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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 4:58:04 GMT
"That's why I said something first." I said with a small nod. "Can I ask why specifically though?" I asked, then wondering if it was obvious or not.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 5:02:22 GMT
"Not... really any reason in particular." I shrug a bit uncomfortably. Just that I sort of felt like kissing you again when you hugged me when I first came in.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 5:06:19 GMT
I nodded a little bit. ".. If you're worried that I was going to kiss you, or something.." I said after a moment, looking over to her. I didn't bother finishing that sentence. I wasn't going to. Maybe on the cheek again if anything. I knew that she didn't want me and she had Logan, so I was backing off. "I know I don't have the best record for that.."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 5:09:23 GMT
"Not exactly," I agree, grimacing slightly. Which works as a response to both sentences, really, even if I meant it for the second.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 5:11:38 GMT
I nodded slightly, "I wasn't going to.. If that matters at all." I said with a very faint shrug over to her. "I know you wouldn't want me to do that.."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 5:17:29 GMT
"... Well, again there's your track record," I shrug, so as not to have to mention whether I would or wouldn't want him to do that. Wouldn't, obviously, except for a very small percentage of my always-messed-up head. "... Sorry, never mind."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 5:21:22 GMT
"I don't though.." I shrugged a little bit and then shook my head as she apologized. ".. But believe me.. It's much different now that you've specifically told me you don't love me. You have Logan.."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 5:24:15 GMT
"Yeah...." For now.
I shake my head quickly, then shrug. "Look, I'm not sure I;'m thinking straight right at the moment, so maybe you should just ignore about half of what I've said to you today."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 5:28:10 GMT
I give her a slightly confused look. "I, um.." I shook my head faintly to myself. "Alright.." I was sure what she was talking about, but what else could I say? Now I just wanted to know why she said she wasn't thinking straight.
Unless it was about the whole Azkaban thing?
"Can you at least tell me what I should be ignoring?" I asked a moment later.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 5:43:07 GMT
"Um...." I glance off to the side a moment, then shrug. "Everything except the stuff to do with Lillian?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 5:45:25 GMT
I nodded a little bit. "Okay.. So then, you aren't thinking about going through with anything?" I asked, and paused for a moment before just shaking my head. "I'm sorry, nevermind."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 5:55:12 GMT
"Honestly, I don't even know right now." I shake my head. "But that's not a good job of ignoring, you know."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 5:56:19 GMT
I nodded a little bit. "Yeah.. That's true.. I'm sorry, it's just difficult to ignore something like that." I said looking over to her.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 15:57:26 GMT
"Sorry," I say again, shaking my head. "But no, I'm not really planning anything."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 16:02:03 GMT
"Makes me feel a bit better then." I said as I gave a faint nod over to her, waving off her apology because I feel like she's already said she was sorry enough.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 16:03:43 GMT
I smile faintly, then take a deep breath in a 'well, that's settled then I guess' sort of way.
"Ah... so. You know, I can stay here and babysit, if you want to go see here right now or anything like that."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 16:06:35 GMT
I smiled a little bit, "I, um.. I might.. Just him though," I started, as I motioned over to where Justin was, "Girls are with my parents.." I finished glancing back down towards the paper.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 16:09:32 GMT
"All right," I nod, eying Justin somewhat warily. I babysat Melody plenty when she was even smaller than him, so I really don't know where the wariness comes from.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 16:11:11 GMT
"... Maybe I'll just go later though." I said as I looked at the address a bit longer before tearing my eyes off it and putting it in my pocket.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 16:15:55 GMT
"Well, that would work too," I shrug, though I kind of want to tell him maybe he should go first, just in case on the off chance I'm wrong and it's a hoax and he doesn't want to get his parents' hopes up or anything.
But I'm pretty sure it's for real.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 16:18:19 GMT
"I mean, I want to see her.. But I just a bit more time." I said shaking my head a little bit. But I was definitely going before telling my mum and dad. Just in case.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 16:23:11 GMT
"Can I ask why?" I ask, tilting my head at him curiously. Most of the time when I've met up with dead people I didn't have warning beforehand, but if I did... well, no. There was Ian. I heard he wasn't dead before I actually saw him, but I didn't go tracking him down. No idea why though.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 17:01:17 GMT
"It's not that I don't believe you or anything... I just..." I paused for a moment and shrugged. "I don't know actually... Just feel like she isn't... and if I go it's just going to prove she's still dead." I shrugged again. "Something like that." I added with a small mumble.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 17:05:40 GMT
"So you want to be stuck in a suspended state of half-hoping, half-fearing for as long as possible rather than getting confirmation that you should be eitjher happy or upset," I nod. "Yeah, that makes sense."
I haven't a clue if I'm being sarcastic or not.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 17:08:10 GMT
"Yeah actually.." I said nodding a little bit. "I'm better at hoping things end up good than dealing with things that could be potentially upsetting." I wasn't sure if that was sarcasm or not, but I just didn't comment and shrugged.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 17:13:38 GMT
"Hm... well, actually I think maybe that does make sense. Sort of." I shrug slightly. "I usually just don't want to deal with things because I always fear the worst."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 17:18:49 GMT
I nodded. "It's part fearing the worse too..." I said looking over to her again. "Least it makes sense."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 17:24:51 GMT
"Yeah...." I nod, biting my lip lightly. "Usually in hindsight it is better to just get it over with, though, isn't it?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jan 11, 2009 17:28:16 GMT
I paused for a moment before nodding. "Yeah, I guess it is.." I paused again. ".. You sure you don't mind watching him?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jan 11, 2009 17:31:22 GMT
"No, not at all." I shake my head. "Always kind of wary of new people, but I'm not going to drop him or anything."
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