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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 16:47:01 GMT
I didn't say anything, just thought about how I needed the damn distraction now. I mean, how do you think it feels to know your daughter hates you?
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 16:51:46 GMT
"Would you rather stay out here?" I asked, wondering if I should go back into the kitchen or not.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 16:54:10 GMT
"I dunno." I said softly, biting my lip softly. I feel pathetic, it was my fault after all, Char had a right to hate me, even if it was for a short time or forever.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 16:59:13 GMT
I nodded slightly, "Okay.." I said softly back.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 17:00:56 GMT
"I hate me." I muttered under my breath, turning a little so I could burry my head in his neck.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 17:10:06 GMT
"Don't hate yourself..." I said quietly, hugging her again as she buried her head in my neck.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 17:11:26 GMT
"But I do." I whispered with a small sigh, feeling him hug me.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 17:13:55 GMT
"I don't hate you." I said quietly, hugging her a little tighter.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 17:30:21 GMT
"I know you don't." I whispered as he hugged me tighter, and I hugged him back.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 17:31:28 GMT
"Then please don't hate yourself.." I whispered back as she hugged me.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 17:39:54 GMT
I just bit down lightly on my lip, why shouldn't I hate myself? Because he doesn't hate me? Char hates me though. Still I couldn't actually come to say that I still hated myself, instead I just nodded a little and shut my eyes tight.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 17:42:33 GMT
I wasn't really convinced that she agreed with me and didn't hate herself but I took the nod and just dropped it.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 17:49:07 GMT
I wanted to say I hated myself again, but I just kept that to my thoughts instead and bit down softly against my lip.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 17:50:38 GMT
"Is there anything I can do to help?' I asked quietly.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 17:57:58 GMT
I shook my head lightly and hugged him back. "No, but I love you." I said softly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 17:59:10 GMT
I nodded slightly, "Love you too."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 18:03:32 GMT
I smiled weakly and kissed his neck once before resting my head a little more on his shoulder instead.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 18:09:21 GMT
I smiled, letting out a small sigh as she leaned her head on my shoulder.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 18:16:35 GMT
I hate me. "What now?" I asked in a small whisper, not sure if I wanted to actually go to kitchen yet.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 18:23:02 GMT
"It's up to you..." I said quietly, "You're gonna have to face them sooner or later though.."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 18:24:08 GMT
"I know." I whispered, wasn't them walking in on us enough of facing them? "Why up to me?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 18:28:56 GMT
"Cause I don't want to make you do something you're not ready for." I said quietly to her. "But I think they need to hear it from you.."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 18:33:16 GMT
"Hear what?" I asked in a small whisper as I shut my eyes lightly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 18:37:13 GMT
"That you love them.." I said quietly.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 18:41:16 GMT
I just nodded a little. I'm sure they could wait. Hopefully. See it is my fault that Char hates me, I'm not doing anything about it.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 18:43:22 GMT
"I'm guessing the sooner the better though..." I said quietly.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 18:45:09 GMT
"I know." I mumbled. "But I don't wanna right now." I added, feeling like a child who had to appologize to the boy down the street for pushing him in the mud.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 18:47:57 GMT
"Okay.." I said quietly, wishing I could just tell her to go and do it now.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 27, 2008 18:51:25 GMT
I heard him say okay and was slightly surprised he didn't make me get off my arse and go in there to appologize and say I loved them.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 27, 2008 18:52:52 GMT
"But if you don't soon, they're probably just going to think it even more." I said looking over to them.
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