Justin's death on me. I was actually surprised she hadn't yet.
I didn't look at June as or after I told her we were going, but I could hear Riley calling after me to hold on now and I ignored it, my hand wrapping around the handle. His mum was desperatly trying to keep Riley from me, well at least with her objections. She probably thought he was next or something.
And if it wasn't Riley I could almost wish he was.
I winced at the thought and pulled the door open just as he asked if he could talk to me outside, but I didn't answer, he was more than likely to follow and try anyways. My feet hit the cold porch just as I stepped out and I shivered faintly, bringing the hood swiftly up and over my head, making sure it at least shadowed my face.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 22, 2008 4:23:37 GMT
"Mum, stop." I said back to her as she tried to stop me from going outside by grabbing onto me. I pulled my arm away and followed Riyann outside.
"I don't think she wants to talk to you." June told me after I got outside.
I ignored her and walked over to Riyann. "Riyann, can I just explain?"
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 22, 2008 4:28:58 GMT
And she'll blame me for brainwashing her son, killing her other son, and her step-daughter, for corrupting her grandchildren. She'll turn me in and so on so forth.
I stopped a few feet in front of the house, not looking behind me or anything, finally feeling a few hot tears slip past my eyes and down my cheeks. My kids hate me. They know that I killed Lil, they know why I was in Azkaban, and they'll feel bad for hating Riley for divorcing me, they'll rather Arden was in my place more than anything.
Riley said my name again, and really I wanted to slap him for saying it again. Who knew what could happen. Turning around sharply I glared at him. "Explain what? There is nothing to explain." I hissed, glaring at him and taking a faint step backwards.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 22, 2008 4:36:20 GMT
I stopped walking after her once she turned around, almost finding it difficult to look at her when she was glaring at me. But I didn't look away this time, like I had another time she glared at me. I didn't really care, even if I didn't really want to be glared at right now.
"Yeah, there is." I said back to her, nodding lsightly, "I just, I didn't mean for anyone to know."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 22, 2008 4:42:57 GMT
He stopped and almost looked uneasy beneath my glare but I didn't let up. I didn't care, I shouldn't have to care.
"Save your breath, it doesn't matter." I muttered, ducking my head slightly as I turned around and padded off the porch. I couldn't wait until I was somewhere that it wouldn't matter if my face was showing and I could know that I wouldn't get caught.
Biting my lip I thought for a moment what had just happened, did I just have a reason to hate Riley? Not really, but I could almost hate him at this moment.
His mum and my kids hate me, shouldn't that be enough to where I could hate anyone I wanted? No.
Keeping my head ducked I turned it slightly. "Coming June?" I asked, thinking that maybe I shouldn't leave, or provoke the thought of leaving. I really shouldn't. I almost wanted to turn back 'round and have another row with Riley's mum, maybe see how long it took for her to snap, say something stupid, or kill me.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 22, 2008 4:51:17 GMT
I listened to what she said and I almost said something back to her. Almost. But in that split second, I realised that she didn't want to listen to me.. and why should I be trying to make her feel better? She's just single handedly destroyed.. in some way or another.. my family.
I shook my head faintly. "Fuck it." I said quietly to myself before turning back around and starting back up to the house, hearing her ask if June was coming. Dear Lord, I hoped she was.
June looked over to her after leaving her eyes on me for a moment. ".. Yeah." She said with a small nod, starting to follow her.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 22, 2008 4:57:47 GMT
"Fuck it."
Biting my lip I turned back around sharply, watching as he started back for the house. Now what to do? I didn't want to stand outside forever and talk to him, I didn't want to leave, I didn't want to go inside, and I didn't want to stay out and freeze my feet off.
June said yeah and had started following me and I glanced at her before looking back at Riley. Maybe she'd think of something.
"I didn't do it." I called softly, wondering if I should've said that. Would he believe me? Should I really have said that infront of June? Why didn't he ever think of a different possibility to Lil being 'dead'? Glancing at June for a moment I wanted to see what both of them would do, and I let my eyes lie back on Riley's back again, taking a deep and well needed breath again. Wrong thing to say.
He's already moved on as it is.
You are so going back to azkaban.
My thoughts clouded my mind, but one stood out largely amoung the rest. He won't believe you.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 22, 2008 5:08:58 GMT
I stopped in my tracks as I heard what she said next. What did she mean, she didn't do it? She's been saying that she did it. She told me she did it. June told me she did it. Why would she willingly go to Azkaban? And willingly sign divorce papers if she didn't do it? That was the only reason I didn't want to be with her. She killed my sister.
I turned around, staring at her slightly puzzled and slightly hurt at the same time. "What're you talking about?" I asked her wonding what exactly I looked like right now. I don't think I could pinpoint my exact emotion.
June looked over to her and raised an eyebrow. She didn't understand either. She was positive that she did and well, why would Riyann do something like go to Azkaban if she didn't kill Lilian?
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 22, 2008 5:17:18 GMT
Now what?
Riley never really did know me that well, did he? It surprised me, I mean, even if I did 'kill' her, I was sure he'd at least think over to the time I'd faked my own death, maybe stupidly believe me by put two and two together. Stupidly, remember.
"Was I not clear?" I asked, raising an eyebrow, confusion clearly showing on his face. Well actually I hadn't been clear at all, but that was besides the point.
Glancing at June again I could tell both wanted an explanation for my statement, she was confused to what I'd meant too.
Exhaustion hit me in a heavy wave just now, and I wondered how I had gone up the stairs and down them so fast as I had, with Riley's mum yelling at me none the less.
Adrenaline?
Moving I sat down on the ground, a spot clear of snow on the side walk from the house, letting my body slump now. Amazing how much strength it took to do everything lately. Amazing how I just managed all of this today none the less. I yawned and looked at Riley again, really wanting to just fall asleep now.
I can't stay here much longer. I have to go back, pack a few things, meet up with Regan and get the hell out of here. It would've been better for Riley and all of the family to hate me so that I could just disappear all together.
Moving I started to stand up again. "I'm in Azkaban if anyone asks." I said, almost starting to fall over now as I did stand up. It was definitely not smart to sit down. It was definitely not smart to give Riley a heads up on warning the ministry that I was here.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 22, 2008 14:55:27 GMT
What did 'I didn't do it' really mean? Did she mean that she didn't do it, but someone else did and she just took the fall for it? Or did she mean, she really didn't do it and Lil's still alive somewhere? I hadn't even thought about the option of Riyann not killing her.. maybe making her go into hiding instead. Even though Riyann had done it a couple times.. I never would have related it to this. Would anybody relate it to this? She told me that she did it and that right there was enough for me. Once I heard that, I had pretty much made up my mind. I didn't want to believe she would do that, but I think I asked enought to have right to assume she actually killed her.
I shook my head, walking closer to her. "No, you weren't." I said back to her, keeping my eyes on her, them probably looking very faintly desperate. "What do you mean you didn't do it?" I asked as I stopped walking again once I was closer to her.
"I would like to know the same." June said a moment later, keeping her attention on Riyann as well.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Nov 22, 2008 15:06:46 GMT
Perfect way to stop him from leaving you, make it so the both of them won't leave you alone.
Riley walked closer to me and I looked at his feet, lucky him he had shoes. I didn't want to stay out here any much longer. I didn't want to explain what I meant to him anymore. Or to June. Dear god, so long as June doesn't find out I won't be dead by the death eaters. Instead I'll still only be hunted by the ministry, fine by me.
Watching Riley I could only bite my lip softly, he looked so desperate and I shook my head faintly.
"Tell your little friend Patricks that it wouldn't be wise to cross me anymore." I hissed towards him, stepping back from him now and then looking at June and again to Riley. "She'll be regretting it soon."
Great, and now if she dies then I'll be blamed for it because I threatened her.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Nov 22, 2008 15:15:43 GMT
She didn't answer my question. That's just like her, she doesn't want to talk about it, so she changes the subject. Usually this doesn't work that often with me, so what she says definitely throws me off. I'm still thinking about my sister, but now I'm more than worried about Arden.
"What did she ever do to you?" I asked taking another step closer to her. I didn't know what she meant exactly, "She'll be regretting it soon.", I didn't like how that sounded. Especially the soon part of it. That's what really made me worried.
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