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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 20, 2008 0:44:49 GMT
I shook my head a little but then stopped, wondering if he might get it in his head that I'd helped kill her if I kept saying it was my fault too. Instead I stayed silent, feeling the tears slow a little bit.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 20, 2008 0:48:54 GMT
"It's not your fault.." I repeated quietly again, shaking my head a little, after she had shook hers.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 20, 2008 0:51:25 GMT
"She was d-defensless Riley." I whispered, hugging him slightly tighter. "A-and I had he-her wand because Ruby g-gave it too me." I had to explain it too him or something.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 20, 2008 1:00:03 GMT
"And that's not your fault.. Do you really think that Ruby would've given her back her wand even if you didn't have it?" I asked her quietly, hugging her back the same way she was hugging me.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 20, 2008 1:04:23 GMT
I shook my head slightly at that. "I-I di-didn't go find h-her soon enough ei-either." I whispered, biting my lip softly, surprised that I wasn't crying all that bad anymore, though I was still crying pretty bad.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 20, 2008 1:11:48 GMT
"You didn't know it was going to happen, Riyann." I said quietly to her, smoothing down a bit more of her hair. "Nothing's your fault. It's just.. It happend.."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 20, 2008 1:15:06 GMT
Maybe he was right, or maybe he was just trying to make me feel better, either way I just nodded slightly. "O-okay." I whispered.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 20, 2008 1:16:20 GMT
I nodded slightly, "Thank you.. plus, blaming yourself only makes you feel worse.." I said quietly, kissing her head lighty.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 20, 2008 1:19:06 GMT
"I already feel horrible." I whispered as he kissed my head lightly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 20, 2008 1:26:43 GMT
"Then I don't want you feeling any worse.." I whispered back to her, pulling away only faintly and wiping her wet cheeks off gently.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 20, 2008 1:30:45 GMT
I nodded faintly before he pulled away a little and I opened my eyes to look up at him, smiling weakly when he wiped away the tears from my cheeks.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 20, 2008 1:38:09 GMT
I smiled weakly back to her and kissed her forehead softly before hugging her against me again.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 20, 2008 1:40:52 GMT
"I love you." I whispered softly, glad that I had told him at least, glad that he made me feel a little better. I hugged him slightly tighter when he hugged me against his body and I hated that I had to feel guilty too. Guilty because Shelby was dead now and I still had to love her. Guilty because she never really believed me when I told her that and now she was gone. Guilty because Riley was my husband and I shouldn't be feeling guilty about it.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 20, 2008 1:45:16 GMT
"I love you too." I whispered back to her. I was happy that I could at least make her feel little bit better. I knew I couldn't make her feel completely better. I knew that she still loved her. Despite the small fact that I didn't like it and would have rather had her not love her.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 20, 2008 1:48:43 GMT
I nodded a little bit again, hugging myself slightly closer towards him, wondering what he was thinking about all of this, biting my lower lip softly and I tried to stop crying now that I was settled down a little bit.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 20, 2008 1:52:00 GMT
I hugged her tightly back when she moved a little closer to me. I was trying to stay away from phrases like, It's going to be okay.. or you'll be okay eventually.. or really anything like that. Because I knew that in times like these they weren't very helpful.. sometimes they were a little bit, but not always. Plus, I'd already told her that she would be okay.
"Can I do anything for you, love?" I asked her quietly after a few moments. I just wanted her to feel a little better.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 20, 2008 1:56:43 GMT
It was silent for a while and I wasn't sure if that was good because I went back to blaming myself and wanting to kill Ruby, well I wanted to kill Ruby becasue she killed Shell, I would've even if I didn't blame myself.
"Stop me from thinking about it." I whispered softly, though I felt slightly bad about it now that I said it.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 20, 2008 2:09:52 GMT
I nodded slightly, trying to think of something I could distract her with. There realy wasn't much that I could think of. "Um.. I saw someone that looked just like you today."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 20, 2008 2:11:32 GMT
I looked up at him when he started speaking and nodded a little. "Really?" I asked softly, feeling tired from all of my crying that I'd done today.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 20, 2008 2:47:08 GMT
I nodded a little bit, "Yeah... same eyes.. and laugh." I said with a faint smile. "Other things too... She reminded me of you."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 20, 2008 16:31:31 GMT
I smiled a little, though I wasn't sure if it was quite real enough. "Really?" I asked softly, biting my lip softly. The last time he'd seen someone sort of like that, or at least just reminded him of me, was when I was Payton, who knows if it was just someone messing with his mind or something.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 20, 2008 20:24:25 GMT
I smiled and nodded a little bit. "I think it was actually my intern's girlfriend." I said with a small shrug. "Really didn't talk to her much though."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 21, 2008 17:46:28 GMT
I shook my head a little, not thinking about Shelby as much, which was good, and I hugged him slightly tighter. "The intern I was going to replace you with?" I asked in a small whisper.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 21, 2008 17:52:07 GMT
I nodded a little, hugging her back a little tighter. "Yep.. He's not really a whore." I said with a very faint chuckle.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 21, 2008 17:54:17 GMT
"I figured." I murmured softly, still feeling an occasional tear or so fall down my cheeks.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 21, 2008 17:59:13 GMT
"Thought so.." I said quietly, nodding a little bit. I didn't know what to say now and stayed quite for a moment just thinking. Trying to think about anything that I could say, but nothing was coming.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 21, 2008 18:05:36 GMT
I tried to just focus on what he'd so far told me, but my mind kept going back to the fact that Shell really was gone, though I tried to keep from crying and was so far doing a good job.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 21, 2008 18:07:11 GMT
"Um.. I think our house is almost done.." I said with a faint smile to her as she stayed quiet.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 21, 2008 18:13:21 GMT
"W-when do you think we can go back?" I asked in a small whisper, looking up at him, biting my lower lip a little.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 21, 2008 18:22:50 GMT
"Probably in the next few weeks.." I said back to her in a little more than a whisper, looking back to her and watching her bit her lower lip.
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