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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 26, 2008 20:03:17 GMT
"Okay.. I guess we should maybe drop this now then.." I said with a small nod and smile. "Before it's really not alright." I added, biting my lip a little.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 27, 2008 13:47:31 GMT
"That would probably be for the best," I nod, smiling slightly. "So... anything else going on?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 15:20:25 GMT
I smiled and nodded a little. "Um.. no?" I asked, biting my lip a little bit, still sort of thinking about what I said we should stop talking about. I watched her smile slightly and just shrugged a little bit. I always did sort of wonder what it would've been like to kiss her, even if I did forget that I wanted to for a few years. Talking to her about it made me sort of have the want to kiss her like I did ten years ago. I bit my lip slightly, "Just, um.. nevermind." I said shaking my head a little.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 28, 2008 1:25:31 GMT
I raise my eyebrows at that, looking at him pointedly for a moment without saying anything. As if I'm just going to drop it.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 28, 2008 2:05:27 GMT
I looked back over to her, and seeing as it looked like she wasn't going to drop it, started to wonder if I should just make something up. "Um.. " I started, ruffling some hair, still stuck on what to say and getting slightly frustrated with words. So instead of saying something I leaned closer to her and kissed her lips lightly, not really knowing what I was doing until I did it.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 28, 2008 3:29:03 GMT
I decide after a moment that maybe I should just drop it, since he clearly does not want to say. That, I suppose, is another difference: he knows when the hell to stop being nosy and I don't.
But before I can say anything, tell him it's all right and he doesn't have to answer... he kisses me.
I know I've felt before that my brain was frozen in shock, but it's never seemed so accurate a description as it does right now. I'm not really sure how to respond, or what my first reaction is at all. So it comes as a surprise when I find myself kissing him back, just as lightly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 28, 2008 3:35:31 GMT
I was pretty surprised when I felt her kissing me back, if anything I was expecting her to pull away and hit me, but I could say I was pretty glad that I didn't get hit. I wasn't sure what to do for a moment, but then scooted a little closer to her before kissing her again, a little softer this time as I placed a hand on the side of her neck.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 28, 2008 3:40:02 GMT
I'm pretty sure that we shouldn't be doing this, and there's some vague cross between a voice and an alarm bell ringing through my head to tell me so... but just for the moment, I don't really care because I really just like kissing him too much.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 28, 2008 3:46:48 GMT
I smiled faintly as she didn't pull away and deepend the kiss a little bit a moment or two later. I wasn't really thinking too clearly at the moment and even though I wasn't, I did know that I liked kissing her.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 28, 2008 13:45:36 GMT
I smile slightly back, letting him deepen the kiss after a moment, not entirely sure how my hands wound up around his neck. But then the alarm bells get a little bit too strident, and I pull away abruptly, feeling very, very guilty while I stare down at my hands.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 28, 2008 16:09:46 GMT
Her hands moved around my neck and I felt her smile back. I was in the process of scooting a little closer to her when she pulled away abruptly and broke the kiss. I moved my hand away from her neck, looking down to the floor. It really just occuring to me now what we were doing, causing me to feel guilty as I thought about Riyann. Though it does make me feel slightly less guilty when I think about everything Riyann has done herself, all I did was kiss Arden. Then again, the small piece of guilt that left comes right back when I realise that I actually did like it.
I bit my lip lightly looking over to the floor infront of me, instead of the floor between Arden and me. "Um.." I paused for a moment still looking at the floor. "... Sorry." I said quietly, even though I was pretty sure that she didn't mind it herself.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 28, 2008 22:48:48 GMT
"Same," I mutter so softly that he probably can't hear me, quickly shaking my head and not looking up.
You are now a slut, a voice says very sternly from the back of my head, accompanied by another wave of guilt. We really should not have done that.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 28, 2008 22:55:45 GMT
I sighed slightly, running my hands through my hair as I leaned my elbows on my propped up knees. I heard her mutter something but it was too quiet to really be sure of what she might've said. I didn't know what to say now at all and I didn't really want to think about how I more than likely had to tell Riyann. I could keep it to myself, but I have a feeling that, that was more easily said than done.
I'd tell her what happend and then she'd more than likely blow up at me, even though it was just a kiss.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 28, 2008 23:08:11 GMT
"I'm sorry," I say after a moment, raising my hands up to my forehead with my elbows on the counter. "I - I really... we shouldn't have done that."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 28, 2008 23:12:56 GMT
I looked over to her when she spoke and just shook my head. "Probably not.. but you don't have a reason to be sorry. I-I kissed you and you're the one who stopped it." I said smoothing some of my hair down now, since I just ran my hands through it.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 28, 2008 23:24:31 GMT
Still kissed back, I think, but decide not to say that and just shake my head, finally looking at him. We should not have done that, but that doesn't mean I didn't like it.
But I really can't say that either.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 28, 2008 23:28:27 GMT
"Anyway, I wasn't really thinking about breaking it..." I said quietly, looking at her, but glancing to the floor for another moment. She did kiss me back though, so if I had to guess I'd say that she liked it too, but I still didn't really want to say those exact words aloud.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 28, 2008 23:36:27 GMT
I frown slightly, not sure what he's talking about breaking and then wondering if I'm being slow. I really should say something, I think, because it's really not helping the awkwardness for me to be silent, I don't think. On second thought, of course, it doesn't even seem that awkward, really. I just kind of want to kiss him again.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 28, 2008 23:41:43 GMT
She was silent and I wondered what I should say next or maybe if I should say anything at all. Who knows, maybe she just didn't know what I meant when I said my last comment. I meant that I wasn't planning on breaking the kiss, and if she hadn't broke it, I would've kept kissing her.
I was actually surprised that it wasn't too awkward. I mean, yeah, it was a little bit, but it could've been much worse. I rubbed the back of my neck, just shrugging slightly, starting to feel a little worse because I wouldn't mind kissing her again. Really when I thought about it, I was gonna get my head bitten off anyway.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 28, 2008 23:48:57 GMT
"We shouldn't have done that," I say finally, forgetting that I already have. "I - I mean...." You're married. So you in particular should not have done that, and what the hell now?
Maybe nothing now, I suppose, except that we avoid each other for a bit. Possibly forever.
I shake my head slowly, biting my lip. "Why did you?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 28, 2008 23:55:52 GMT
I sighed slightly again and nodded. "I know we shouldn't've.." I said looking over to her again. She asked me why I did it and I paused for a moment, shaking my head a little. I really wasn't sure why I did. I know that I loved Riyann and I didn't think that I still liked Arden. "I was sort of curious.. I don't know really.." I said shaking my head a little. "Why'd you let me?" Why'd you kiss me back?
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 29, 2008 0:02:56 GMT
I shrug, looking away, and interlocking my hands with my elbows still on the table. I'm pretty sure I'm blushing very slightly but hopefully it isn't actually noticeable. I don't really know myself, why I did. I just know that I liked it but I really, really shouldn't and I wouldn't have thought that I would.
"I don't know," I shrug after a moment, looking back at him briefly and then at the table. I think I'm a little bit offended by him saying he was just curious.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 0:10:15 GMT
She said she didn't know and I nodded slightly, letting a few moments of silence pass again. I bit my lip slightly, glancing up to her. It sort of looked like she was blushing but I thought it best maybe not to comment on it. "I might... maybe... like you, a little bit." I said quietly, biting my lip a little bit looking over to her again. I wasn't really sure if I did, but I might and I was wondering if I should've said anything at all.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 29, 2008 0:19:20 GMT
I spend the few moments of silence staring avidly at my fingernails again, looking up when he speaks but then back down almost as quickly. Yeah, same here. But you're married.
But I don't want to say this any more than I did the first time. Finally, I force myself to look up again. "Same here," I say very quietly, nodding.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 0:29:45 GMT
I watched her look up to me, after a few moments of staring at her hands, surprised that she would have admitted something like that. I would think she was someone who, more along the lines of, kept things to herself. Especially something like that, since I'm married with kids. "So um.." I stopped, unsure of what to say and just shook my head a little. "I dunno.." I said, thinking about maybe kissing her again, feeling slightly more guilty at the thought.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 29, 2008 0:36:05 GMT
"Ah... I should... probably go," I say quickly, when he doesn't seem to know what next. I should go, and then we should not see each other for a bit, and that should be good. And maybe we're just temporarily insane and this can go away again before we do something really stupid like kiss each other again.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 0:45:37 GMT
I looked back up to her and shook my head a little. "Y-you don't have to go." I said back to her, biting my lip a little bit. I didn't really want her to go. Then I'd be alone again and on top of that having to think about what I was going to tell Riyann. Which technically I'd have to do eventually anyway.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 29, 2008 0:53:51 GMT
"I said I should," I disagree, shaking my head and standing up. "I really should, before... I don't know. Before either of us makes this any worse." I bite my lip again.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 29, 2008 1:02:42 GMT
I bit my lip slightly for a moment before standing up after her. Thinking about her statement and trying to think if it really could be any worse. "I don't really think that it could get any worse.." I said grabbing one of her hands and pulling her into another kiss, having a small feeling that I was going to get hit this time.
I already kissed her and had a feeling that I already lost Riyann's trust. So kissing her again really wasn't going to do much right now.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Jun 29, 2008 1:07:38 GMT
I pull away almost immediately this time, though more so because of the abruptness than the kiss itself. Otherwise I'd probably kiss back again, so now I'm a little bit annoyed because I really want to.
"It could get worse if it escalates from an unthinking one-time mistake," I explain with just a touch of... not-quite iciness, but maybe just a bit of the annoyance. I've crossed my arms, looking at the ground.
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