Ignoring the Pain;;Riley

[Riyann Servansikk]

I just shook my head now, not wanting to say it outloud. I'd do anything to make sure nothing happened to the kids or him, and I wanted him to know that, but I didn't think I'd be able to get through the whole deatheater business again.

[Riley Pearson]

She just shook her head, which really didn't surprise me much. I didn't want to say it outloud either. "I'll do anything I can to protect you.. I don't care what happens to me."

[Riyann Servansikk]

I was really sort of surprised he hadn't brought up the front door yet, but then again there wasn't too much time for it to be brought up. "No you won't." I said after hearing what he said and pulled away from him. "No you won't." I whispered.

[Riley Pearson]

I gave her a slightly confused look, letting her pull away. I shook my head faintly at what she was saying. "Yes, I will.." I said back to her, pretty know I knew the reasoning behind what she was saying.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I wasn't sure if it sounded like I didn't want him to or like I knew he wouldn't. I just didn't want him to. "No you won't Riley." I said again, this time sounding slightly more demanding.

[Riley Pearson]

I hears a slightly more demanding tone in her voice and I just shook my head slgihtly again. "Riyann, if I can prevent something from happening to you.. I will."

[Riyann Servansikk]

"No you won't." I said, wanting to slap him to get the point across, but somehow I don't think that will. "I-I dunno what I'd do." I whispered softly, looking down at the floor, not at Justin this time.

[Riley Pearson]

I just shook my head slgihtly this time, waiting for her to say something else and then hearing what she whispered and bit my lip faintly, "Go on with your life, and watch our kids grow up." I whispered back to her, as she looked down to the floor. "But I mean.. even if I did do something.. it doesn't mean I'll die."

[Riyann Servansikk]

"What if it does?" I whispered. "Why can't you just do that?" I asked, really wanting to know why it had to be me, it would all be my fault anyways. "You're not doing anything."

[Riley Pearson]

"Then what happens and happens." I whispered back to her quietly, pushing some hair behind her ear. "Becuase I don't want to live knowing that I could've saved you." I said shaking my head a little. It was obvious that we were never going to agree about this. "Then neither are you."

[Riyann Servansikk]

"You and the kids are the only reason I'm doing any of this." I whispered, even if I haven't started anything. "That I'll be doing anything. You think I want to live knowing I just messed up and you're dead or something?" I asked, shaking my head. "What do you mean neither am I? I'll do whatever I want."

[Riley Pearson]

"Doing what? What're you doing?" I asked her, now feeling slightly more anxious about this. "Right and I don't want to have to live with knowing that either... Well, if you can do whatever you want, why can't it work the other way?"

[Riyann Servansikk]

"I dunno yet." I said, turning my head away from him and looking over my shoulder. I was on my toes now that the front door was missing, sure I didn't care, but what if I waited to long to go see what I needed to do and a deatheater came in or something. "Because Riley. You weren't stupid to get the bloody mark." I said, really wanting to yell, but not with Justin in the room, let alone in my arms.

[Riley Pearson]

I frowned slightly, "Riyann don't do anything you're going to regret. Please.. maybe you should just try and stay out of this." I said shaking my head, feeling more worried than a moment ago.
"You got that mark because of my family.. It's my fault you even have it." I said shaking my head a little bit.

[Riyann Servansikk]

"I'll regret it more if I don't." I whispered, shaking my head a little. I knew I would.
I didn't want to fight with him, but I wanted to yell at him that it would be all his fault, every little bit because it was Ruby, part of 'his' family, that was doing this. I didn't comment, if he wanted we could carry this on further, but I moved away from him and then put Justin back in the crib and walked out of the room.

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged faintly, not saying anything to that and just watching her put Justin back and then walking away. I sighed slightly, looking to the ground. I was glad she didn't deny it becuase I knew it was true. This was all my fault. True I probably would've been able to stop her at the time, but I still knew it was true.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I sighed and looked at the doorway that supported no door because of me and sat down infront of it, cross legged. Shelby's wand was still in my hand and I knew I was going to need my own soon. This wasn't at all Riley's fault, just his family happens to be messed up, some of it. Like Hayley and having the whole I switch personalities and try and kill you. Ruby with the whole I'm evil and trying to ruin Shelby and then killed her. Alexander Crescent and the whole I killed my family members because I was evil. Doesn't make any of it Riley's fault, but if he thought it did then all of this was his fault too.

[Riley Pearson]

I sighed again and took another look at Justin before walking out of the room. I saw her sitting by the door. I didn't say anything about a moment ago and studied the empty hole in the doorway. "Where'd the door go?"

[Riyann Servansikk]

"Hopefully in a pile of ashes in the backyard." I said after hearing Riley's voice, finally taking notice that he was only a little ways from me really.

[Riley Pearson]

I raised my eyebrows faintly, sitting down next to her. "Why a pile of ashes?"

[Riyann Servansikk]

"Because I set it on fire?" I asked, looking over to him when he sat down next to me.

[Riley Pearson]

"You set our door on fire?" I asked again, shaking my head a litle bit. "What was wrong with it if you don't mind me asking."

[Riyann Servansikk]

"Because." I said, moving my eyes to staring out the doorway again, wand still held tight in my hand. I wasn't sure if I should tell him or not, but he was probably going to ask anyways, sooner or later, he always found out everything.

[Riley Pearson]

"Riy, will you please just tell me?" I asked looking over to her.

[Riyann Servansikk]

"Because someone put the mark on it." I muttered, almost hating how I always had to tell him everything and all the such.

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded slightly, ".. Maybe we shouldn't stay here." I said quietly.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I felt like making a stupid comment like, 'why, it was only in blood and it wouldn't come off', but I didn't dare say that, he didn't need to know they were serious about this and had killed people to put the marks on doors. "They'll just find me and it'll be worse off." I whispered, shaking my head. "But you guys probably would be better somewhere else." I said, really truely meaning that. Because I don't think you'll live through this, Lilian probably won't, her dad won't, probably not Riley's mum, probably not Riley if they don't.

[Riley Pearson]

I raised my eyebrows slgihtly, "No.. I'm not leaving you alone here." I said shaking my head. "The kids should, but I don't want you to.. I don't want to leave."

[Riyann Servansikk]

I shook my head. "Riley." I whispered, looking at him and shaking my head again. "You're not going to leave them alone either, and if this is what I think it's about you guys need to leave." I added in the same whisper.

[Riley Pearson]

"No." I said raising my voice slightly, "I'm not leaving you alone." I said, shaking my head. "The kids ca-can stay with my parents or lil, or something."