warmthUnKNOWN; [Isabella]

[Tristian Adams]

[/i]

Hearing a small russel from behind him, he blinked, shaking his head to get out of his thoughts before moving his left hand up to slowly move his thick fringe from his eyes. As he turned his head over his right shoulders, resting his chin on his shoulder, his body slightly turned in the same direction. His right hand moving out to the side to balance him. "Bloody kids." Muttering to himself, the little first year brats were spying on him. Like they normally did. He didn't ever get rid of them.

Trist turned back to the water, leaving his hand where it was. And let a small sigh leave his lungs.[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] The castle was the last place she wanted to be at. Whenver she looked around, she always found some place that held some kind of memory.

A grin danced on to her lips as she thought of her favorite palce to go. It was a perfect time to have some time away from everyone, just to sit and enjoy the quiet. Bella pushed open the big wooden door that led to the outside. The lake wasn't too far from the doors. A few first years pushed past her. "At least say excuse me?" She yelled slightly. So maybe she wouldn't be able to have complete quiet, but it was good enough. She continued towards the lake, never taking her eyes off the murky water. No matter how dirty it looked, it was still beautiful whenever the sun set or rose. Not keeping an eye on her feet, and being the clutz she is, she tripped over a rock and fell a few feet away from a guy.

Bella's eyes went wide as she pushed herself up and looked at her stomach. Though it was still flat, she wanted to be extra careful not to fall or do anything to hurt the baby. She took a deep breath and looked to the person she was close to falling on. A deep shade of pink crept on to her face. "I'm sorry." She said automatically though she hadn't really done anything. Most people didn't like to be bothered so maybe he was one of thsoe people, you never really know.[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/b]

Crawling onto his lips was a smile as he looked at her. Now moving his legs, he bent down leaning on them. Before getting up, he's legs cracked slightly. Rubbing his nose softly with his left hand. He stuck his two hands out to help her up.

"I'm sorry."[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She said with a small laugh and grabbed his hands that he offered her. "Thank you and don't be. I think I'm more concerned for you than I am me." Anything or anyone that was put in her path could be seriously injured and she feared for their own life instead of hers as by now, she was use to it.

Bella smoothed out her shirt after standing up and stuck out her hand. "Bella Clark." Her smile became a little wider and her light blue eyes starred at him, hoping to eventually remember his name. She was actually quite ashamed to say she barely remembered anyone from school besides the friends that still actually talked to her. Her memory was very poor.[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/i]

He muttered angrily in his thoughts, his reaction would of been to frown and look at the floor, but he couldn't do that to her. And plus she couldn't remember who he was right now.

"Lil' small Bella. Long time, no see. Tri has been missing you very very much."

Trist said in the same baby voice he used to do with her, the eyes looking up through the hair with his puppy dog eyes. Oh, had he missed Bella. He couldn't remember the last time he did that look and that voice. It was so long ago. He missed it, and her.[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Had it been ten years ago, she probably would have melted the way he looked at her with puppy eyes like he always did when they were younger. Still, she couldn't help feel something in the pit of her stomach.

Bella quickly wrapped him into a hug. "Bella missed you too, a lot." She said with a small laugh. "Where have you been? And did you honestly believe that I couldn't meet back up with you without trying to kill you yet again?" The day they met replayed in her head. She really had missed him, more than she thought she had, more than she probably should have, but she thought nothing of it.[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/b]

Tri shut his mouth there and then, he had never told anyone where he had to go when he was pulled out of school. He was too secretive to tell anyone, even if it was the one person he could trust the most. Never, anyone. Making a frown throw onto his face.

'Me and my big mouth sometimes.. Geez.'

A roll from his eyes came withdrawn. But then closed them once again, smelling her hair softly. Blueberry.. A smile grew again, he remember that she used to use it. He could never forget the smell.

"Anyways, how have you been? Everything going alright? I've been worried about you so much."[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Bella frowned when he didn't finish. "Oh come on, Tri." She hated when he did that to her, stopping like he wasn't supposed to say or didn't want to.

"I've- She sighed, a smile at her lips, "I've been good, really good. I have two kids now." Thoughts of her two girls made her smile even wider. She thought on whether or not to tell him what she found out today. "And today I found out I've got another one on the way. But your the only one who knows so far, so shhh." She gave small laugh.[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/b]

A sigh fell from his lips as soon as he said it, thinking back to those years of being trapped in there. His guts terned as he thought about it more and more. Holding onto Bella tighter, feeling the pain he felt when he was there flash back into his mind. Closing his eyes, he slowly began to breath lighter than before, his breath was taken away from him.

But all in a few minutes, he was fine again. Just letting another sigh fall.

Tri then listened to what he asked her and she answered to it, a small smile brought to his lips. He was happy for her that she had found a life of her own.

"I'm happy for you."

Even if it did kinda hurt him inside that she was.[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She mumered. What could be so secretive that he couldn't tell anyone? Random answers popped into her head and the first thing she thought of was death eater, but would he really sink so low as to be one of Voldemort's servants? She doubted it but you could never be sure with Slytherins. It had been a while since she'd talked to him or even seen him so the last thing she wanted to do was make accusations. His reaction though, seconds after he had said something, made her face full of concern. The last thing she wanted to do was pull away from him so she just waved it off, acting like she hadn't noticed

Instead she nodded again, just out of habit after he had said something else. "Yeah, their little monsters." She said with a small laugh. "Dillon broke her ankle a few days ago and Ash is growing up too fast. Makes me feel old." Her smile faded slightly and she sighed at the thought of getting older.

"Enough about me I'm always talking. What about you? Just tell me about the stuff that you can talk about." Bella pulled away, the thought that she shouldn't be close to him going through her mind once again. She smiled up at him though, trying not to show that pulling away from him had nearly killed her so to speak.[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/b]

He couldn't not tell her, they were best friends and he knew that he did need someone to talk to about it and plus.. She did know the people who were involved, which made it even more of something that he should tell her. He just still, didn't know how to though, it was quite of a tricky one for him. He had never told anyone it before, no one at all. Which made his teeth dig in tighter into his lower lip. Making a small drop of blood flow into his mouth.

Making the smile on his face as she pulled away after saying her children were little monsters and Dillon had broken her ankle.

"You are not old.. You're still the same little girl I remembered."

His eyes dropped to the floor slightly, remembering all of their times together as kids and as they grew up together, did he miss the good old times. And he just wished he had told how he felt about her sooner, but he couldn't do anything now.. That made another sigh fall to his lips.

"Me?.. Ah, nothing much. Just trying to get myself back on my feet, just brought my own place and got a job.. Nothing much to be honest."

Tri was so temped to tell her there and then how he felt about her. But he knew it would spread to Jack and he would basically kill him.[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She felt the same knot rise in her throat that she had the day Jack told her. Just Jack's name made her feel tons of emotions at once. Anger. Heartbreak.

"Well that's good. I'm glad that your doing so well." Would he really care about her problems? Did she really want to bother him with things that weren't that important. He probably had a girlfriend that she was keeping him from. Maybe he would save her a little pain and just tell her that he didn't care about her and her constant trouble she was in.

She had to tell someone though. Bella couldn't just keep it all to herself and since she hadn't talked to Fitzy he was her only option right now. Her lower lip trembled at just the thought of that day resurfacing. She wanted to bad to forget about it, but what would she do with the kids?

Isabella touched her stomach again and tears welled in her eyes. She hugged him again and buried her face in his shirt. The tears that had already started streaming down her face were probably soaking his shirt and she just wanted him to push her away, but part of her didn't. She would love to tell him now that she had had a crush on him from day one and that even after all these years it hadn't faded at all and she had always thought about him now and then. "Oh Tri."[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/b]

Softly through his breathing and then his eyebrows raised at the next action that happened. He felt her head bury into his chest, he wrapped his arms around her, feeling his shirt getting moist. He dropped his brows and done a small hush tone.

"Bell? What's wrong?"

Tri asked her through his calm soft voice, resting his chin lightly on to the top of her head once again.[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] Everytime she thought about him she cried. She hated crying because when she started it was hard to stop until she couldn't cry anymore. But she didn't want him to see her cry. She took a deep breath and pulled away slightly just enough to look up at him. "Have you talked to Jack or Shelby lately?" She asked slowly. Hopefully she wouldn't have to revisit the memories and Jack already told him.

Next time she saw Shelby she would... Well she didn't know. Maybe she wouldn't have to worry about that and Shelby would just stay away from her. Yeah. She didn't have to see her. This same thing had happened to her ten years ago. Shelby had ruined her life then too. Then the rest of what happened was Bella's fault and now she regretted cheating on Ryan. Now she wondered what her life would be like if she still had Ryan, if he was still here. This thought made a new wave of tears fall down her pale cheeks. If he was still here.

"J- Jack told me that him and Shelby- that they had-" Bella's fists clenched tighter and she dug her nails into her palm. Get a grip. "He l- loves Shelby more than m- me." Tristan was a smart guy. He could piece together what she was trying to say. Hopefully. Jack didn't say he loved Shelby more, but she bet everything she had that he did. Bella was stupid enough to trust him with the reputation he had. He had pointed that out himself.[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/b]

A small sigh fell from his lips, leaning down slightly and kissed Bella on her forehead lightly. Before bringing her more into his arms, just basically showing her that he would always be there for her.

'Not the best of times to say my feelings then.. I guess.'[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] It took her a moment to find a good come back, to somehow defend him from not being such a total manwhore. Meanwhile her stomach twisted when he kissed her and she relaxed in his arms. "But I thought I would be different. We were married and I trusted him enough to not hurt me. What goes around comes around, I guess." She sighed a shakey sigh.

Bella started to get more comfortable in his arms and closed her eyes. If only everything could be as simple as this. Just a hug to show that they were friends and that he cared for her. Nothing too complicated. She wanted to think that sometime in the very near future she would tell him how she felt now that she was free to do what she wanted.

"I'm sorry for telling you all this. I'm sure you have bigger problems than mine."[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/i]

The urge to tell her more and more, trying to fight it off was a really bad thing for him to do. He could never forget what he was thinking about, just one of those things.

"I wouldn't' worry about it, sweetheart. Whatever I'm doing, I'll always leave it for you."

His voice was quiet, he could feel his eyes getting slightly watery, even though they weren't enough for him to cry. He just wished that he had gotten to her before his cousin, but he stupid mother had to get in the way from his childhood, making him the most insane person around in history, just never shows it around people.

Tri finally letting another deep sigh leave his lips, he closed his eyes hard before opening them again, still gently playing with her hair.

"Geez.. Bella. I-I, can't.. - Argh. I don't know what to do anymore.."[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] Bella ignored the small voice in her head that was telling her she was going to get her heart broken again. She trusted Tri. Your going to get hurt. When her started to play with her hair she smiled slightly. She loved being so close to him and having someone to comfort her.

Bella shook her head. "But I don't want to make things harder for you." That was the last thing she wanted. He didn't deserve that. "And I really don't deserve a friend like you." She finished out loud and sighed.

It was quiet for a minute, too quiet. It wasn't an akward quiet though. Sort of one of those times like something needs to be said, but it needs to be thought about more. She loved this kind of silence where she could hear nothing, but the sound of the lake and their hushed breathing.

His voice interrupted her concentration. Bella didn't mind though. "Can't do what?" She frowned and pulled away to look at him. "Talk to me Tri." Her voice was soft as she put a hand on his face, her own face already creased in worry.[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/i]

Moving his own hand up into her hand placed on his cheek, he gazed fitter into her eyes.

"I-I.. I love you. I have loved you from the second I met you, from that day forward I couldn't stop thinking about you. I hated being away from you, I couldn't wait until our potions lesson together. I always dream to be in your arms, no one else's.. You're just everything I want.. Everything I need.."

Small breaths took part into his sort of lecture. He could of gone on longer, but he knew otherwise, it would scare her away or something.[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] She opened her mouth to try and speak. Nothing. Her mind went blank. Sometimes her actions spoke louder than words. She leaned in to do what she had always wanted to, kiss him. Think of Jack. Bella stopped inches from his lips and shook her head. She pulled away slowly. "I- I just can't. N- not after him. I would be doing the same thing."[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/b]

A small agitation of anger over swept him, but instead, tears came to his eyes. He gently pushed the girl away from his body, placing her in front of him softly before turning his body around from her.

Tri, being himself, would of walked away now. He took a couple of steps, before he realised, he could never walk way from her, even if things wouldn't work out. They were still best friends, his shoulders sunk and his head dropped before stopping in his tracks. And placing his bottom onto the hard surface bellow him.

Bringing his knees up to his chest and hugging his legs, resting his chin onto the surfaces of his knees as he looked up at the sky. It was beginning to fade away to sunset, favourite time of the day. He stared far away into the horizon, feeling the tears build up even more.

"Why didn't I say anything sooner?"

Questioning himself as he muttered underneath his breath.[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] Bella bit her lip and looked at the ground. When he pushed her away he didn't have to be so soft. He could have hit her and it still would have hurt just as much as his soft touch. She already missed his arms around her. It was her fault he pushed her away. He needed to anyway. Tristan was the last person she needed or wanted to hurt. His words sent questions flying. Who did he get with and is that why he pushed her away?

"What are you talking about? It's my fault anyway." Bella felt her heart break as he walked away. Some light of hope came back when he stopped. Hopefully she could still fix whatever was broken. She stared at him, reaching out to him every now and then. If she got too close she was scared he was going to walk away again.

Men confused her sometimes. What was he going on about? Isabella sighed and walked over to him, sitting beside him, but not too closely. "I'm sorry for what ever I did." She said quietly, still feeling like she should take part of the blame. "Who were you talking about?"[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/b]

Whispering underneath his breath.

Feeling her shadow behind him, hovering back and forworth, it just made a few more tears roll down his eyes as she began to question who he was with, just to get over her but that just fucked him up even more. This time, he buried his head into his knees as he felt Bell hit the floor softly not to close to him. Biting onto his lower lip.

"It's not all your fault. I'm just fucked up to be honest."

Commenting on himself at first, not being able to reply to the second thing right now. How could he tell her that he was dating the one that took Jack away from her. Shaking his head softly as he began to focus on the breeze that flew into the distance. They were both sitting in front of the sunset now, he could smell the intense from the air. Always different through the parts of the day, something he would always pick up.

He hated that fact that he had to push her away, even not being in her arms, crushed him.

"I'm.. I'm dating Shell."

Mumbling into his muffled tears, wet fabric of his skinnies. Just mentioning her name seemed to angry him lately. It just, he didn't know what to do with himself anymore.[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She muttered. Now he was losing it. He was messed up? If he would tell her what he's thinking then things might make more sense. He was one of the most sane people she had ever met as sad as that seemed or sounded. She didn't even look over at him. Instead she played with the grass that surrounded her, plucking it and making a little stack. The things that amuse me...

This time the silence wasn't good, the tension that was rising in the air made her uncomfortable. She was about to say something when he finally said something. Her hand, that was reaching for another piece of grass, dropped to her lap and she scooted farther away from him. Once again he had left her speechless. Shelby? Anyone... Anyone else... "Figures." She said a little louder than she intended. "Why didn't you tell me earlier? I don't want to keep you from anyone."

She wanted to just walk away. Crawl under a rock or something of that sort. She couldn't leave him though. Her heart shattered even more just watching him cry. A knot started to form in her throat. "God she's lucky." She choked out. Shelby had a lot of things she didn't. Tristan seemed no different than the rest of the things in Shell's life. Bella sighed and scooted closer to him. "Don't get hurt Tristan. I love you too much to see you get hurt."[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/i]

Raising his shoulders lightly, he released one arm from his lock between his knees. And slid it around Bella's waist, pulling her gently to his side. Hoping that she wouldn't mind him doing this especially at this moment in time.

"I would of told you.. But I was scared that it would hurt you even more.. Then, I didn't know how your feelings were about me. So, I never told you.."

Kissing the top of her head once again, he thought it would be to risky to kiss her on the lips.. He just.. He had no idea. So he just gently rubbed he arm with his fingers.[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i]'It was hard to stay mad at someone when they just said they loved you after ten years... Besides it wasn't like they were together. 'Yet...' "Why did you go out with her then, if you knew about her and Jack." It didn't make sense that he would still date her if he knew she was cheating on him.

Bella sighed and leaned her head against his shoulder. "Why does everything have to be so complicated?" She asked softly. 'If only.' "Jack can have Shelby." It was more of a question than a statement as Shelby was more Tristan's girl than she was Jacks. At least that's what it looked like to Bella.

'Shelby has to ruin everything doesn't she?' The day had turned so horrible. Right now she just wanted to spend time with Tri. She had come here for comfort, not another fight. Might as well make use of the time they had, even though she was positive she would be spending quite a lot of time with him, right now. "You never told me why you went away our last year at Hogwarts."[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/b]

Stuttering with his words as he felt a small knot form in the back of his throat. What if they have been? His own cousin with the girl he'd gave his heart to for the time being since Jack was with his love He thought it would be a way of keeping them away from each other, for Jack not to hurt her anymore.

"Another reason why I did it.. Was to try to keep them away from each other. I didn't want you to get hurt even more.. Jack would of killed me, literally, if I had of told you.."

A small sigh pressed through his lips as he finished, gently squeezing her with the arm which was around her.

"It's just life I guess.. A thing which happens, we fall and learn to step away.. - Yes, Shell can have Jack.. Because, I really want you.."

".. Ah, thought you might remember that.. Well, where do you want me to start?"[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Her forehead wrinkled in concentration as she thought back to their fight. She actually didn't remember some of it mainly because she was thinking of things she could do to Shelby.

"So you knew I would have left him... How long have they been 'doing it'?" The words sounded all weird. Of course he would have killed Tri, it was supposed to be a secret. If Jack hadn't of cracked sooner, she was positive that Tri would have told her sooner or later. Maybe if Tri hadn't of been there, and if she didn't feel as comfortable in his arms, she would have gone to hunt Shelby down now that her anger was building more into courage.

Bella shook her head. "More like crawl away. But true none the less." The pinkness that had been in her cheeks a while ago returned. It was like your high school crush telling you he'd dumped the most popular girl in school for you, the quiet, shy girl, who was just trying to make it though life without problems. "Will you leave me to eventually? For her?"

Bella pushed her lips to the side. "After you left?"[/size][/ul]

[Tristian Adams]

[/i]

'Where the hell could I start with that..'

The sudden thought popped in his head, how could start such a horrible past to this girl. He let a small sigh pass his lips before moving his eyes down to her.

"Well.. You remember my mother? And how she used to be a saint towards you? Well.. She wasn't all that. She was a mental patient at this hospital but she escaped. - She.. Basically, used to torture from dawn to dusk. Every time I was in the house, she wouldn't leave me alone. Thinking of new ways to torture me.. I completely went mad myself, started talking to myself, I had no friends at the time since I couldn't trust anyone. Hence why I acted so close to myself when I first met you. - I don't really want to go into more detail then that though.."

His eyes dropped to the floor as the memories shot to the back of his mind, cringing slightly at the images.[/size][/ul]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She hugged him tightly. "I could have... I don't know, but I would have thought of something." She gave a small nod. "But see your better than that, you got through it." Her frown became a faint smile.

"I think you've done well considering you've got a few girls after you." Bella forced a small laugh. It was quiet for a moment and it was getting darker. How long had they been sitting out here? "Well, I'm here, if that means anything." She sighed and leaned on his shoulder like she had before.

For some reason the lake was always her favorite spot. It seemed so peaceful though a lot of people loved to come during the day. When she was in Hogwarts things seemed so much easier.[/size][/ul]