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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 23, 2008 4:34:18 GMT
"I have a lot of reasons for leaving, not just that," I repeat, getting just a little exasperated. "And I just have this feeling that a silly crush combined with temporary insanity can't be very lasting. Just a thought."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 23, 2008 4:42:24 GMT
"Yeah, what are they?" I asked, doubting that they were any of my business, but the fact that they all lead to her hurting Riley automatically did, in my mind at least.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 23, 2008 4:46:47 GMT
I close my eyes briefly, leaning my head back against the shelf. Of course, I may only have thought the other reasons, and therefore have no reason to be exasperated.
"Oh, various things. Ian and Maddie's disappearance, Travis's death, the fact that I don't like the person I turn into all the time. I don't know... I guess I'm just a coward and I don't like my life right now so I'm running away from it. But Riley will be fine, I'm sure he will, so that's not a reason to stay."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 23, 2008 4:57:13 GMT
"Isn't running part of my job?" I asked with a shakey and humorless laugh. "Ian and Maddie made up their mind, they're gone and not coming back. Though what are you doing? You're running for nothing." I whispered, shaking my head a little. "I really doubt that Arden."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 24, 2008 2:57:02 GMT
"I'm running 'cause it's that or explode," I all but snap, raising my voice just a little. "I'm running because it's what I need to do." I'm standing here and arguing with you because...?
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 25, 2008 1:06:48 GMT
I really do need to stop trying to keep her here, Riley could just as well deal with it, even if I'll feel slightly guilty for thinking that, but still, it's not like he would ever have tried to keep Shelby around when she was going to leave me. I stay silent and only shrug a little at what she's said, feeling like I really just might cry, but only because I've once again thought about Shelby and she's gone.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 25, 2008 3:58:29 GMT
I take and let out a deep breath while she stays silent, closing my eyes briefly to get a grip on myself again before I speak. Not that I have any idea what I ought to say.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 25, 2008 14:40:16 GMT
"I-I'll just go." I managed to say, wondering why I even said it. It wasn't like she'd care, she'd probably be glad for it.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 26, 2008 2:07:21 GMT
"You don't have to," I shrug, though there's really no point in continuing this and I think I really would prefer for her to leave. "I... I'm sorry. Don't ask for what, because I'm not entirely sure... but I'm sorry."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 26, 2008 2:12:57 GMT
"I should go though." I said softly, shrugging a little, wondering why she had said that, because really, it made absolutely no sense to me. "Thanks." I whispered, shrugging a little, this time not saying she had no reason or that it didn't matter at all, and I took a few small steps backwards, wondering if maybe I just shouldn't go like she said I didn't have too.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 26, 2008 2:20:11 GMT
I hesitate briefly before nodding, not thinking of any reasons for her to stay, or anything else that needs to be said... at least not until after I nod.
"Riyann - just one other thing, though I realize you have no reason to do me any favors."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 26, 2008 2:30:58 GMT
I stopped when she said my name and I raised a slight eyebrow in question towards her. I shook my head slightly at what she said and bit me lip a little.
"It's fine, j-just what is it?" I asked softly, knowing that I probably would do whatever she asked, unless it wound up hurting Riley or something.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 26, 2008 2:32:55 GMT
I sigh a bit, shrugging. "Don't mention to Riley what I said about disappearing? I'd rather tell him myself."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 26, 2008 2:35:53 GMT
I bit down against my lip softly, really tempted to not say anything. I mean, there was the time when Tyler asked Riley not to tell me about him being my sister, that he wanted to do it himself. Wasn't this like that? As long as she doesn't wait too long. "I won't lie to him, but I won't tell him out of nowhere." I said finally, shaking my head a little. Maybe it wasn't exactly like this, but it would be close enough.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 26, 2008 2:41:46 GMT
"All I can ask," I nod. More than I ask. Now if only I knew why I asked.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 26, 2008 2:45:26 GMT
I nodded. "Sorry, I just can't lie to him." I murmured softly, shrugging my shoulders slightly. I really did feel bad that I couldn't just promise her, but there wasn't much I was going to do for that.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 26, 2008 2:49:33 GMT
"No, that's understandable," I say quickly. "I wouldn't expect you to."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 26, 2008 2:53:12 GMT
Except that I have so many times before. I nodded a little, even if she spoke quickly. "Don't go for too long." I said softly, taking some more steps backwards and brought a hand up to wave a small good bye.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 26, 2008 2:58:15 GMT
I smile wryly at that. "I won't, I think. Depends what exactly 'too long' is."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 26, 2008 3:02:55 GMT
I saw her smile wryly and smiled weakly towards her. "Long enough to get me worrying." I said with a small shrug. "I'll come find you, you know." I smiled softly at that, even if I wasn't exactly buddy buddy with her, I was still sure I would stick too that. And really, to get to the long enough to get me worrying would be when Riley started freaking out about of when he started to worry.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 26, 2008 3:06:50 GMT
"Got it," I nod, smiling weakly. "I'm planning to at least send my stepfather letters every once in a while so I can keep my sanity," I say, immediately wondering if I should have. "So maybe start there first, if you start to worry, rather than going wandering around someplace."
Belatedly, I wonder why she'd even do that, and then remember Riley. Right.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 29, 2008 16:48:37 GMT
I nodded a little, though I was wondering why she would only keep in contact with her stepfather and no one else, isn't it a bit selfish, even if she does want to get away from the whole Riley and her thing, but I didn't say anything about that. "Will do I suppose." I said, shrugging a little, and then I could always follow the owl back to her and I wouldn't be wandering, unless she plans on using different owls.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 29, 2008 17:15:10 GMT
I nod, then smile very faintly. "Take care of yourself and all, will you?"
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 29, 2008 17:18:33 GMT
"I'll try." I said with a small smile, nodding slightly to her. "You too."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 29, 2008 17:21:27 GMT
"Same." I smile faintly again. So... I guess this conversation is over....
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 29, 2008 17:45:14 GMT
"Bye." I said after a moment, nodding slightly in her direction before turning and walking away, doubting she'd be calling after me again.
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