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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 1:01:37 GMT
The healers finally decided that nothing else was wrong with me. It only took them a day or two over a week. But in the mean time, I did get to talk to a lot of poeple who supposedly knew me... I say supposedly because I really could not remember them. No matter how much I wanted to, they were just people who knew my name and everything about me. Really strange actually. But at least I knew I had friends who liked me enough to come see me. And that I had a family. It's nice to know that I was loved... am loved, I should say.
I looked up at the small house, looking around the yard with Riyann next to me. I didn't recognise it... at least now I didn't. I was hoping that maybe looking at it would help me remember something. Then again, I had only remembered a few things during the week and they were all pretty random.. and at random things.
But it had to come back eventually right?
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 1:09:33 GMT
I bit my lip softly, standing in front of the house with Riley and glanced over at him. I had the girls staying with his parents for a few hours, maybe longer, as I went to get Riley, visited for a bit and then brought him home. They didn't know that he was coming home today, which was both a good and bad thing. Good because they didn't cling onto me when I dropped them off and said I needed a little bit of time for myself, bad because, well when they did get home.
"This is home." I said slowly, looking at him as I spoke before glancing away.
Asides from the first day of visiting him and finding out he had no idea who I was, we'd gone back once a day before yesturday, just to keep the girls quiet. I hadn't wanted to go see him, even though I wanted more than anything to see him. It was just, hard. I wish it wasn't because he was the same Riley I loved, but I was someone he was married to, someone he didn't remember, and someone he was trusting from nothing.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 1:15:57 GMT
"Wish I remembered it..." I said quietly looking at it still before shifting my gaze over to Riyann to see look back to the house. I realy was hoping that something here would spark some kind of memory causeing me to remember something, but as of now, nothing like that happend.
"Um.. so wanna go inside then?" I asked a moment later, since we were still outside. "And I'm really sorry again... I wish this was different..."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 1:20:33 GMT
I bit my lip softly, wishing he could remember it himself. "Don't worry about it." I said softly, shaking my head lightly. "Memory won't come back if you just focus on it all the time." I said with a small smile. "Just like I couldn't remember who k..." I started, not finishing that and biting my lip a little more. Yeah, let's compare it to when I died and you can't remember or would you believe me, though I could show you my grave. I died 10 years ago, that's a topic you want to start with your husband of no memory.
"Sure." I said softly and started walking to the front door and unlocked it when I got there. "You couldn't help this hun." I said softly, shaking my head lightly and I held the door open for him.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 1:24:21 GMT
I smiled a little and nodded. "I guess so." I said looking over to her. And it was true. When I remembered things they just seemed to come, usually when I was just talking randomly to someone and I said something, that had no clue where it came from. "Who what?" I asked slighty confused and wodnering what she was going to say.
I smiled a little and followed her up to the door. "I guess so.." I said quietly, as she held the door open for me. "Thanks." I said with a small smile.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 1:28:06 GMT
"Hm, I always was right, even when I was horribly wrong." I said with a small smile. Like the time that I had sex with two of your cousins and kissed one of my friends. Or when I got myself killed. How about when I got the dark mark in the first place. "Uhm, nothing." I said softly, shaking my head lightly. "It wasn't anything just something stupid." I added with a small smile. Well if he never got his memory back I didn't need to remind him of all of those things.
I nodded and shut the door lightly behind him. "Your welcome." I said and started for the kitchen. "Want anything to drink? Tea?" I asked softly, biting my lip a little."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 1:31:54 GMT
I chuckled lightly, "That's good to know." I said with a small nod, then nodding again when she said it was nothing. "Okay.." I said looking over to her for a moment and just taking her word for it, which was really the only thing I could do.
"Um.. okay.. tea would be nice.." I said giving her another small smile as I looked around the house, following her toward the kitchen.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 1:36:13 GMT
I nodded with a small grin. "Course it is." I said, laughing softly. I smiled softly when he said okay and didn't push it. Maybe if I had to I'd tell him, or if it came down to telling him about everything, which I don't know if I should. Maybe he'd remember better and for real if everyone stayed silent. Almost as if he'd take everything everyone said and it started feeling like it was a real memory when it wasn't.
"Tea it is." I said with a small chuckle, starting the water for tea, maybe I should just use magic, but nah, this works probably better for the moment anyways. "Want the tour now or later?" I asked softly, looking at him and biting my lip softly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 1:39:56 GMT
I smiled and chuckled a little with a small nod.
"Um.. now would be good since we have to wait for the water to boil." I said with a smile looking over to her as she bit her lip.
[ ahh, short. -.- ]
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 1:44:38 GMT
[[Holy Goodness. it is.. lol..]]
I nodded softly and turned around in a few circles with a small smile before turning back to him. "Well this is the kitchen." I said with a small smile and started out of the kitchen and for the living room. "Living room, and I'll sleep out here." I said softly shrugging my shoulders lightly. I had already been sleeping out here since the accident so it made no difference to me, I just couldn't sleep in our room.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 1:48:58 GMT
[[ lol, yeah.. i was at loss of words... lol *shakes head at self* ]]
I chuckled lighty when she said this was the kitchen. "Right." I said with a small grin, then following her out of the kitchen and into the living room. "Riyann, I'll sleep out here... you should take the bed." I said looking at her, shaking my head a little.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 1:55:46 GMT
I bit down a little harder on my lip when he said he'd sleep out here. "N-no, it's fine. You sleep in there unless it's just awkward for you." I said softly, not wanting to sleep in there, not until, I don't know when, but I would if he really wanted me too. "I've just been sleeping out here for the past week and all." I said under my breath, wondering if he heard me or not, wondering if I wanted him to or not.
Shaking my head softly I started out of the living room and to the hallway. "This is the hall." I said, nodding down it and going to our bedroom. "Uhm, this is o-our, uh. Our room." I said keeping my eyes from him and went back to the hallway.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 1:59:34 GMT
"I d-don't care where I sleep.. I'll sleep where ever you don't want to." I said softly back looking back to her when she said it was fine. I heard her say something quietly, wondering if I should say something or not. "... Um.. why were sleeping out here?" I asked her quietly, biting my lip for a moment.
I followed her into the hallway and then into the bedroom, looking around as I did. "Oh.. okay.." I said staying there for a moment longer after she walked out before following her again
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 2:08:07 GMT
"Sleep where you feel comfertable." I said softly, shrugging my small shoulders lightly. "It, it doesn't matter." I added with a small smile. I heard his next question and pretended that I hadn't heard it. I probably wouldn't have answered even if he had his memory instead of this damn amnesia.
I heard him say okay and nodded before going to the girls' room, not bothering to see if he was following, feelign slightly bad about it now. "Ariella and Charlotte's bedroom." I said softly, stepping into the room a little and looking away from him again.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 2:13:46 GMT
"O-okay..." I said quietly, watching her shrug and smiled a little back. I listened for the answer to what I asked her. But when I didn't hear a response I just dropped it. She either didn't hear me, or she didn't want to answer.. and I could understand that.
I nodded slightly followeing her and walking into the room after her looking around. I walked in a little further, sitting down on the nearest bed and picking up a stuffed animal. "Mr. Wiggleton.." I said with a small chuckle, then giving a slightly confused look and shaking my head a little bit. "I dunno why I remembered that." I said with a small smile looking up to her. "That was right, right? I'm not just spitting out random things?"
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 2:19:07 GMT
I heard him say okay and nodded softly, glad that he didn't ask again, glad that he didn't press further into it.
I watched him as he walked further into the room and smiled weakly when he went to Ariella's bed and sat down on it. I looked away again when he spoke and wiped my eyes quickly. I didn't know what to do anymore and he's remembering small things which I should be happy about, but instead it just reminds me that he doesn't remember most things and it makes me all upset again. Looking back at him I saw his head shaking a little. "Yeah, it was right." I said with a small smile in return.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 2:23:49 GMT
I nodded a little with a smile and after another moment set the stuffed animal back on the bed, looking over to her, still smiling a little. "Good to know." I said quietly and staying quiet for a moment. "I'll remember it all eventually... Don't worry about it.." I said as I stood up again and walked over to her. "I want it to as much as you do."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 2:28:22 GMT
I watched him as he nodded and smiled before setting the animal back and gave him a weak smile when he looked at me with the smile. "Yeah." I whispered, nodding my head a little. "S-seems like it's going to take too long." I whispered, not wanting to sound impatient. It wasn't his fault and I should be happy he remembered something, even if it was as stupid as our daughter's stuffed animal's name. I looked away from him again when he walked over to me. "I think the water's done." I whispered before stepping backwards and leaving the room.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 2:30:58 GMT
"I can't agree with you anymore.." I said with a small nod. This was getting frustrating, but they did tell me that it was all likely to come back at once, eventually. Eventually was taking longer than I imagined though. I was gonna give her a hug, but before I could act on it, she said the water was done and I nodded a little, "Okay." I said quietly, watching her take a step backwards and following her out of the room and back to the kitchen.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 2:37:04 GMT
I bit down lightly on my lip when he said he couldn't agree with me any more and smiled weakly again. Walking to the kitchen I tried to ignore the fact that I wanted him to be him ore that I wanted to kiss him or anything. And then I was wondering why of all things I was trying to distance myself from him, but that's just something I'll probably never find out about. I took the water off and got tea ready for both of us.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 2:40:27 GMT
I walked into the kitchen with her, watching her as she put some tea together for both of us. It almost seemed like she was distancing herself from me.. which I guess I couldn't blame her.. I wasn't sure what she was going through right now.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 2:42:41 GMT
I smiled weakly and handed him his tea before grabbing my own, staying silent as I sat up on the counter like I always did, just out of habbit.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 2:47:59 GMT
"Thanks." I said quietly with a smile as she handed me my tea. I watched her sit up on the counter, as I took a sip and getting a weird feeling of de ja vu as I stood there and watched her. "This's gonna sound weird, but, um.. can I kiss you?" I asked looking over to her, watching her expression.
I wondered if she would even say yes to that. I mean, yeah, we were married and she remembered me, but I still didn't remember her, so that be sort of weird... maybe. I wasn't sure anymore, all I knew is that when I saw her sit on the counter I felt like I wanted to, or something that I've done before. I thought that maybe if I did, something could come back. You never know.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 16:41:48 GMT
I nodded at his thanks and took a small sip of my hot tea, feeling his eyes on me as I sat on the counter. After a moment I looked over to him about to start thinking of something to talk about before he started speaking. I heard him and, really, it did sound sort of weird, but that didn't matter, right? I mean I've been wanting to kiss him as it was.
"Yeah." I said softly, nodding lightly, wondering why he asked now, maybe because it was just what we've done before or something.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 16:50:01 GMT
I heard her say yeah and nodded a little, setting down my tea and walking over infront of her. I didn't do anything for a moment, and just looked down at her. After that moment passed I leaned down and pressed my lips softly against hers, moving a hand gently to the side of her neck.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 16:55:17 GMT
I bit my lip softly and watched him stand infront of me. It seemed kind of awkward, but then again, who really cared, I didn't. I looked back at him when he looked down at me for that short moment that felt like a lot longer than it was. About to say something I stopped, feeling his lips on mine as he kissed me and I smiled faintly against his lips, kissing him back as he had a hand lightly on the side of my neck.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 17:04:28 GMT
I felt her smile, causing me to smile very faintly too and I deepend the kiss a little bit as I stood there. I hadn't remembered anything yet, which was something I'd had hoped would happen, but I guess something could still come. I felt sort of bad for doing this, I still didn't really remember us, but I really wanted to.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 17:07:42 GMT
I could feel him smile faintly against my lips before deepening the kiss. I let him for a moment before breaking the kiss and pulling away from him. As much as I wanted to think that everything was fine again, Riley didn't love me, not that he remembered though. "Sorry." I murmured softly, looking away from him.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Jun 11, 2008 17:11:04 GMT
I let her break the kiss and shook my head a little when she said she was sorry and pulled away a little more. "Um.. no, I'm sorry.." I said quietly, moving my tea and sitting up on the counter next to her. "Thought maybe I'd remember something.." I added with a small shrug.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jun 11, 2008 17:14:18 GMT
I shook my head again when he said that no, he was sorry and I shut my eyes lightly. "S'not your fault." I said softly, shaking my head again. I thought it'd be okay, now it just felt even worse, knowing that he was really here with me and I could touch him and everything, but it wasn't the same, not when he didn't remember me, not really.
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