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Post by Logan Andrews on May 31, 2009 19:10:38 GMT
"For Christ's sake, what the hell do you think the bloody reasons were?" I let go of her hand at this point because it's hard to conduct an argument like this.
I thought she'd maybe be able to figure that one out. That there might be a little bit of jealousy and possessiveness, all things considering, and that's one of the larger motives behind the whole thing but I don't really want to spell it out.
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Post by Arden Patricks on May 31, 2009 19:13:16 GMT
"I don't know." I shake my head again. "Or at least I don't want to accuse you of anything that I only have vague suspicions of, because I really don't want to think that lowly of you."
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Post by Logan Andrews on May 31, 2009 19:31:26 GMT
Well, maybe you should think that lowly of me.
I'm not going to answer, refuse to say it, just shake my head slightly and pretend that suffices as an answer.
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Post by Arden Patricks on May 31, 2009 19:37:41 GMT
"Fine. Fuck you." I shake my head, turning away and knowing that I'll regret saying that... but hey, not for very long, right? "I don't want to think that you would honestly kill someone out of some stupid fear that I'll choose them over you, but if that's what you're saying...."
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Post by Logan Andrews on May 31, 2009 19:46:02 GMT
I don't see why she doesn't want to think that when she seems able to accept that I'll kill her neighbours for no reason but my own gratification.
"Maybe you should lower your estimation of me then, because that certainly played a part in it."
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Post by Arden Patricks on May 31, 2009 19:48:52 GMT
"I guess I probably should," I agree, not looking at him.
And I guess that also makes it something of my fault. If I hadn't been so fickle, so stupid... this wouldn't've happened. I think that's the part I hate most.
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Post by Logan Andrews on May 31, 2009 19:55:41 GMT
The strange thing is now I'm actually a little ashamed of myself. Not really enough to regret the murder in itself as opposed to just regretting the fact that it had to end with Arden in Azkaban, but enough.
"Arden, I'm sorry."
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Post by Arden Patricks on May 31, 2009 19:58:08 GMT
"No you're not," I sigh without half thinking about it. "Would you do it again if you could?"
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Post by Logan Andrews on May 31, 2009 20:03:24 GMT
"Probably." I nod.
I'm not sorry about that, no point pretending that I am. I'm sorry it hurt her and I'm sorry she's here...that's what I meant.
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Post by Arden Patricks on May 31, 2009 20:05:32 GMT
"There you go then." I shrug, but I do have to wonder if by that logic, I'm still sorry for what I did.
Well, I'd at least have thought twice about it, anyway.
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Post by Logan Andrews on May 31, 2009 20:11:16 GMT
"Right." I reply under my breath, for the purposes of saying something, because I don't want to just ignore her.
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Post by Arden Patricks on May 31, 2009 20:15:16 GMT
I bite my lip slightly, looking down. I can't quite believe that we're fighting, here of all places.
"... You should probably go," I say after a moment. "But I don't really want this to be the last time I see you when we've just been fighting."
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Post by Logan Andrews on May 31, 2009 20:29:23 GMT
"I'd come back, but-..." I don't think you'll still be here, so that'd be pointless.
And I guess that means I can't leave yet, if I even want to and I don't know if I do or not.
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Post by Arden Patricks on May 31, 2009 20:35:27 GMT
"I'm planning not to be here very long," I shrug, half-smiling weakly.
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Post by Logan Andrews on May 31, 2009 20:46:10 GMT
I nod briefly, again not quite able to reply. I half-preferred arguing with her because then I don't have to acknowledge that it's anything out of the ordinary.
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Post by Arden Patricks on May 31, 2009 20:49:24 GMT
"... You shouldn't have to be here too though," I say finally. "Logan, go home."
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Post by Logan Andrews on May 31, 2009 20:59:23 GMT
I laugh very briefly, because really I should be here and I don't want to leave just yet...not if it's the last time.
"No, don't think I will."
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Post by Arden Patricks on May 31, 2009 21:02:33 GMT
"You'll have to leave eventually," I point out. "What use is there in staying?"
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Post by Logan Andrews on May 31, 2009 21:15:55 GMT
"Eventually," I agree, then shrug, "No use, really...but does that matter?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on May 31, 2009 21:18:50 GMT
"I don't know," I shrug. "When you decide to stay in hell, I think it does. You ought to at least have a reason."
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Post by Logan Andrews on Jun 1, 2009 9:32:29 GMT
"The pleasure of your company, then. That's a good enough reason, isn't it?"
Pleasure of her company for the last time is more the reason, but there's not much use in pointing that out.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 1, 2009 14:21:47 GMT
"Not really." I shake my head. "Though I can't exactly say I hate hearing it."
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