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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 1, 2009 19:14:23 GMT
I think I'll just go in the house now, actually, before I break the silence by doing something really ridiculous like apologizing. I'm honestly sorry that I hurt him earlier, and would probably have apologized for Riley's presence if he'd not overreacted and made that kind of moot... so I don't think that he's the one who needs to apologize or anything, but neither should I.
"You have really lousy timing, did you know that?" I ask, looking over at him briefly as I head into the house.
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 1, 2009 19:19:38 GMT
I hesitate a moment, considering either staying out here or just going back off again before reluctantly following her into the house.
"Apparently so," I mutter, shaking my head slightly before adding under my breath, "Wouldn't have been a problem if he'd kept a distance."
Or maybe it would, because I've been in a foul mood all day anyway and seeing him here whether he was touching her or not would have annoyed me.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 1, 2009 19:24:46 GMT
"Shouldn't've been a problem either way," I mutter back, shivering slightly as I enter the house in that 'oh, I guess I was cold but didn't notice until I felt the contrast' sort of way. "I'm not going to be that stupid again, and all I did was hug him."
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 1, 2009 19:30:39 GMT
"Well, it is," I decide to just point out the obvious, then frown slightly at what she says next, "I don't care. I don't trust you with him."
It makes me uncomfortable, worried that she'll suddenly come to her senses and pick him over me, angry because I warned him and he ignored that.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 1, 2009 19:32:56 GMT
And I guess that's understandable. I look down at the floor a moment, biting my lip. "Sorry."
And there goes my resolve not to apologize... but oh well.
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 1, 2009 19:36:11 GMT
"It's fine," I shake my head quickly, dismissively, "Don't-..."
Bit late to tell her not to apologise though, because she already did. It's not her fault somehow, just like her cheating on me wasn't her fault. It automatically becomes his fault for some reason.
And I should probably apologise for pushing her like that but...I'm not going to mention it and then it won't have happened and that will be lovely.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 1, 2009 19:41:59 GMT
"If it's fine then why are you so bothered?" I ask with a hint of exasperation.
And why, why do I still feel like I should apologize for that, when it's perfectly okay that he cheated on me worse, perfectly okay that he's so damn... possessive or whatever it is he threatened to kill Riley for talking to me - or I think that's what it was - and perfectly okay that he shoved me into the railing? Thought that last one was an accident, but still.
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 1, 2009 19:46:33 GMT
"I'm not...bothered with you. It's him."
I thought that was fairly obvious, but maybe not. I don't even know why he gets me so angry, apart from the whole infidelity business...apart from the whole being rivals...apart from the fact that he really seems to be an idiot...Ah, I suppose that's quite a few reasons already there.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 1, 2009 19:50:22 GMT
And I'm not sure if that makes sense or not, though possibly it does. I don't know. It just seems silly because it really is my fault and I wish he would get mad at me instead. I don't know.
"Well, fine." I shake my head. "But could you please try not to go and kill him or anything like that?"
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 1, 2009 19:53:46 GMT
"Fine," I agree, sounding just a little bit petulant, "I'll try."
I won't, probably. Not today, or even tomorrow...but eventually, I really hope that I do. I have no direct plans at the moment.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 1, 2009 19:55:32 GMT
"Thank you," I mutter, rolling my eyes but deciding it's called for in response to his tone.
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 1, 2009 19:57:34 GMT
"Hm," I murmur irritably, because there's really not much to say to that and it appears there's no point in trying to be civil today so we probably shouldn't bother talking.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 4, 2009 15:08:27 GMT
I shake my head, not saying anything in response. Maybe we just shouldn't bother for a bit.
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 5, 2009 18:09:21 GMT
For some reason it annoys me that she doesn't respond, even though I've just come to the conclusion that we really shouldn't bother today.
I guess I'm just extra irritable today, in a lovely completely foul mood.
So I just frown briefly and half-contemplate the pro's and con's of turning round and going straight back out again.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 5, 2009 19:57:46 GMT
I think I'll just go to my room, or the kitchen, and... try to think of something to do there. Yes, that sounds good.
Except then I'll probably start thinking again, like I was before. And so I turn around about halfway down the hall and come back into the room.
"So where were you today?" I ask even though it's weird to just attempt casual conversation right now when neither of us is very pleased with the other... and also I doubt there'll be much of an answer. But I really don't want to go think.
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 5, 2009 20:00:04 GMT
Where am I every other day?
Not like she knows, of course, because I never have much of an answer. I don't know where I was today, just around and about, like every day.
"Out," I mutter with a shrug, "Why?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 5, 2009 20:03:09 GMT
"I don't know." I shake my head, defaulting to honesty as always. "I'd rather not think, so I figured saying anything was better than nothing because then I'll have to go be alone and silent again so it's impossible to not think."
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 5, 2009 20:08:12 GMT
"Right," I murmur.
I'm not sure what to say to that either. I don't want to press the conversation right now, because I'm still fairly irritated and I really can't be bothered to try.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 5, 2009 20:11:25 GMT
I nod in return, noting that my brilliant plan seems not to have worked because really there's nothing to talk about and I'll have to go think anyway.
"Well, never mind then," I shrug, shaking my head and heading off down the hall again.
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 5, 2009 20:13:20 GMT
"Right...never mind," I mutter, shaking my head and turning to head into the other room.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 5, 2009 20:27:01 GMT
I think I'm just confused now, at this point... as if that's a new state of affairs.
I think I want Logan to be mad at me, though I'm really not sure why and that's a strange thing to want. I feel like I ought to be conflicted again, I think, but I'm not quite there yet so if only he was mad at me I could be. And I think I might be pregant but I'm still tying hard not to think about that.
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 5, 2009 20:37:06 GMT
It's only as I've head into the other room, that I figure I honestly can't take just sitting around all day. I need to be doing something, anything, because that's just what kind of mood I'm in today.
So I turn back around fairly quickly, throwing down the hall after her, just in case she notices, "Going back out."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 5, 2009 20:40:03 GMT
For some reason I sigh at this, closing my eyes briefly as I stop halway down the hall.
"You do that," I mutter, not turning around.
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 5, 2009 20:47:12 GMT
That's quite annoying. That sigh there. I don't even know why it should piss me off, but it does so I end up pausing in front of the door without opening it.
Maybe it would be a better idea if I stayed away from the general population when annoyed, but if I stay here I'm just going to get more annoyed and more annoyed.
So maybe I should just go and kill Riley and have done with it.
And I really don't know why that thought tumbled out after the others like that, but it's probably a sure sign that I'm in a bit too dangerous a mood to be going out again.
So I just sigh frustratedly at the door and stay standing where I am like an idiot.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 5, 2009 20:49:37 GMT
I finally do turn around though, or at least look over my shoulder and frown, when I don't here him leve because for some reason I was waiting for that before continuing down the hall.
"Or not...." I mutter under my breath. "Change your mind?"
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 5, 2009 20:54:45 GMT
"Yes," I mutter, "Clearly."
Because if I hadn't changed my mind I would be gone by now, so I don't appreciate her asking. Although, of course, it's completely irrational to dislike that, but knowing that I'm irrationally annoyed doesn't help me become less annoyed. It, unfortunately, does not work that way.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 5, 2009 20:58:17 GMT
"Well, don't let me keep you," I shrug, wondering why it is he's still here anyway.
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 5, 2009 21:04:38 GMT
"You're not keeping me."
The way I say that sort of sounds like I mean 'as if you could'. Still haven't worked that needless confrontation and spite out of my system, evidently.
It's really really hard to be pissed at her when she's not being aggravating at all.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Feb 5, 2009 21:11:02 GMT
I raise my eyebrows at him then, as something in his tone makes me want to say the sort of thing I'll probably later regret. "Well, good. Wouldn't want to."
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Post by Logan Andrews on Feb 5, 2009 21:15:13 GMT
Maybe it counts as a reason to be frustrated just because she's not being frustrated enough.
The last time I was this unreasonably annoyed at her was the time before I kissed her, so it just turned out to be sexual tension or whatever the hell that was. This time, I highly doubt that's an option.
It's probably just about Riley. So maybe she's not as immune to my bad graces as I thought she was and maybe it's not just him that I'm mad at, after all.
So I just shake my head slightly and sigh in a choked irritated sort of way.
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