Temporary Boredom;;Arden

[Riley Pearson]

I shook my head a little when she mentioned butting in. I didn't mind it, "It's okay.." I said before nodding slightly, "Yeah, you have a point... we talked a little bit.." I said, then a moment later, picking up the mug closer to me. "But yeah.. it'd be easier if we saw eachother a little more." I shrugged faintly. "We will."

[Arden Patricks]

I nod again, picking up a spoon to sir my tea with, but not drinking any or saying anything. I really don't know why, but I somehow have my doubts and I somehow don't think they should work it out. I shake my head. That doesn't make any sense, of course.

[Riley Pearson]

She didn't say anything and I paused for a moment looking down at my tea, glancing up to see her shaking her head slightly. "What's that silence mean?" I asked a moment later looking back up to her. "Silence usually isn't good."
I took silence as maybe she didn't think we could work it out. Which kind of worried me that she'd be thinking that. Then again, I didn't know for sure that's what she meant. But I did know I really did want to work it out. She said she was sorry and I forgave her... again. Not to mention she was pregnant.. and if something happend between us, I still wanted to be able to see the girls.
I never realised how much I leaned on Riyann and girls until Riyann tried to leave with them. And even when she tried to leave without them, I still stopped her. I don't know why, but I just couldn't seem to let her go even though she's hurt me so many times. And I forgave her every single of those times.
I wasn't sure if the situation was really as complicated as I thought but I had a feeling I was making it that way.

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[Arden Patricks]

((Evidently... ))

"Silence is silence," I shrug. "Usually neutral more than anything, and it's usually best to stay silent in situations like this." I frown slightly, looking t him more closely. "So what's bothering you then now that you're all silent as well?"

[Riley Pearson]

[[ lol.. xD.. <-- at self, haha ]]

I looked to the floor for a moment and shrugged faintly. "I dunno... I'm bothering myself." I said before taking a sip of my tea, which was still quite hot. "If that makes sense..." I paused for a moment and then shrugged slightly again. "I forgave her so I don't know why this's an issue for me... I always do. I should be used to it by now.." I said glancing back to her, realising all of that sounded better in my head. "Plus, I mean.. I don't want her to leave... or take the girls with her. I know she'll want them.." Honestly, I think I was just scared. When thing's like this start to happen it seems like they always snowball and before I know it everything's completely messed up. I bit my lip a little bit. "I'm scared that something else's gonna happen.. and maybe I won't be able to forgive her again.." I added silently, having a feeling I just blurted out too much information to her but still somehow managed to leave out that Riyann was pregnant, which was something that wasn't exactly not big news.

[Arden Patricks]

I look down at my tea before answering, still stirring it almost obsessively.
"It definitely sounds like you need to tell her all of this," I say after a moment. "I don't know. But do you even know whether you want to forgive her or not?"

[Riley Pearson]

I stayed silent for a moment and nodded slightly. It was something I probably should, but I didn't want her to blow it out of porportion or twist my words. Then everything would just end up worse probably. I shrugged slightly. "Yeah.. I think I do.."

[Arden Patricks]

"That sounds promising," I say a little dryly, grimacing just a little and finally deciding to actually take a sip of my tea.

[Riley Pearson]

"I do." I said with a small nod. "I don't want us to split up.." I added quietly, staring down at my tea.

[Arden Patricks]

I nod at that, stirring my tea again. "Then... I'm pretty sure you do have to talk to her."

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded slightly again. "Yeah, I guess so.." I said watching her hands for a moment as she stirred her tea before looking back at mine.

[Arden Patricks]

I nod again, not saying anything now. But this time the silence does bother me a little, because I'd like to have something to say.

[Riley Pearson]

She didn't say anything again and I shrugged faintly again, wondering what else I could say. When I was thinking about it, I tried to think about what we talked about when she came and visited me in the hospital. Maybe there was something to bring up, I really wasn't sure though.
I took a sip of my tea as I thought before remembering what I had brought up while talking to her in the hospital. I guess technically it wasn't my fault for sort of bringing up Travis, but now that I remembered she didn't like talking about the situation, I imediately wanted to apoligise for it.
I opened my mouth about to say something and just shut it again, stopping myself. She didn't like to talk about it, so I should probably just all around drop it.
Thinking she was probably going to ask about what I was going to say, I looked down at my tea, shaking my head a little. "This needs to stop happening to us.." I said with a faint chuckle, even though I was still thinking about apoligising.
This did seem to happen a lot with me though. Not knowing what to talk about I mean. It mostly just happend with Riyann and Arden. Though the difference with Riyann was when it happend we usually just ended up kissing. It wasn't that easily solved with Arden... At least, it didn't seem like it would be.

[[ sorry i didn't reply right away, lol, my friend was over and i can't rp well/at all when people are reading what I'm writing ^^ ]]

[Arden Patricks]

((Ah, I see. Nah, is understandable. And good lord, rambly much? Sorry about this.))

"Definitely," I nod, laughing very faintly.
I've been wondering for years how we can be such good friends if we're practically incapable of talking to each other. It doesn't really mesh, and a lot of times I've felt like we're only friends because one of us said so once and we've refused to look at evidence instead of clinging to that statement. And then I've usually felt bad, because wrapped up in that thought is the one about how I really have remained friends with him, much of the time, only because I've felt guilty that he goes around calling me his best friend.
And of course, all of this is pretty much moot these days, because I do think of him as something of a brother... but maybe it still bears thinking about.
I sigh slightly. "Why in the world are we friends?"

[Riley Pearson]

[[ lol, then yay ... aw, haha, that's okay, it was good ^^ i don't mind rambly... plus, mine was kind of rambly ]]

I'm not going to lie. The thought about why Arden and I are friends has crossed my mind. We really rarely actually have something to talk about. But when we do actually have something, then she's easy to talk to and plus, she's always been there for me. So I don't think much about it when calling her a close friend.
"Um.. Well, I know why you're my friend.. but I don't think that would work the other way around..." I smiled slightly.

[Arden Patricks]

"Maybe it does," I shrug. "Why is that then?"
At least it's something to talk about, if perhaps not something especially cheery.

(( ))

[Riley Pearson]

[[ ^^ ]]

"Because you've always been there for me... You're fun to talk to.." I started, "Well, when we have something to talk about.." I chuckled. "I dunno, you just are. I like being around you." I finished with a smile to her.

[Arden Patricks]

"Pretty close enough then," I shrug, smiling slightly. "It just... isn't right, I suppose, that so much of the time we can't talk."

[Riley Pearson]

I smiled and shrugged a little bit again. "Yeah.. I have a feeling it might just be my fault becuase it happens to Riyann and me all the time."

[Arden Patricks]

"I still don't think that's true." I shake my head. "It happens to me and everyone else I know pretty regularly as well. You blame yourself too much."

[Riley Pearson]

"True... and yeah, maybe I do." I said with a small nod before shrugging very slightly.

[Arden Patricks]

"You do," I nod, shrugging. "It's always your fault, according to you, when we run out of things to say."

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged a little, "I'd rather blame myself than blame you." I said simply, before shaking a few pieces of hair from my eyes.

[Arden Patricks]

"Even if you're clearly wrong, on occasion?" I ask, raising my eyebrows.

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged a little, taking a sip of my tea. "Yeah." I said with a small nod. "I'd feel bad blaming you.."

[Arden Patricks]

Yet another way in which I guess I'm not as good a friend to others as they are to me.
I shrug. "You don't have to, really."

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged a little bit. "You want me to blame you?" I asked with a faint chuckle.

[Arden Patricks]

"When I deserve it," I shrug. "I do the same to you."

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded slightly, "Okay... Next time I think it's your fault. I'll let you know." I smiled, shaking my head a littl.

[Arden Patricks]

"Thank you." laugh slightly. "I appreciate that."