Surprisely okay;;{{Arden

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded again at what she said. "I divorced her for saving my sister." I added quietly, shaking my head a little bit.

[Arden Patricks]

I bite my lip again harder, wanting to deny it because really I don't feel that's the most accurate way to explain what happened... but I don't know what is so I stay silent.

[Riley Pearson]

"Then again, I don't really know if she was even in need of saving." I added a moment later. ".. I can't believe she willingly put me through this again... Riyann could have told me what she was doing."

[Arden Patricks]

"Yeah, maybe." I shrug slightly. "I suppose it would'n't've hurt to tell you, but I don't know what was going on, and I don't know if anybody does, really. Maybe not even Riyann."

[Riley Pearson]

[[ i skipped the word told in my last post .. and i'm slightly confused by yours... lol ]]

[Arden Patricks]

((Eh, does that help?))

[Riley Pearson]

[[ aha! it does! and sorry if this thread is boring/terrible.. i thought i knew his reaction, but complete fail on my behalf i think ]]

I nodded slightly, "Yeah.. I guess not..." I sighed a bit and smiled faintly toward her. "I hope you don't mind this becuase I'm going to hug you again." I said moving forward again so I could hug her.

[Arden Patricks]

((Lol... eh, it is kind of hard to be sure of those things, I guess.))

"No, it's fine," I say, hugging him back. "And hey, just remember that, overall, this is good news rather than bad."

[Riley Pearson]

[[ eh, i guess, lol, sighs ]]

I smiled and nodded a bit, keeping the hug going for a few more moments. "Definitely is." I said with a small laugh and smile. I pulled away a few moments later and kissed her cheek lightly. "Thanks for telling me."

[Arden Patricks]

"I'd hardly just keep it to myself," I point out, raising my eyebrows, and step bacjk just a bit but hopefully not noticeably, a little uncomfortable with the intimacy.

[Riley Pearson]

"What do you mean exactly?" I asked her as I pulled away a little bit, thinking that probably should make sense to me right now, but my brain just isn't registering it. I noticed her step away from me slightly, but didn't mention anything about it.

[Arden Patricks]

"Well, you said thank you... and it hardly needs thanks when I didn't exactly have a choice whether to tell you." I shrug slightly

[Riley Pearson]

"Oh, right." I said with a small smile, shaking my head a little bit. "Well I'd hope you'd tell me somethng like this.." I added with a soft chuckle.

[Arden Patricks]

"Be a disgrace to humanity if I didn't," I say, grimacing. "So... how are you now other than mad?"

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged a little bit, "Sort of... Just guilty..." I said sort of quietly.

[Arden Patricks]

"Understandable," I shrug. "Though I don't think you need to be. It's not like you had any way to know different."

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged a little bit again, "Probably not.. but I still am.. I'd probably still be with her otherwise."

[Arden Patricks]

Not if you were falling apart already anyway, I think, but just shrug instead of saying it. My perception was biased so I can't really judge.

[Riley Pearson]

".. Even if I was thinking about leaving her anyway." I said looking over to her again with a faint shrug. "Just probably wouldn't've.."

[Arden Patricks]

"Well... do you think it's for the worse that you did?" I ask, shrugging at how incredibly unhelpful that question probably is.

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged again, "... I don't know. I do and I don't." I said looking over to her.

[Arden Patricks]

"... Undecided then," I say, tipping my head to the side and grimacing slightly. "So what are the reasons you do? If you think I'm being remotely helpful anyway. Otherwise just tell me to shut up."

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged faintly again, pausing to think about it for a moment. I didn't know if this was gonna help, but it might, so why bother tell her to stop? Plus, if I did, I don't think I would know what to say to her.
".. It's like she can't make up her mind.. or something." I started off, trying to find the right words so this made sense. "One day we'll be fine and then she just decides to leave.. I mean, she's broken my heart more times than one person should." I paused for another moment shaking my head faintly. ".. I feel like all of my problems just.. center around her."

[Arden Patricks]

Reason enough not to feel it's a bad thing you divorced her.
"And what are the reasons otherwise then?" I ask after a moment.

[Riley Pearson]

I paused and stared off into space a bit as I tried to think of an answer. "Maybe I still love her. I don't know." I said giving a small shrug as well. ".. I don't know. Maybe it's all just guilt." I added a bit quieter.

[Arden Patricks]

And I don't really have a response to that... at least that I really want to say right now. I could point out that in that case, and even if he does still love her, maybe it is for the best they're divorced. But I think I should probably let him conclude that, or not, on his own.

[Riley Pearson]

I didn't hear a response so I looked over to her, "You probably think I'm crazy..." I said giving a silent chuckle, even though it probably wasn't very funny. Actually, it wasn't really funny at all.

[Arden Patricks]

"No, not really," I shrug, a little surprised. "Why would I think you're crazy?"

[Riley Pearson]

"Because I just told you good reasons I should not love her... And then I go and say that I might still love her.." I said as I looked over to Arden. "I even think I'm crazy."

[Arden Patricks]

"Yes, because love works so bloody logically like that," I say patiently, then shake my head. "Doesn't really matter how good your reasons are, doesn't make you crazy."