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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 11, 2008 17:14:32 GMT
"Yeah...." I smile weakly back. And i think I'm going to hate myself just a little bit until it does.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 11, 2008 17:19:38 GMT
I bit my bottom lip faintly, mostly just out of habit, for a moment. Even though I sort of... wanted, I guess you could say, Arden. I really hoped that whatever she had going with Logan worked out because I could see something going terribly wrong and Arden ending up hurt. In either an emotional or physical way. And I really didn't want that to happen.
And now I didn't know what to say, but I didn't necessarily want her to leave because that would mean being alone and actually feeling alone at the same time and that just wasn't a good combination for me.. or anyone probably.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 11, 2008 17:24:18 GMT
So now what? I think when he doesn't say anything. And I can't come up with an answer. I really, really wish we'd never gotten ourselves into this mess. Hell, maybe us being semi-together helped drive Riyann to insanity... so if Riley and I hadn't kissed, he could be happy with her and everything would be all right.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 11, 2008 17:35:55 GMT
I took in a deep breath as I rubbed the neck of my neck and ruffled a bit of my hair. "Um.." I frowned a bit looking at the ground for a moment, trying to think of something to say. "Can you just promise me that you'll be careful around him?" I asked her eventually looking back up to her.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 11, 2008 17:42:18 GMT
I raise my eyebrows slightly, shaking my head. "He isn't going to hurt me, I swear."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 11, 2008 17:48:23 GMT
"If you're sure." I said eventually looking up to her with a faint nod, putting my hands in my pockets again, wishing I had something to do with them.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 11, 2008 17:57:16 GMT
"Yeah." I nod again, then bite my lip. He's not going to hurt me anymore than I'll hurt him... which maybe isn't saying much considering we've both tortured each other in the past, but... we were kids then. Doesn't count.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 11, 2008 18:01:28 GMT
I nodded slightly, not knowing what to say again. Was there really anything to talk about? I think it was about time for me to stop questioning her about Logan.. for her own sake as well as my sanity.. and well, nothing had really been going on.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 11, 2008 18:12:24 GMT
I think the second worst thing about this - worst being how I've just hurt him - is the fact that he really is my best friend, and probably the very first person I would go to to discuss this new development. But I can't because I don't want to hurt him any further.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 11, 2008 18:18:00 GMT
Something to say before she leaves... say something.. I thought to myself a few moments later. I didn't want her to leave. "So um.. Can we just... forget about what happened between us then?" I asked her eventually. "Pretend it didn't happen?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 11, 2008 18:22:53 GMT
I laugh slightly, shaking my head. "Could we ever? Didn't we try that?"
We can to an extent, I suppose, but I'm pretty sure neither of us is actually going to forget about it.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 11, 2008 18:28:50 GMT
I laughed a little bit, "Well yeah.. Have a point there.." I said nodding a little bit. "Maybe forgetting can just translate to not bring it up.." I added with a faint shrug. Really the situation wasn't all that different, except that instead of me not being single, it was her. And she did definitely have a point, I wouldn't be able to forget it, but maybe she could and then things could be somewhat normal with us.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 11, 2008 18:31:47 GMT
"Mm, probably a pretty good idea," I nod, though somehow I'm not really sure.
It's not like before, when we both felt the same pretty much but it was wrong. Now it's just... awkward, 'cause I ditched him but we're still the best friends either of us has.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 11, 2008 18:35:53 GMT
I nodded faintly, "So next time we see eachother, we'll just act normal.." I said, biting my lip for a moment after that. "I don't want things to be awkward all the time between us.."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 11, 2008 18:38:43 GMT
"Right," I nod. "We can do that." I smile faintly. Hopefully.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 11, 2008 18:42:55 GMT
I smiled a little bit and nodded. "Yeah.." I said looking up to her again. Even though I had to admit that this conversation was a bit awkward. ".. And if need to talk about it, you can.. I'm sure I've done it to you before."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 12, 2008 3:56:41 GMT
That's true.... I shrug slightly, thinking back on all the times I had to listen to things about Riyann... to try and give relationship advice, even. It's somehow not the same, but at least I don't feel quite as awful.
"I'll try not to," I say anyway, smiling faintly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 12, 2008 4:02:36 GMT
I nodded a little bit, "Alright.." I said with a small smile. "But it's okay if you have to.." I added a few moments later. Sure it would probably be slightly difficult to listen to, but it was the least I could do. She had to talk to someone about things and I wasn't sure how many other people she had to talk about it with.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 12, 2008 4:08:18 GMT
"Thanks," I say again, nodding. And now I think maybe we should stop trying to force conversation like this and maybe just go our separate ways, but I don't want to suggest it.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 12, 2008 4:16:27 GMT
I nodded a little, not bothering to say you're welcome. I didn't really have anything to say... I really wanted to have something to say. "So um.. I'm guessing I shouldn't be stopping by your house anytime soon then.."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 12, 2008 4:19:11 GMT
"Possibly not," I agree, tilting my head. Not that I think it would be bad for health or anything, exactly, but I can't imagine it would be very pleasant if he and Logan run into each other again.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 12, 2008 4:23:06 GMT
"Right.." I said nodding faintly, letting out a small sigh. "Then I guess um.. I'm gonna see you before Christmas, right?" I asked another moment later. I really did feel like I was asking too many questions.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 12, 2008 4:30:35 GMT
I hesitate slightly, then shrug. "Most likely."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 12, 2008 4:35:45 GMT
"Okay.. but if not, I have you Christmas present.." I said with a small smile. ".. Not with me now.. but at my house.. so um.. I guess whenever I see you next.." I said clearing my throat slightly, feeling a bit awkward again for some reason.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 12, 2008 4:44:06 GMT
"I'll probably stop by after I get yours and the girls', then." I smile slightly. Guilt, guilt, guilt.... "I really should see them again anyway."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 12, 2008 4:48:40 GMT
I smiled a little bit and nodded slightly. "Sounds good.. and maybe... I'm sure they wouldn't mind seeing you again." I think?... Hopefully at least...
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 12, 2008 19:01:55 GMT
"Hopefully," I say with a slightly pained smile. I still don't know about Lottie, or if Ella will suddenly hate me if she finds out what I did to their dad now.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 13, 2008 9:58:08 GMT
I let out a very faint chuckle and smiled slightly back, "Yeah.. Don't want any repeats of last time.."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 13, 2008 18:31:16 GMT
"No, not really." I grimace slightly, then wince as the still-healing stab wound on my side gives a random twinge. Probably not noticeable though, I hope, pressing a hand there only briefly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Dec 13, 2008 19:31:41 GMT
I nodded a little bit, then a moment later, seeing her wince slightly. ".. Are you sure you're alright?"
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