If only wishing worked;;{{Cassy

[Riley Pearson]

"No, it's okay.. I'm pretty much over it now.. just sort of upsets me a bit still." I said with a small shrug. I smiled a bit back to her and nodded faintly.
I paused again before looking back to her and starting to explain. "You know Riyann was a death eater, right?" I asked her, before pausing for another moment. "She um.. She told me, that she murdered my sister." I stopped letting out a small sigh. "She didn't though." I added a bit quickly after that. "But I didn't know she didn't until recently and I had already divorced her." I said quietly with a faint shrug.

[Dorcas Meadowes]

"If it still upsets you, then I'm sure you're not pretty much over it." I said rolling my eyes. "Listen Riley. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here for you."
As I listened to Riley speak, I couldn't help but feel just a bit horrified. Yes I knew Riyaan was a death eater, but how could she have done that, even if she really didn't? "Why would she say she did, if she really didn't?" I asked slightly confused. "I see what you mean Riley. This is bad, but not terrible." I said.

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged, "Well, I mean, I know Lil's alive.. and that she didn't do it, so I'm okay." I said turning my eyes toward her. "Thanks Cassy." I smiled. "Same goes for you."
"Because Riyann made her go into hiding because of the attacks.. and then she said that she killed her." I shrugged faintly. There really wasn't much more to it other than that. I nodded, "Yeah, all that really matters is that she's alive.. but I mean, I broke up our marriage.. put my kids through so much." I shook my head faintly, folding my arms infront of my chest.

[Dorcas Meadowes]

I couldn't help but feel proud about the way Riley was talking about this. If it was anyone else this had happened to, I was sure there would be a huge grudge. Not Riley though. "I guess in some ways then, Riyaan was doing your sister a favor." I said thinking out loud. If this was so, then I couldn't help but feel bad, because Riley and Riyaan broke up over such a stupid thing. "You're taking this remarkably well." I commented.

[Riley Pearson]

I nodded, "Yeah.. but I mean.. she could've told me that when I took off my wedding ring.. Or when I was.. freaking out infront of her." I shrugged and sighed slightly again.
I chuckled faintly at her comment and nodded, "Keep in mind that I've had a lot of time to not take it well." I shrugged faintly again. "More of just feel guilty about the whole thing." Not to mention, now that Riyann showed up at my door, I realised that I'm not completely mad at her, just sort of.. miss her.. and it's possible that I might still love her. And then there's Charlotte, my girlfriend.. type person.
Maybe I should just become a priest so I can stop having problems with women.

[Dorcas Meadowes]

"That probably would have been a smart idea." I said trying hard not to laugh. This whole thing confused me. Sure I've never been married, and I've never even had a serious boyfriend, but I knew enough to know tjat when you love someone enough that you marry him, you don't just lie to him, and let him divorce you. What was Riyaan thinking? "Why do you feel guilty?" I asked. "None of this is your fault."

[Riley Pearson]

I gave a faint smile for a second and shrugged. "Yeah, would've save me a lot of trouble."
I looked over to her again when she asked why I felt guilty and shrugged a little bit. "Because I said terrible things to her.. I dropped my ring on the floor when I broke up with her.. she didn't kill her and she was actually trying to help.." I shrugged a little bit. "I know it isn't, but parts make me feel like it is.."

[Dorcas Meadowes]

[Sorry it took me forever to respond. I've been waiting for an email from one of my teachers on an outline, and now that I've gotten it, I started writing my essay]

"I don't blame you Riley, so you shouldn't blame yourself. Anyone would have done the same thing in your situation. Some might have even done worse." I said. At the moment, I wasn't sure what could be worse, but that didn't matter. "What matters Riley, is how you feel now about Riyaan. If you want to, I'm sure you can work things out." I added with a smile.

[Riley Pearson]

[ oooh! that's alright! good luck on your essay! ]

I nodded faintly, trying to imagine what worse could be. Really, I guess I could imagine worse. I think I was too torn apart to even think about doing worse though. I can't even describe the feeling I got when I found out the woman who I was in love with killed my sister.. even if we were having some relationship issues before hand.
I looked over to her again with a faint half smile. "Probably could.. It's just complicated." I shrugged faintly.

[Dorcas Meadowes]

"How complicated could it be?" I asked with a shrug. "If you love each other, you make things work." I elaborated. Having never been in love, I very well be giving false advice, but I at least felt it was true. After a moment of hesitation, I asked, "You do love each other right?" I had assumed they did, because if Riley didn't still love her, what was the fuss about. Now it came to me, that maybe I was wrong.

[Riley Pearson]

"I sort of have a girlfriend." I said shrugging faintly looking over to her again, biting my lip for a split second. "And yeah.. I think I do love Riyann.. but I've given her so many chances.. and all she does is break my heart.. over and over again." I sigh, and ruffled some hair on the back of my head. "I'm wondering if I should stay with Charlotte, or go back to Riyann, which a few people would tell me is a big mistake." I knew though that I probably would go back with Riyann.. despite that I know I probably shouldn't.

[Dorcas Meadowes]

My eyes widened in shock at the mention of a new girlfriend. "Seriously? That's weird. I guess in the back of my mind, I always imagined you and Riyaan together for ever." I said.
I wondered what this new girl was like. "I wouldn't suggest taking advice from a girl who has like zero relationship experience, but I would have to say that I have no idea who Charlotte is. My advice to you is who ever makes you happy, because as long as you're happy, life can't be that bad."

[Riley Pearson]

I watched her expression and let out a small laugh and smile at it. "Yeah, well, me too.. actually if Riyann would've come back a few weeks earlier, Charlotte wouldn't be an issue." I said with slight shrug. I always imagined being with Riyann for the rest of my life.. but honestly, I think I was just a healthier person not being with her. Yes, I did love her. And yes, I more than likely would end up back with her again.. but that didn't cancel out the fact that I didn't want to hurt Charlotte.
I nodded faintly, "And I plan on taking that advice.. as soon as I figure out what that is." I said looking over to her with a small smile. "Probably try being with Riyann again though.."


[[ i'm gonna go take a shower, but i'll be back in a bit! :] ]]

[Dorcas Meadowes]

"You plan on taking my adivce? Don't say I didn't warn you." I said laughing. Even I knew that if I was a diffrent person, I wouldn't take advice from myself."Although I am a bit one sided on this issue, because I don't know Charlotte, but getting back together with Riyaan is probably for the best. You have a whole family with her. They must miss her." I said thinking about my kids as I said this.

[Riley Pearson]

I laughed a little and nodded, "I do." I smiled. "It was good advice.. Being happy is a good thing.. so I don't see why I wouldn't take it." I shrugged faintly.
I smiled and shrugged again, "She's like me, but a girl... and prettier." I said with a soft chuckle. "Yeah... maybe it is... They do." I nodded a bit. "We all miss her.. and this's gonna sound terrible.. I just, I don't wanna throw away a relationship that might have potential, for a relationship that.. just.." I shook my head a little bit. "I don't even know what I was going to say anymore."

[Dorcas Meadowes]

I grinned and said, "No need to lie. We all know my advice is never good."
I tried to come up with an image of this girl in my mind, and said jokingly, "Don't be so harsh on your self. You're not that ugly." I nodded as Riley spoke. It sounded to me that he was in a bad predicament. I laughed and said, "Don't let your sorrows infect your brain Riley. Being forgetful isn't a good thing."

[Riley Pearson]

I laughed a little and shook my head. "Don't be so hard on yourself. It was good." I smiled.
I smiled. "Well thank you then." I said with a small laugh at her comment. Really that was probably a funny image.. but I didn't have a picture of her.
I smiled faintly and shrugged. "I think I just don't want to say it.." I said a moment later. It was bad enough to think it... at least it felt like it was. I shouldn't still have issues with trusting her, but I did, and I didn't know I could trust that Riyann wouldn't cheat on me again.

[Dorcas Meadowes]

I rolled my eyes. People always had a hard time admitting the truth, myself included. "Let me guess. Do you not want to say it because if you do, it becomes more real, or is it because you're too scared to admit it?" I asked. Normally it was one of thoughs two. Maybe it wasn't any of my buissness asking that, but that wasn't going to stop me.

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged faintly after I heard her question. "I think it's both actually.." I said after a moment of thinking about it, looking over to her again. "That and I feel like I should be over this."

[Dorcas Meadowes]

I nodded in agreement, and asked, "How long ago did this happen anyways that you think you should be over it?" Each individual person took their own amount of time to get over something, and I understood that but there came a certain point where it just became ridiculous. At that point it just became pathetic that they weren't over it yet.

[Riley Pearson]

"A few times back at hogwarts.. and most recently was about nearly two years ago..." I said glancing to her for a moment or two. ".. With my cousin." Actually, that time, she actually left me and the kids and lived with Shelby. Did I take her back? Yes. Just like the other times.

[Dorcas Meadowes]

My eyes widened. If it was possibly, I would have chocked on air right then and there. "Cousin?" I asked stuttering. "Shelby really?" I asked. I had spoken to Shelby already upon my return home, and I knew her love life was messed up, but I would have never imagined this messed up.

[Riley Pearson]

I caught her eyes widen and I nodded when she repeated cousin and then again when she said Shelby. I guess there weren't many other cousins, so assuming it was Shelby wasn't a big jump. "Yeah, Shelby.." I repeated with a slight sigh. "You didn't know about it?"

[Dorcas Meadowes]

"No. I had no idea Shelby was the first person, I spoke to upon my return, but she didn't mention that. The only more recent updates in her love life that I know of are she remarried, but he died." I said wondering what else she had left out.

[Riley Pearson]

"I wouldn't think she would mention something like that." I said with a slight shake of my head. "It was a while ago.. and she stayed with Jay.. before.. you know." I said, not wanting to say Jay's death. Mainly just because he was one of few friends that I had left.. didn't really like saying it.

[Dorcas Meadowes]

"Yeah, I know." I said with a nod. Despite never really getting a chance to know Jay better, I understood how Riley felt. The lose of family was always hard on everyone. Being his cousin in law, Riley most likely was close to Jay. Deciding that there was a need for a happier subject, I asked, "So Riley, you work in St. Mungos now?" It had been so long since I left, that I couldn't remember if that was what he used to do.

[Riley Pearson]

Needless to say, I was grateful for the change of subject. I think I passed the limit of time about thinking about everything and if I said much more about it, I was just going to get depressed.
I smiled abit at her question. "Yeah.. at first it was just part time, but the ministry doesn't need me much lately, so I'll only go in if they call me.. so I've been picking up more hours here."

[Dorcas Meadowes]

"Sounds like fun." I said for lack of anything else to say or describe it. I never was a big fan of St. Mungos. I hated blood, needles, and most of all healers. It was all just so creepy. Now that I thought about it, it was a bit ironic seeing how I was constantly getting injured.

[Riley Pearson]

I laughed faintly. "I like it.. minus the lack of sleep I gere because of here lately though." I said as I smiled over to her. That was the the normal reaction.

[Dorcas Meadowes]

"Like it?" I said wringling my nose. "How can you like working there with all that blood and sickly stuff?" I asked makind a face of mock disgust. I agreed a hundred percent with what I said, but if Riley wanted to work there her could feel free. It was better him then me.