First Met;;Riley

[Riyann Servansikk]

I did hear his footsteps, though, against the stone stairs as I walked and he followed, almost glad that he shoved his hands in his pockets, because now I don't have to argue with myself if I should or shouldn't grab onto his hand as we walked, he made the choice for me, which I was somewhat greatful for.
I faintly nodded and then didn't make any sort of response after that, someone might've thought I hadn't even heard him, or something, but I was sure Riley knew better than that and just knew that I really didn't want to speak other than that.
Explained the fire to them and everything.. left most of the rest out actually. I could've laughed at that, the fact that he didn't tell them that we were currently far less than perfect, great, or even okay in our relationship. That's what I gathered at least.

[Riley Pearson]

She didn't say anything and I was slowly getting more and more annoyed as we walked. I wanted her to talk, it would've been at least a little helpful. Even if it was yelling, it was something that wasn't just walking in silene. Speaking and not being spoken back to.
"Riyann, will you please at least try to talk to me?" I asked looking over to her. "I know you hate me right now and probably don't trust me, but could you at least say something?"

[Riyann Servansikk]

I sighed softly, knowing that it had to have been annoying to him, but really I didn't know what to say. I didn't want to speak. I didn't want to work this out, because in my mind it was going to work out.
"What's there to say?" I asked in a small mumble, though I'd just said something, there. He had me say something, even though every so often I had been speaking so I wasn't quite being completely silent. Though I really only spoke to bring something up and stayed silent after that.

[Riley Pearson]

I looked over to her again and shrugged faintly, "I want to fix this.. the sooner we get it out in the open the sooner this can be over with.. that is if you ever forgive me." I said quietly, frowning a little bit.

[Riyann Servansikk]

"I don't want to talk." I muttered, looking away from him slightly, moving so that instead of having my hands in my pocket my arms were crossed across my chest. It was true though, I really did't want to talk about it, it was only going to remind me even more about. Then again, what was there to say about it? Really I'm pretty sure I had the whole thing covered. Pretty positive Arden loved Riley, not entirely sure what his feelings are for her, but they're more than a simple crush. They kissed the first time and decided it wouldn't matter if they did it again.

[Riley Pearson]

"Are you ever going to want to talk about it?" I asked her quietly as she moved her arms so they were crossed infront of her chest. I already knew the answer to that question and I was pretty sure that it was no.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I shook my head, going back to being silent, not caring yet again, just kept walking with my arms crossed. Really I think I was being quite silly, not talking except for when I either wanted to bring something up that I knew wouldn't be brought up otherwise, or when I spoke four words when he didn't want me to be silent and then told him I didn't want to talk. I didn't want to walk with him either. Really, for now, I don't know if there was anything I wanted to do with him, well unless it meant forgetting about this like it really never happened and being able to talk to him without thinking about what I saw.

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded slightly, "Okay." I said quietly, taking my hands out of my pockets a short moment afterwards. Then thinking about putting them back in because I didn't know what to do with my hands. At least when they were in my pockets, I could turn a coin through fingers. Now, I just looked down at my hands as I walked, eventually starting to twirl my wedding ring around in circles. Really, with how Riyann was acting I was wondering if she was even still wearing hers.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I barely nodded, though and kept my eyes on the ground ahead of us, not caring if my face was streaked with old tears as we walked past an occasional few students now, wondering where I was going to begin with. I could go back to my classroom. So maybe the silence was starting to get uncomfertable, or maybe it's because neither of us know what to say or do anymore. After a few moments I let my eyes glance over at him and watched as he twirled his ring around his finger, bit my lip and looked ahead of me again.

[Riley Pearson]

I sighed slightly, trying to stop myself from twirling the ring for a few moments, but finding that without doing that I was a nervous wreck so I continued doing it just for the sake of something to do with myself.
".. Do you.. Do you really hate me?" I asked her quietly, looking over to her as she bit her lip a little bit. ".. Not trust me?"

[Riyann Servansikk]

I heard his first question and shut my eyes for a brief moment before I remembered that I was still walking and opened them, this time looking over at Riley, not sure what emotions were showing on my face, but guessing he could read them if he wanted too. "I already said I can't hate you." I whispered, shaking my head and then looking ahead of me, hearing him ask another question, this time I looked down at the ground. "I d-dunno. I shouldn't."

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded slightly at what she whispered to me, all of a sudden feeling very aware of everything that was happening.. as if I wasn't already pretty aware of it.
I nodded again. "Okay.. Can't say I really can blame you for not knowing.."

[Riyann Servansikk]

I stared ahead of me now, not wanting to look towards him, really hating myself for not knowing and for hating that I couldn't hate him. I hate that I couldn't talk to him, or even really look at him. I hate that all I ever really have going through my head anymore is when I walked in to see them kissing, and how if felt to have my heart drop farther then it should've ever been able too. I hate that he had to kiss her and that I had to do so much worse to him before. Looking up for a moment I saw that we were actually coming towards the lake and I turned right around, walking in the direction we'd been coming from, not wanting to be there.

[Riley Pearson]

"I'm sorry Riyann." I said again, looking down at the grass as we walked. I hadn't been paying attention to where we were going and when I looked up, I saw the lake, freezing in my tracks. I didn't really want to be there, not now. I saw Riyann stop soon too and eventually turning around. I paused for a moment before turning around to, giving it one last look.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I heard him say sorry, either that or I was just simply imagining it because I've hated the two words that came before my name, I've hated them actually before I even started screwing up with our relationship and used them a lot. That didn't matter though, the thought that counts, to bad I didn't feel the need to say something or nod or anything of the sort.
I still had my arms crossed against my chest, and I held them there a little tighter, feeling a tear or so slip down my cheek as I looked at the ground.

[Riley Pearson]

".. I know you hate that word.. but I really am.. and I just need you to know that I am." I said quietly, nodding a little, still looking at my hands and feet as I walked.
I glanced over to her, seeing another tear fall down her cheek and frowned a little more, looking back to the ground as we walked.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I shrugged my shoulders a little in responce, though I did believe him, I knew he was sorry, didn't change that I was still hurt more than anything. I kept walking in silence, this time I made sure that we were headed for the castle, though I don't think there was anywhere in Hogwarts that I'd want to be, especially since it was just going to remind me of ten years ago and then of two days ago.

[[Hm, I just said two days..haha... idk]]

[Riley Pearson]

I watched her and just kept my eyes down at the grass as we walked toward Hogwarts. I was starting to think that maybe I should just go home. There really wasn't any place in Hogwarts that I could go without feeling even worse and Riyann and I weren't even talking.

[[ lol, that works xD ]]

[Riyann Servansikk]

There was still the one question that I wanted to ask him, but I knew that if I did it'd just make me remember, well not true I'm still thinking about everything, nothing's forgotten, but it'd also mean I'd have to speak more than just ask the question, because he probably wouldn't even know what I meant.
So stay silent.
To bad I never listen to what people tell me to do, or if I tell myself to do something.
"W-why'd sh-she replace us?" I asked in a whisper, though I hadn't meant us as in Riley and I, meant me and the girls.

[Riley Pearson]

I looked over to her when she asked me a question and stopped walking, holding my hand out to her so she'd stop walking. I shook my head, looking in her eyes. "She didn't replace you guys.. No one can do that."

[Riyann Servansikk]

I stopped after seeing him hold his hand out and looked at him in disbelief. "Then how do you explain it?" I asked, feeling my eyes fill a little more with tears. "Charlotte was with a friend, Ariella was missing." I said, shaking my head a little as I took a step back from him, feeling a couple more tears fall. "And you're married, how was she not replacing me while I was gone?" I asked, feeling almost horror struck by this. No one could replace us, except she did?

[Riley Pearson]

"She's not replacing you. N-No one's being replaced." I said shaking my head a little, really not wanting her to think that. It wasn't true. "I didn't purposely drop off Charlotte at a friends house.. I didn't even know Arden was going to come over. Shelby told her what happend and she just wanted to see if I was alright.. It just happend." I tried to explain, feeling even more worried now because I didn't feel like she was going to believe me.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I shook my head a little, taking another step back from him. We weren't being replaced. We had been, at least until I walked in and then a few moments later slammed a door. "And when it happened we were replaced." I muttered, starting to walk again.

[Riley Pearson]

I shook my head, walking after her. "Riyann, no, no one was replaced and no one is replaced." I said asd I walked after her. "Why do you keep insisting that you have been?"

[Riyann Servansikk]

I stayed silent this time, deciding that I had spoken plenty enough. I didn't want to defend myself, not right now at least, or what I thought and said, and believed. I kept walking, despite that he was walking after me, looking straight ahead instead of at the ground or at Riley, cursing myself because now we had another thing that he'd want to work out, make it so I agreed with him that no one was replaced, except I don't think I would truthfully agree with that.

[Riley Pearson]

She stayed silent and I took my eyes off her as I kept walking. "Just remember what I said?" I asked her looking over. "Please?" I asked her quietly, as I followed her, thinking maybe I just should stop and go jump in the lake or something. Then maybe she'll agree with me.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I'm starting to believe that I really should at least answer, because otherwise he starts getting the idea that I hate him, much like I only want to. Or because something incredibly stupid could happen. But that didn't matter I guess, I stayed silent, didn't nod or shake my head, didn't look at him to show that I'd heard what he said, rather I just kept walking.

[Riley Pearson]

She kept walking, basically pretending that I wasn't even there and I just stopped walking. There was no use following her if she was just going to ignore me. I was pretty convinced she didn't want me there.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I didn't notice that he'd stopped walking and kept walking for a few more moments before finally decideding to look over and see what he was doing, to my surprise not seeing him there and already thinking that he had simply left me and I bit my lip, feeling like he was breaking my heart even more, though I probably should've at least said something. I looked back and saw him standing there and bit against my lip as I continued walking, finally turning back so I was looking ahead, sure that he could possibly hate me now.

[Riley Pearson]

I watched her kept walking and evetually she turned around. I watched her look back at me before she started walking again and I just stayedwhere I was. I didn't know what to say to her anymore and I didn't think that she wanted me to walk with her. So I sighed and just walked over to a tree sitting down at it.