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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 4:16:20 GMT
I shook my head faintly, "Sorry.. what did it sound like, exactly?" I asked, slighlty curious. Maybe whatever sickness I had was making me delusional.
I nodded a little bit. ".. Sorry."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 4:21:58 GMT
"Well, you sounded like you were trying to make the point that you're an awful person to date...." I shrug again, then shake my head. "Nothing to apologize for."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 4:25:26 GMT
I paused for a moment. "... I think I was at one point. So this really makes no sense.. but now that I think about it, I don't think I am." I shook my head faintly. ".. Besides the one thing with Charlotte.. and cheating on Riy those two times..." I nodded faintly. "And I think I might be sort of clingy sometimes.." I added as an after thought. And now I felt like I was rambling..
I nodded faintly. ".. Okay."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 4:31:02 GMT
I half-laugh slightly. "Well, at least you know your faults then...."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 4:37:07 GMT
I laughed faintly, "Sorry, I just rambled a bit." I said, smiling faintly.
I had also just now realized that everything I messed up in with relationships was because of Arden. I cheated on Riyann with her and I said her name. I don't know how I didn't realize it before. It was all connected to Arden.. except being clingy, of course.
"Guess so." I shrugged a little bit. ".. I'm not... blaming you or anything, but I just realized everything wrong I've done is somehow connected to you.."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 4:39:35 GMT
"Huh...." I laugh slightly, then bite my lip. "Thank you for the disclaimer... and I'm sorry anyway."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 4:44:59 GMT
I laughed faintly and waved off her apology. "S'not your fault." I smiled a bit. "It's mine.. specially with Charlotte." I added, giving a small nod.
"I don't think I'd change it though.. I'd be bored without you." I added a moment later. Though I would change the small thing with Charlotte.. I hope it didn't sound like the opposite.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 4:50:09 GMT
"Mm... all right then." I smile faintly. "... Would it be too... intrusive of me to ask what on Earth went on with Charlotte that you keep bringing up?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 4:53:55 GMT
I looked over to her, staying silent for a couple moments. This will teach me not to use cough medicine before leaving the house... "Um.. No, considering how much I've mentioned it... I just, don't know if you're going to want to know."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 4:58:05 GMT
"Doesn't really matter," I shrug, shaking my head. "It's none of my business, really... but I know I tend to to do that when I really want to say something but at the same time really don't."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 5:01:08 GMT
I bit my lip a little bit, giving a small nod. "Yeah, I know what you mean.." The only difference was this time I didn't want her to know.. and yet I for some reason, kept mentioning it. "I'm blaming the cough medicine today though." I chuckled.
"Um.." I paused again. "If I tell you, can you promise me you aren't going to.. freak out?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 5:08:47 GMT
"That works...." I laugh slightly, then hesitate. "You know, if it really is something that you think i'd freak out about... do you really want to tell me or something?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 5:14:38 GMT
"How much more awkward could it make it, right?" I asked in reply to her question. "I'm sick of trying not to say it.. I'm obviously horrible at it, so I should just tell you and get it out of the way." I shook my head slightly. "Maybe I'm so sick that I won't remember this when I wake up tomorrow."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 5:19:49 GMT
"Don't make me try and answer that question," I warn him, shaking my head again. "Look, if you want to say it, just say it. What in the world happened between you and Charlotte?"
I'm wondering if I'll regret asking this, but the curiosity is getting a little annoying.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 5:25:02 GMT
I rubbed my forehead slightly, feeling it ache a bit more now, and nodded when she warned not to make her answer that question. I could probably answer it myself, even in this condition.
The thing was that I didn't want to say it because it was very embarrassing.. and she didn't want anything to do with me in that way, so she shouldn't want to know I said her name during sex.
It'd been a few moments of me not saying anything and shifting my eyes off her for a few moments, said, ".. Me and her were getting.. intimate.. and I sort of, accidentally, said your name."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 5:30:54 GMT
... Well. That was clearly something that I didn't need to know.
I cough slightly after a moment, not really looking at him... because not only is that incredibly awkward information, I also really don't want any more proof that he thinks of me that way when I don't return the feeling. "... Well. I guess I can see why she'd believe somebody else that you were kissing me then."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 5:34:30 GMT
"Oh my God, I can't believe I just told you that." I said shaking my head, sounding slightly horrified I think after hearing what she's said. My cheeks were definitely turning pick and I think I felt a bit more sick than a few moments ago.
".. Yeah.." I said with a faint nod, deciding to keep my eyes off her for a few moments now."Makes sense.."
Now it'd be lovely if I could rewind and tell her it was too personal.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 5:36:54 GMT
I laugh slightly, trying to make light of this. "Well, I think I would've preferred not to know, in hindsight."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 5:39:21 GMT
"I think I could agree with you." I said with a small laugh, shaking my head slightly, still choosing not to look at her and noticing the embarrassment not really leaving.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 16:08:15 GMT
"This is incredibly... awkward, yes," I nod, coughing slightly again.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 16:58:02 GMT
"Right.." I nodded a little bit. "So if you could just.. forget the last five minutes.. that would be great." I said, glancing to her for a moment.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 17:22:01 GMT
"I'd love to... but I think I'll have to settle for trying to ignore them." I shrug slightly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 20:02:00 GMT
"Right.. so um.." I said started, biting my lip for a moment. ".. wow." I paused again, shaking my head with a small laugh. "Sorry, I told you that."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 20:16:09 GMT
"It's... fine. More or less." I shrug slightly. "I just... don't really like the thought of you thinking of me that way. And... also that's about the most insulting thing you can do to a person, so I now kind of sympathize with Charlotte."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 20:25:45 GMT
That was understandable. I really don't see how she could actually want me thinking of her that way. "I didn't do it on purpose. If that was the case it wouldn't've happened." I said shaking my head faintly. "And honestly, I don't even recall thinking about you.. that's why it was so weird." I paused again and shrugged. "Believe me, I apologized.. a lot."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 20:32:17 GMT
"Well, no, I guess it would've been an accident...." I twitch my shoulders uncomfortably, then shake my head. "Ah, on second thought let's stop talking about this."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 20:42:47 GMT
I nodded. "Believe me, it was an accident." I said, before letting out a small breath and pushing some hair from my face. "I really try not to think of you that way.. just so you know."
I nodded a bit. "I thought we were going to before."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 20:49:35 GMT
"Yes, so did I." I shake my head again, deciding not to reply to any of what he's said.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Mar 4, 2009 20:54:24 GMT
I wondered if I should have mentioned that had happened weeks ago, maybe over a month by now actually. But we'd just agreed to stop talking about it, so I guess the time it happened doesn't really matter. It still happened. I still blurted it out. And I still feel like an idiot... and a jerk.
Possibly more than a jerk, actually.
I nodded a little bit now, trying to think of another topic that we could talk about that wasn't this. But I couldn't think of anything.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Mar 4, 2009 21:01:49 GMT
Hm... awkward. And silent.
"So... what brings you here?" I say after a moment.
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