alone again [Bell]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] He asked himself opening the letter box. It was about ten at night and the kids should have in bed, well only Hayden and Grace-Lynn as they were the only kids left.

"Bella?" He whispered still pissed out of his mind. "Bella dear, it's alright it's me Jack!" He whispered through the letter box hoping she would hear.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] The funny noise the clock made in movies didn't really work in real life, Isabella had decided over an hour ago. 10:05. A sigh fell from the woman's lips as she glanced over the crib to check on the little ones. They had fallen asleep half an hour ago, but Grace-Lynn usually woke up around ten for a bottle. Bella decided to be ready just in case, so she opened the door silently and walked down the stairs.

Jack hadn't been home for dinner which worried her. He had his days where he was late, but never this late. Not unless something was wrong. She frowned at the thought of Jack somewhere hurt, no one there to help. The lamp in the living room came on when she stepped into the room. A minute later it clicked off as she passed into the kitchen. She opened the fridge and grabbed one of the already made bottles.

Bella ran a hand through her hair. A noise came from the door and she froze, midway to the stairs. When the noise whispered something else, she put the bottle on the coffee table and crossed her arms. "And give me one good reason why I should open this door, Jack Reco Clark." She asked in a hushed tone, through the slot in the door.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He thought not really knowing any more what they were? "Because i need to get in and sit down before i fall over that would be why...." A paused ross from his answer as he puched on the door a little more.

"Plessssssse?"[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] She thought as she chewed her lip. The last thing she needed was a cold going around the house. A faint smile crossed her lips as she thought of the last time Jack was sick. He always said he was fine then collapsed on to the bed, saying he felt even worse. 'Yeah, good times.' Her smile faded.

"Your drunk again aren't you?" Irritation and disappointment was clear in her voice. "Jack..." She started but trailed off, thinking a lecture wouldn't be best right now. Bella unlocked the door and opened it slowly. "Darling husband? Best friend?" She asked with a small laugh. The door closed with a loud thud when she shoved it closed. "Jack... I thought-" she chewed her lip thoughtfully, "an agreement about you drinking. We missed you at dinner." She crossed her arms and shifted her weight to one leg.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He giggled faintly. "So let me in and i shall tell you."[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Bella said in an irritated tone. She pulled him inside the house and shut the door. "It's freezing out there. So what's your excuse this time?"[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He shrugged once more taking off his jacket and hanging it up tripping a little before walking into the front room and laying on the sofa closing his eyes.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] "S- she did what?" Bella followed him to the couch. "You want some asprin or something?" The bottle was still laying the coffee table so she picked it up and carried it to the fridge. She sighed and grabbed the bottle of asprin. "What do you want to drink?"[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He said putting out his hand to take the bottle he was just gonna take the pills no drink needed. "I'm sorry about the hell i've put you through hun." He told her.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Bella paused, "I mean I love you too much to let you go through it alone..." She trailed off and shook her head. "I'm gonna just, stop talking."[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He asked her being a little confused after a while. "Bell. Hun. Did you just tell me you love me? I mean actually.." Trailing off he didn't really know what she was on about or what he was on about.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Bella ran a hand through her hair and sucked in a big breath of air. "And yes, I love you. I told you when I left I loved you, but you sort of ignored it." She said quietly.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He said taking in a large breath of air as well sitting up right on the sofa crouching over a little bit trying not to be sick.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She asked quietly. "Do you need a bucket just to make sure?" She hated seeing him like this.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He didn't want to say the next few words. "She doesn't know who's it is. And no thanks." Those were the words he hated to acknowledge. Knowing that the phrase, 'I told you so.' would come in some form.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She muttered to herself. 'Pregnant? "What do you mean? Who else could the baby belong to?" Bella sat on the couch next to him. "And I'm sorry."[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] Jack told her bitting his lower as she sat down next to him Jack looked up at, the girl woman he found him self to still be in love with. "Don't be sorry i should have seen it coming. God knows why i got a little tipsy in that bar, the first time. God know's why we had that stupid fight." He referred to himself out loud, to the night he and Bell had a fight to the night where he and Shelby first slept together. But of cause he would start to do this, it's what people who thought they were in love then have there hearts smashed, do? right?[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She tried to make her voice light, in a joking manner, but it had a hint of sadnes. At first, she had claimed Jack as her own; now, he was anything but. "Things happen for a reason." She tried to convince her own self that. "Well, maybe... Things will get better..."[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He told her taking in a few deep breaths before coughing a little making sure he wasn't sick. "Bella? Did you still love me when you were with Tri? Or? Is it just since me and shelby? Were fighting i guess you could say?"[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She gave a small shrug. When he asked his question she chewed her lip, staring at her hands for a moment before saying, "I- I did still love you. And sometimes that really held me back from Tri. But when I thought of you with her-" she took a deep breath, "I just thought you might love her more. Now that he's gone though, I'm thinking he didn't love me as much as I did him. But yes, I did still love you." She gave a small nod as if to complete her small speech, that got a little of subject.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He told her still looking down to the floor hard and straight. 'I wish you were still in my arms Bell, I wish i could tell you that.' Maybe this was only because of Shelby breaking it off with him? Or was it true?[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Bella stopped and sighed a shakey sigh. It was quiet for a minute. She pushed a few strands of hair behind her ear. "Remember when we had gone Christmas shopping? And we sort of... kissed? Did you mean that at all?" She asked quietly.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He remined her quitely, as the room filled with silence. Jack diodn't want to answer that question, it was the thing he most of all did want to do. 'Choose' He thought which broke his silence. "I um. Well to be honest. I-I." Jack didn't know how to say it? 'Shelby left you! So just tell her... Jack you are gonna have to do tell her one day.' His thoughts told him. "I think i'm still in love with you." He murmured slightly not beliving for a second that he had said it, when he was still in love with Shelby.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] More than she wanted to remember. The silence between them was akward. She shifted around in the couch. When he finally said something she stared at him. "B- but you love Shell..." She trailed off. He wasn't supposed to love her, she was the one that left. Jack was supposed to marry Shell, live happily ever after and Bella was supposed to... well she hadn't figured that part out yet. "But what if- and only what if- I actually said I sort of loved you back... What if?" She bit her lip.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He asked her then really wished he hadn't, he had only just broken up with Shelby but the feelings for both of them were mixed, large, and firey confusing his brian. Standing up Jack put one hand to his head closing his eyes before opening them and looking at the fire, in the fire place the box with the ring still inside.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Bella mutter with a small sigh. She watched him stand up and walk over to the fire. "You really shouldn't have done that, love." She laughed slightly.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He said to her chewing the inside of his cheek. Wrapping his arms around her stomach from behind Jack let out a sigh. "I don't know what i want. But all i want at the moment is you." He whispered into her ear kissing he softly.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] The last thing she wanted was another broken heart. When he wrapped his arms around her, she hesitated on whether she should pull away. 'He doesn't know what he wants?' Bella did want to be in his arms, but she wanted him for good. She stared at him, not kissing him back. "Jack, are you sure?"[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] Nodding to her Jack leaned in slowly and kissed Bella on the lips softly. Moving his body around so he was now standing in front of her his arms wrapped a little tighter around her waist. 'Jack what are you doing? You don't know if you actually want her or not! Don't screw up her heart don't mess every thing up again. Jack! Stop it!' His thought sscreamed at him, but he couldn't help it. Isabella was the only thing he wanted at this moment in time.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] She kissed him back just as softly.[/size][/ul]