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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 13, 2008 1:52:24 GMT
Another tear found it's way slowly down my cheek as I layed there, feeling even worse now after he said sorry. I was intollerable and I knew it, and he had to deal with it, and the twins never got to see me, Just was practically starting to grow up without his mum, he probably barely even knew me now.
I should just leave. It was all I could think to myself.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 13, 2008 1:55:59 GMT
I got a bit more comfortable as I laid down, laying on my side as I kept my eyes on her a bit longer as she slept. I was scared to go to sleep. I didn't know what I was feeling about anything anymore tonight and I didn't want to go to sleep and wake up to find her gone. But there was only so long I could stare at her and eventually the tiredness I thought was gone, took over me and I fell asleep a minutes later.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 13, 2008 1:59:55 GMT
I could hear Riley's breathing slow a bit now as the minutes ticked by and I sighed softly. He really did deserve better than me and each time that I did try to prove that, whenever that happened to be, it just ended up worse and worse for the both of us. Nothing was ever going to go right, and that's how it was with me, so I did feel more than sorry for Riley. Which made me feel like I really did need to leave now, even if I had told him I'd be here when he woke up.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 13, 2008 2:02:27 GMT
[[ um... lol *is lazy* ...
sleeeping... hehe
i dunno what to put, lol]]
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 13, 2008 2:03:19 GMT
[[Lazyyyyyyyyy.. Me neither... Should Riy leave?]]
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Oct 13, 2008 2:14:07 GMT
Laying there for the next hour or so I battled whether or not to leave and if I was going to, whether or not to leave a note or say goodbye to the girls. Haven't seen them since the last time I was here. I could feel a few more tears slip down as I moved off of the bed slowly, trying not to move it too much and to not wake Riley up. I wasn't sure where to have them stay, and maybe it'd be best if they found somewhere and I didn't find out where it was.
Because then I wouldn't be able to hurt them anymore and then Riley could be better and the girls would get over it with ease, I've already done this before, sad thing is that they should be used to it. Justin just as well didn't know me.
After another minute I left, disappearing with a soft pop.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 13, 2008 2:24:12 GMT
I woke up at a noise, not realising what it was until I was awake. I looked over the bed, seeing her gone, feeling a sick feeling rise up in my stomach as I wondered if she was coming back. I sat up in the bed, unsure of what I should be doing. Was I supposed to move us? If I moved us, Riyann wouldn't know where we were.
I didn't want this to happen. I wanted to her to come back, or at least know where she went. I didn't know what to do... I really didn't and if she didn't come back, what was she gonna do? Just abandon us?
I sat there in silence, looking around the room, feeling a couple tears drip down my face as I did.
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Post by Riyann on Oct 13, 2008 2:44:17 GMT
[[Has to go.. but do you want to start a thread and I'll reply tomorrow? Or I can try and make it if I get on with time to do so... (Doesn't work till 1 so hopefully I'll get on)]]
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 13, 2008 2:50:42 GMT
[[ aw, okay ... i'll try to start one :] hopefully at least.. i'm not sure where I should put it, lol... and *hopes*... even thoguh now that i think about, i'll be at schol, so i probably won't be on unless i remember to bring my computer, lol ]]
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