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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 4:06:54 GMT
A couple hours after Arden left the guilt was definately starting to set in. I loved Riyann so much and I couldn't believe that I had cheated on her. Something that I never ever thought I would do. Especially after she had done it to me so many other times. I never wanted her to feel the pain that I felt when she cheated. But here I was, sitting at the bar, trying to figure out how I should tell her. Trying not to think about what I mess I just made or how she wasn't going to trust me anymore.
I took another sip from my firewhiskey, still not used to the taste, it burning my throat as I swallowed it. I was glad that the girls were at my parent's house. That was for sure... then again, if they were home, I probably wouldn't be in this mess right now.
Stupid, stupid, stupid... I thought to myself, staring down at my bottle which was about half empty by now. I should've just listened to Arden when we said we should stop. I mean, did I even really like her? I think that I might.. at least a little. I didn't even know anymore and I was already tired of thinking about it. |
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jun 29, 2008 4:19:56 GMT
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 4:24:51 GMT
I heard a voice from next to me and looked up, seeing Bella sitting next to me, the bartender handing her, what looked to be, a firewhiskey. "Hey Bella.." I said with a small sigh before nodding a little. "Yeah, you could say that.." I told her taking another drink of it. "Yeah, it's not. I haven't been in here in at least... eight years.." I said shaking my head a little, surprised how long it was when I looked back at it.
But Riyann and I had the twins and with the twins and the job, there wasn't much time left to come here. Not to mention it was pointless seeing as I didn't want to get drunk. |
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jun 29, 2008 4:38:30 GMT
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 4:46:35 GMT
"Don't feel old." I said giving her a small smile. "We're not too old.." I told her taking another sip a moment later. She asked me how things were and I sighed slightly again just shaking my head a little bit.
"I messed things up." I said in general, wondering if I should explain or not. It was still hard for me to believe, that I actually cheated on her, but I did and I couldn't take it back now. Usually this's what Riyann did, but I guess it was only a matter of time before it was my turn. I thought about telling her I cheated, but decided not to unless she asked me what I did. I didn't mind telling her, I just thought I'd let her decide if she wanted to hear it or not.
I wasn't looking to get drunk, I just needed a couple drinks to help me feel a little better and relax me before I had to talk to Riyann, who was still at work right now. |
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jun 29, 2008 4:55:43 GMT
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 5:14:34 GMT
"Ah, well, I'm with you there." i said with a small smile. "I wish I had that much energy.." I told her, nodding a little bit.
She asked me what happend and I took another drink, "Cheated on Riyann..." I said quietly, looking down at my bottle and signaling for another. "I-I mean, all I did was kiss her.. a few times. But I know I messed everything up..." |
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jun 29, 2008 19:11:39 GMT
[/i] bad." But its bad! "At least you didn't... you know. And who, if your willing to tell, did you kiss?"[/size][/ul] |
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 19:15:21 GMT
"I don't know why I did it.. it just happend." I said shaking my head a little bit. At least the first kiss just happend... I thought to myself, taking another small drink of my firewhiskey. "I can't believe I did it either.." I added a little quieter.
"Yeah, but still.." Even though Riyann's slept with two of my cousins, both more than once. ".. Arden Patricks.." |
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jun 29, 2008 19:50:34 GMT
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 19:54:20 GMT
I rubbed my forehead for a moment. "I'm not sure if this had a reason.. I just did it.." I said, starting to feel a little guiltier than I had been a few moments ago. I thought talking about things was supposed to help.
"I know it shouldn't have... but yeah, it still did." I nodded slightly with a small sigh. "No, I'm serious." I said looking over to her. |
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jun 29, 2008 20:21:20 GMT
[/i] "I never thought Arden..." She trailed off, trying not to cause any more damage than she already had. "Riyann loves you and I'm sure you love her if you still can't figure out why you did it."[/size][/ul] |
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 20:27:38 GMT
I took another drink of my firewhiskey, shaking my head a little. "Not really any way you could help..." I said with a faint shrug. She asked me who kissed who first and I sighed again. "I kissed her." I said quietly after a moment. This wasn't looking too good for me and I sort of wish someone would yell at me and then maybe I'd feel better.
"You never thought Arden what?" I asked her curiously before signaling for another one. I didn't want to get drunk, but I figured one more wasn't going to do much anyway. "I know.. I do love Riyann.. but she's not gonna trust me anymore when she finds out.. she's not as forgiving as me and she's stubborn." I said mumbling a thanks to the bartender as he sets down another bottle. "I messed up.." |
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jun 29, 2008 20:45:29 GMT
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 20:50:30 GMT
I shrugged a little bit. "I don't think that she did either.. but she stopped it." I said quietly, pushing an empty bottle aside and taking a drink from the new one. "So.. I hope you don't think any less of her.."
"Thanks.. yeah, I didn't.. I don't." I said nodding a little bit. I shook my head slightly when she offered talking to her. "She doesn't know yet, she's still at work.. but I think it might be best if I do the talking.. but maybe once she leaves me you could.." I said quietly. Most people would probably think I was exaggerating, but I was pretty sure that I wasn't. Riyann wasn't going to take this well. |
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jul 1, 2008 22:11:20 GMT
[/i] kind of effect. "If you think that she will really walk out on you, I'll talk to her any way you want me to."[/size][/ul] |
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jul 1, 2008 22:23:39 GMT
I listened to her and just nodded slightly. "I see what you're saying.. and thanks for trying to make me feel better.. but.." I paused for a moment, shaking my head. "I dunno, it might work out to be okay.. but Riyann, she doesn't forgive easily.. she's stubborn and.." I shook my head a little bit. "I don't know.." I took another drink with a small sigh. "Thanks Bella.. I appreciate that.." |
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jul 1, 2008 22:37:41 GMT
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jul 1, 2008 22:42:43 GMT
"Way more than a little." I said with a small nod and sigh, looking down at my firewhiskey. "And thanks again.. Actually, now that I think of it.. Can you make sure I don't drink anymore of these?" I asked looking over to her. |
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jul 1, 2008 23:13:51 GMT
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jul 1, 2008 23:17:16 GMT
"Um.. I dunno, a few maybe.. three or four.." I said with a small shrug. "And Thanks.. again.' |
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jul 7, 2008 2:30:48 GMT
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jul 7, 2008 2:52:59 GMT
I nodded slightly, "I know.. They're with my parents." I said looking over to her.
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jul 8, 2008 4:57:43 GMT
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jul 8, 2008 14:17:44 GMT
I nodded slightly with asmall smile, "Yeah, it's weird.." I said with a faint chuckle. "I fee like they should stll be five."
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jul 9, 2008 3:06:39 GMT
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jul 9, 2008 4:54:05 GMT
I laughed a little bit and nodded. "Yeah.. and they know what to do or say to get what they want... I'm a pushover." I smiled, shaking my head a little bit.
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Post by Isabella Parker on Jul 12, 2008 0:20:33 GMT
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jul 12, 2008 1:50:14 GMT
I smiled and nodded. "Yeah.. go you." I chuckled still smiling. "Yeah.. they are pretty smart.. and they know I'll pretty much get them anything.. to an extent."
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