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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 5, 2008 0:54:35 GMT
Shell shuts a drawer to her desk, before looking at her bare left ring finger... again. Everytime she thought it was true love she finally stumbled upon she was wrong, always failing, always falling, always breaking hers and the man she was married to's heart.
This time it was Draven. He'd been gone for over a month now and ironically that's how long they've been married. It hurt her, how they never really had a chance to see how it would play out if he was home or if he was there when she was gone somewhere but she decided it was enough and was about to give up on the concept of marriage.
She walks over to one of the many windows and sits down on the ledge, feeling the wind travel through her curls as she leaned her head against the side, feeling a few tears fall from her eyes as she looked over the grounds. [/size] |
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 5, 2008 2:43:54 GMT
Maybe I should just move back to Hogwarts... re-enroll. Turn back time and start it over from the point I lost the old me, 'cause I still don't really know how much a mess she was, but I certainly messed up a lot in those first few years of being me, and I'm doing it again. So maybe I should just come back here permanently instead of visiting so much.
I laugh very faintly to myself, with very little humor and even less sound as I pause outside the door of the astronomy tower. I really shouldn't be here at all, of course, but this time I don't care so much. I've always loved clinging to the past in the hope it might have answers. And, I have tio admit, maybe I'm hoping to run into Shelby again.
We've really never been terrifically close, but she makes a pretty good last resort. After staring at the ceiling for an hour and growing increasingly depressed at the fact I can't talk to any of my closest friends, I was seriously considering a trip to visit Logan to talk it out with him. Or even Fitzy, a prospect I like even less. So instead I'm relieving my late adolescence and hoping to impose on someone I barely even know.
At least it's not like I have enough self-respect anymore to be bothered.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 5, 2008 3:04:15 GMT
Shell hears the door open to the tower, turning slightly around and seeing Arden walking into the room. Just what you need. The woman that made Riyann upset and heartbroken. She sighs like just watching her for a few moments before wiping her tears away and looking back outside this time up at the starlit sky.
"What do you need Arden?" she asks blandly before tucking a loose curl behind her ear lightly just playing with the hem of her yellow shirt before leaning her head back against the wall. "Advice, just to talk about what you and Riley done to Riyann?" she asks, hiding the bitterness though from her voice. She was angry with the both of them and she knew she was being a hypocrite about this, but she didn't care right now. All that mattered was that Riyann's heart was shattered again by them. |
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 5, 2008 3:18:00 GMT
Belatedly, I realize that Shelby might not really like e all that much right now. I keep on forgetting that it's a double-triangle I've managed to become involved in, and therefore doubly awkward and hurtful.
"I... I have no idea," I sigh, wincing slightly and already retreating. "Sorry to bother you."
I lean my head back against the wall outside the tower, closing my eyes. A nice cheery visit to Azkaban is sounding better and better. Why the hell is it I can never seem to get it right this whole interacting-with-people-thing? I don't remember anything like this back when I was with Travis, but then a few years of solitude and it's like I'm a bumbling idiot child again. Why would I think it might be a good idea to show up here?
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 6, 2008 3:36:02 GMT
Shell frowns a bit, watching her retreat outside of the astronomy tower but she felt that Arden honestly deserved that but she still felt guilty anyway. Letting out a deep sigh, she gets up from the window and walks outside of the door just watching her where she stood.
"You're not bothering me. Did you need anything? I mean it honestly this time." she says with a nod before leaning against the parallel wall that Arden's back was facing before raising an eyebrow slightly with her arms crossed over her chest lightly.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 6, 2008 3:41:49 GMT
"Nothing in particular...." I sigh slightly, shaking my head with my eyes still closed. "Really, I don't know why I am here. Just wish I was a kid again, I guess." I laugh slightly, actually looking at her now for a second before eying the ceiling. "I mean, then all I did was hurt and betray people because I couldn't make up my mind. Now I'm a bit of a slut on top of that... or something like it anyway."
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 6, 2008 3:46:05 GMT
Shell nods a bit looking up at the ceiling as well. "I don't to be honest. My childhood wasn't really a childhood." she says knowing that Arden would know what she was talking about. "Mine lasted from about when I was born til I was around five." Shell shrugs before biting her lip. "It's not like you two well. Had sex or anything right? It was just a kiss." she says softly, still suprised that now she was sticking up for Arden.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 6, 2008 17:50:34 GMT
"That doesn't make it all right," I shrug, shaking my head. I decide not to continue with the childhood discussion. By 'kid' I meant about seventeen, anyway. The rest of it still feels largely like it happened to some other person.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 8, 2008 23:42:25 GMT
"I know it doesn't. I was just saying it could have been worse. And you don't love him right? Just a simple crush." she says with a sigh, before looking back to Arden. "Would you still want to kiss him right now is the main thing. If not you shouldn't feel so guilty about this."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 8, 2008 23:47:49 GMT
"... I honestly don't know about that," I say after a moment of looking inward, shaking my head slowly. I hope it's just a crush, and prefer to think of it like that... but I don't know. The one thing I'm sure of from what she's just asked me is that I would, in fact, like to kiss him again if I could. Which just intensifies the guilt, since according to her that means I deserve it.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 9, 2008 1:00:15 GMT
Shell frowns a bit more, leaning her head against the wall. "Have you apologized to Riyann about this? Explain the situation?" she asks softly, biting her lip.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 10, 2008 0:45:01 GMT
"Not really," I shrug, shaking my head. "I mean... I did apologize. And then she apologized to me of all things...." I grimace slightly, then give a disbelieving sort of laugh and have an urge to change the subject.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 13, 2008 19:21:02 GMT
"That would be Riyann. Always apologizing even if she didn't do anything wrong." she says with a laugh of her own before looking down at the ground. "So, how's Fitzy doing? Or work? Or something else?" Shell asks with another faint laugh.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 15, 2008 13:48:32 GMT
I shrug very slightly shaking my head. "Fitzy is fine, as far as I know. Work is usual. Anything new with you?" There usually is, and usually bad.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 16, 2008 9:29:16 GMT
"Honestly, I have nothing to talk about." she says with a laugh, before deciding to sit down on the steps. "But do you want something to eat? I'm actually sorta hungry..." Shell smiles a little over to Arden before sighing to stand up again.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 16, 2008 13:39:26 GMT
I shrug, debating for a second before deciding to straighten up. "Not particularly hungry, no... but I can stick around...?"
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 16, 2008 22:42:39 GMT
"Sure, I don't mind at all Arden." she says with a nod before heading down the stairs to the main corridor which lead to the kitchens.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 17, 2008 2:47:41 GMT
"Kind of you," I murmur half under my breath, following her.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 17, 2008 3:43:01 GMT
Shell sighs a bit before opening the photo some to let Arden in first, as she followed right behind her. "I can cook something for the both of us still unless you really don't want anything."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 18, 2008 2:58:47 GMT
"No, I'm fine," I shrug, shaking my head. "Really. I'm just... keeping company, I guess."
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 18, 2008 3:13:49 GMT
"That's not very fun, but I guess if it floats your boat." she says with a shrug before opening the fridge and pulling out a bunch of fruit and cutting it into small bite sized pieces. "So um. Do you think you'll ever find love again?'' Shell asks before popping a piece of apple into her mouth sorta regretting her question once she sat on a stool.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 18, 2008 3:23:33 GMT
I laugh very briefly at that, in such a way that it sounds almost like a hiccup. Now there's a perfectly ordinary question for casual conversation between two people who really don't each other all that well.
"Not really interested, honestly." I shrug. "It's all just a mess, for the most part, and then on the off chance it isn't it'll just get taken away. So... really... I hope not, much as that might sound a little strange."
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 18, 2008 3:26:12 GMT
"Actually I feel the same, but somehow I fall in love still..." she says with a sigh before setting the bowl down on the counter before taking a strawberry. "How about kids? Ever think you'll adopt any?" she asks trying to find anything to talk about. Shell knew they weren't close friends but nothing was coming to her mind at the moment obviously.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 18, 2008 3:30:46 GMT
"Probably not," I shrug, still feeling slightly off somehow with this conversation, but willing to give it a shot. There's no real reason we're not closer friends... I think. Possibly the fact that Riley dislikes her so much, I suppose; but at the moment I'm much more inclined to be about as irritated with him as he is with her. "I just... don't really do well with people, in general. Especially for long periods of time."
I pause, feeling like I should add something else, probably unrelated to me... but instead I just shrug, unable to think of anything in particular.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 18, 2008 3:49:35 GMT
"Okay then." she says giving her a very meek smile before sitting there in silence as she picked around at her fruit salad. "Um. How about... animals? What's your favorite one muggle or wizarding world." she says looking back up at Arden. "You can sit here if you want. I don't bite, promise."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 18, 2008 3:52:11 GMT
I shake my head, smiling slightly. "No, I'm all right with standing... and that would definitely be a dragon. Always has been. How about you?"
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 18, 2008 4:06:03 GMT
Shell nods lightly back with a slightly stronger smile but not by much. "That would be a panda bear. I just love them." she says laughing at herself a bit. "And I love giraffes." she adds after a few seconds.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 18, 2008 4:09:39 GMT
"Pandas and giraffes...." I laugh slightly, raising my eyebrows. "And then I like dragons... chimeras... snakes and spiders. Feeling very violent at the moment."
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Aug 18, 2008 4:14:21 GMT
"I'd say so. I choose the cute vegetarian creatures while you choose the ones that can kill us. Nice Arden." she says sarcastically with a grin now on her face.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Aug 18, 2008 4:19:22 GMT
I shrug with exaggerated mystification, shaking my head. "I have nothing to say in my defense, really."
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