Are There Any Tears? [Isabella]

[Jack Clark]

Before each one goes out...
Day Four.

[/i] bed for five days now. Not many people had come to visit him, only Tristian and Harley had. No body else knew, no body else would want to know. Laying still the only movements were his chest and brain. He knew that some where in his mind he had to contact some one! And that hopefully either Tristian or Isabella was looking after the kids. So she must know? Has Tri told her?

Jack was awake. To him he was awake, his mind now back in full action. But nothing else worked, nothing else seemed to every worked again! If Jack stayed sleeping, that was as much as he had worked out that he was sleeping, then he would miss his little girl's birthdays. If he stayed sleeping he would miss trying to fix anything that was left between him and the girl of his dreams. Which was a bit ironic as he was dreaming and the only things he could think of was his family. And if it would every have worked out with Shelby?

His job was now in trouble, what would happen to the family? All thoughts ran through his mind his legs arms etc, still lay still dead to the world. He was as good as dead any way, why shouldn't he just die then?

Breathing deeply Jack sighed, hearing the door open slowly his eye brows starting to move lightly.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] Bella glared at the door that led into her husbands, well ex husbands hospital room. Tristan said he had fell asleep in the tub and never woke up. Suicide was her automatic thought. Selfish, thats what he is. Though she couldn't talk. She had thought of the same thing a few weeks ago. Though they both had something to live for life just wasn't worth living without each other. She rolled her eyes, the last thing she would do was go back to him. Not right now.

"Just go see him Bella." Tristan said for the fifth time in the past hour. Bella shook her head. "No. I don't want to see him. I don't think I can take it." Tristan sighed. "Just go. He would appreaciate it. Your his wife." She gritted her teeth and glared at him. "Ex wife and fine."

Now here she was just looking as his door. Isabella groaned slightly and put her head in her hands. Why was she here again? I don't know. A nurse tapped her shoulder. "Ma'm are you waiting to go in?" Bella nodded and the nurse opened the door for her. The woman looked at her stomach. "How far along are you?" At first the question caught her off guard and she looked down before smiling and laying her hands on her stomach. "Soon to be four months." She muttered. The nurse nodded and found nothing else to talk about so she left the room.

Isabella sighed in relief and sat down in the only seat available. It hurt her to see him this way. Laying half dead in a hospital bed. She stared at him and noticed he was still wearing their wedding rings around his neck. She shook her head, her long black hair falling around her face. "Jack, Jack, Jack. What have you done this time?" She whispered, still staring at him.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/u] mind.

His thumb twiched slightly trying to worked out who's voice that was. Jack had only heard the voice's of Tri and Harley telling him every thing would be alright. Telling him that he would wake up, which confused him. So who was visting him this time? Where was he any way?

Sighing again, Jack tightened his eyes a little more. Because he just wanted to move some how.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b]

What should she say? "I don't know if you still care or not, but I'm fine. I haven't killed Shelby yet." She wanted to at least be able to lighten her own mood. She frowned just seeing him lie there and not being able to say a good come back.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] He thought wanting to just look at her. Looking around in his mind Jack frown slightly. It was like he was in the country side sitting on top of a hill under a tree, feeling the breeze on his face smiling into the sun set, like he had done with Bella on one of there first dates when they started going out.

And he could hear a voice from the clounds, like god. Placing his head into his hand's in his mind Jack wanted to cry. Whats happened to me? Why am I not dead? Or am I? He asked him self, his eye brows moving a little in the real world.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She gave a small nod as if he could see her. They had a conversation about what the baby would be, but she wouldn't mind a boy for a change.

Bella slipped her hand into his and instantly shivered. He was colder than usual. "Dillon says she misses you and says get well soon because she wants a present for her party." She forced a small laugh even though she had to bite her lip not to cry again.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] He thought his eyes starting to turn a little red in his thoughts. Where am I? He thought again, as hard as he could.

His eyes looked straight down to his hand feeling some thing. Bella. I miss you. I want you in my arms. I want Dillon in my arms and Ash to tell me she loves me, and Harley to answer me back. He thought, his finger in her had moved a little.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Another forced laugh escaped her lips. "Remember when the girls were babies? I was terrified I was going to drop them." She smiled at the memory. Her smile faded when she rembered what the doctors had told Tri. "Tristan says they don't know when you'll wake up. Hospitals never seemed to suit you."

Her eyes went wide when his finger moved a little in her hand. "Honestly Tri made me come here." She whispered.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] He smiled slightly to himself as there was know one else he could smile to or talk to for that matter. Jack nodded when Bella started talking about the girls, Yeah I know, but you never did because I was always there with you. And I really don't like hospital's. What? I'm He asked her. Shock running through him, how could I be here, why?

Hearing Bell's words Jack stood up in his mind, and shook his head. No. No. I've lost you to him, you really don't love me any more! You really don't care for me any more. What have I done... Jack's thoughts made his fingers move a little more out of bella's hand, well they moved as much as he could move them.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Her heart sunk and she glanced at the necklace again. "Your still wearing those rings I see." She let go of his hand to look at her ring. "Even though I know you love Shelby, I still think about you and I wonder if you ever think about me." Her lip trembled and she sat back in the chair.

"I didn't know that Tristan and Shelby were dating too." Bella shook her head. "You honestly don't need her. She's nothing." Her voice was getting more venemous so she stopped.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] He thought wanting to shout and scream and try to kill him self once again.

Jack in his mind shook his head a little. I told you and you didn't believe me did you! He thought. The divorce papers, that means your no longer my wife. Your no longer my own.. He took a deep breath in, bitting his lower lip hard.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She sighed and looked back up at him. I love you. Words ringing through her head, but she knew he wouldn't believe her if she said them. "If you want joint custody of the baby when she comes, I'm all for it." That was another problem now that they were divorced.

Bella wasn't about to give up her child so easily just because she had no way to support it. "You know that I still care for you right? You don't completely hate me do you?" Theres no reason why I should ask now. I won't hear a thought you think and you can't respond. "You pick now to try and leave me. I would once again like to point out that's very selfish of you."[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] hospital bed. Of cause I would tell you differently, It's not true. I can't live with out you Bella, but as I'm in the stupid bed probably dieing, I can't tell you that. Jack thought, pushing him self up against the tree in his mind trying to steady his breath once again. Love me yeah right.. Every since he layed in the bed Jack's breathing wasn't the best in the world every now and then it would miss a beat on the monitor, not that any one would take any notice.

Bella If I wasn't laying here right now, I would take the kids. And leave you with nothing, not because I don't love you because I so do love you. But because you really can't survive on your own with four kids. No sorry three, but I hope you will look after Harley. He thought his eyes twitching slightly, his breathing tube moving a little more from his now erratic breathing.

Jack shook his head in his mind. No I don't hate you, I still love you but you had to get my bloody slut of a cousin who put me in this bloody coma, your probably going to get with him make him break up with Shelby so you can have him all to your self. Then my kids won't say daddy to me any more they'll say it to him! He shouted, punching the grass in his mind.

What? You left me! I was the one who messed things up thats granted but you left me! How dare you say that! How dare you. Just leave He said in a hushed tone, knowing she couldn't hear him. His fingers starting to twitch a little again.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Her weird way of once again trying to make a joke. It wasn't working out though. Made more sense in my head.

"I talked to Dillon and she was worried that I didn't love them anymore. Ash doesn't want to see me. She thinks I've left her. I try to make everyone happy Jack, I really do." Like her joke, it just never worked out. Not everyone could be happy. She tried to imagine his voice whenever she talked as if he was actually there, trying to talk some sense into her.

"If the kids don't hate me anymore than you do, I'll try to see them more often, but leave them with Liane for right now." It was the best thing to do right now, to her anyway. Bella thought of random topics and decided to stick with talking about the kids. "Tri says that Harley see's you a lot so you know he's okay. You know that I'll try to see him too. Harley's still my son no matter what."

Another sigh escaped her lips and she was quiet. The sound of nurses and doctors talking amongst each other and the sound of his monitors was all she heard. "I'm sorry if I'm making you mad." Bella stared at his heart monitor. "It's sort of difficult talking to you like this. I knew I shouldn't have come." She muttered and looked at her hands. "I'm pretty sure that by now you don't want me here anymore." Honestly, she didn't blame him.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] He asked her. Then sighed quickly remembering she couldn't hear him. His breath shutted a little when he looked back up to the sky. I'm not gonna wake up stupid. As your no longer my wife you can't do it but, I heard the doctors say that If I don't wake in ten days Tristian has to make a decition to either pull the plug or leave me for a month. And as he was the one who put me in this dam bed..

Jack bit his lower lip again and wrapped his arms around himself. Wanting to just hug her again, not that his mind couldn't make her up but he knew she wouldn't be real that she wouldn't feel him nor would he for her. I don't know why they do. It was me who messed ever thing up. He said in a hushed tone.

Jack shook his head a little. They should be in your arms no at your mothers, and Ash will get over it she just thought you left her as you ran out on me and them for Tristian. Always comes back to him..... He muttered. His fist showing now his rage increasing. You don't even know the half about Tri, so will you please just leave. And fuck him or what ever.. Go destroy your life like hes done to all of my ex's or presents. Jack told her, knowing that she didn't have a clue what Tri was about.

Jack sighed looking back to the dky. I do want you here Bell, It's hard when you talk as if every things alright. And when you talk about Tri like hes your knew man another sigh falling form his lips. Jack's fingers moving a little on the white sheets of the bed, a little closer to Bell. If she had noticed them.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] It annoyed her when he told her she was lying. He was the one who broke my heart so why is he denying my love? Anger made her clench her fist and bite her lip.

"I know your going to make it through this. Don't even say your not. Everyone's worried about you, you know. If you ever try any of this again I will personally bring you back alive and kill you myself again. I can't believe you would leave your family like this. So I'm not your wife anymore, you have children to worry about and their more important than me. I don't even understand why you tried this." All her anger came out at once and she gritted her teeth. Now she felt better.

"You remember when I told you that without you there was no me? That still applies so you better take care of yourself." Bella gave a fierce nod. "I know Tristan has talked to you plenty of times too and I'm pretty sure he's told you that I'm staying with him for a while." She said quietly. "We're not doing anything just in case your wondering. I didn't want to do anything with anybody until the divorce was final.

When his fingers moved again she grabbed his hand. Isabella scooted the chair closer to the bed and rested her cheek on the back of his hand. "Get better, Jack, please?"[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] He thought, knowing that she didn't really love him any more but it was nice for her to say it to him. It made him feel wanted once again.

Jack shook his head a small tear ripping down his cheek. It wasn't me. It was Tri, he tryed to drown me in the bath when he was round so he could be with you. But you wouldn't believe me even If I could tell you. He thought looking back up to the sky another small tear ripping down his other cheek. I know I have kids. I love them to deaht and I will wake up and when I do I'm taking them all on a trip far far away from every thing. He promised.

Jack started to smile a little leaning his head right agsint the trunk now. But at her next few words Jack's face turned up side down. No. No, please. You can't! Well it is finall now I'm as good as dead so you can do stuff. I just, The thoughts ran around his mind seeing her and tri doing things. Shaking his head he whispered. Just leave me to drown in my sorrow please.

Feeling her touch Jack loked down in his mind at it. And punched the grass with it. His fingers moving a little way from hers in the real world. The monitor keeping track of a beat lost. Then another. Then another.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Her voice became weak. The tears that built up finally spilled over and she gripped his hand tighter. "Fight for me, for the kids. You can't go so soon."[/ul][/size]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] He thought letting his heart beat slower and slower fading soft a little more. Jack didn't realize that he could do that, make him self die, but the only thing he couldn't do was make himself live. It would take some thing big for him to be able to do that.

Fight for you? Why in the hell would I do that? Your leaving me for my cousin a man that has destroyed every one of my relasonships. So If I told you every thing I knew about him, you would either hate me or just say that I'm lieing to get you back. So. Whats the point in living? He said in his mind out loud, standing up and starting to pass along the bridge of the hill top.

Jack's hand losing more of it's feel it not wanting to try and move nor grip any thing. Another beat being lost slowly.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Her bottom lip quivered and she started towards the door. "Someone help him!" Her voice echoed off the halls and nurses and doctors turned to look at her. Bella looked back over to Jack before being pushed aside by the doctors. Would they honestly try to revive him in a coma?

Isabella lifted herself off the floor and walked closer to him. If he did die she would be the first to know, the first to feel more of her heart gone.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] He thought a small smile. His heart beat slowly starting to turn normal. Right before the doctors and nurses were about to do some thing to him. Shaking his head in his mind Jack bit the inside of his cheek. I've lost the love of my love, but I still have my kids! He thought shaking his head a little kncoking it onto the tree.

Jack's eyes blinking a lot, but his eyes were still closed.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] "I'm sure they would be proud to know their father pulled through." She smiled, sitting back in her chair. "Not even Tristan can replace their dad and no one does the job better."[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] He smirk with a slight laugh. And Tri isn't going to replace me, no matter what! He told her, well in his mind any way.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] Bella sighed and ran a hand through her hair. Her blue grey eyes traveled around the room, finding a clock. Nine thirty. Tristan wouldn't care if she spent more time with Jack. After all, he was the one who told her she needed to come and see him. A yawn escaped her lips. "Your not going to quit on us are you? I know your going to pull through this." She leaned further back into her chair, trying to get comfortable. Her black hair fell around her face as she pressed her cheek against the soft fabric of the chair.

The night before she didn't get any sleep and this morning she was up early. Another yawn escaped her lips. She was going to say something else, but her eyes had already closed and she was dreaming she was holding her brand new baby boy. His soft pink lips were turned in a small smile against his pale skin and his hair, what little he had, was a dark brown. He was her baby and thats all she needed in this world.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He told her playing with baby Graces little fingers as she slept her pink soft eyes held tightly closed. And the pink planet wrapped around her tightly with her knitted pink hat on as well. HIs legs crossed her laying in them Jack smiled out agaisnt the sun set.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] Bella was so caught up in her surroundings she didn't notice the people in her dream. His voice, just his voice made something spark. He wasn't just lying in the bed anymore, helpless. Of course it was wonderful to see him again. "Jack?" She asked with slight confusion, a smile creeping on her to her face.

Bella walked slowly over to him. A sudden thought made her stop a few feet away. Did she want to get close? He might be mad at her. He didn't seem like it. She stared at him, looking at the baby in his arms. What happened to the baby she was just holding? Her eyes scanned the area of children in front of them and found the baby all grown up. 'Hayden.'

The aura of joy around the place made everyone smile so why shouldn't she be happy for a change? Bella sat beside him, careful not to get too close.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He smirked slightly, watching Ryaden and Dillon rolling down the hill together. Jack laughing as they fell into some mud, but as it was a dream world the weren't hurt nor dirty.

"Why did you come here?" He asked her not wanting any thing else to do with her. But not wanting to talk to her either. She wouldn't believe him any way. why would she? She loves Tristian now. "Why did you have to come see me? Why don't you go running back to you darling Tristian?" He asked with a bitter tone.

A deep breath taken in he refused to look at her. Just back down to Grace.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] So maybe that was a slight lie, but now she did want to see him so it wasn't so much of a lie! "I was worried about you. Tristan told me what happened and that you had tried to commit suicide." She grinded her teeth together, glaring towards a tree. "Is that so hard to believe that I still care for you?" His next words made her blood boil. "What about your darling Shelby? Why don't you go running back to her? Oh thats right, you can't. Because you tried to commit suicide!"

Bella scooted away from him and continued to glare at the trees. "Your an annoying twat you know that?"[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] Still not believeing that she did come by her own will.

A soft chuckle escaped his lips when she spoke of Tristian. "Thats a good one." He muttered. "But theres just one thing wrong with you story. I didn't try to commit suicicde. Tristian tryed to drown me!" The last part of his sentance made him become a little more deep toned with his words. "But of cause you wouldn't believe any thing bad about your little Tri now would you?" He asked turning back to her glowing face, it always glowed and he loved it so.

"Me and Shelby? What? How can I do anything I've been stuck in this bed. And I've only now found out that I can get into poeples dreams." He turning his head slowly away.

"Thank you, I know I am."[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] She shook her head and turned her head to give him a dirty look. 'If only looks could kill...' "How do you expect me to believe a lie like that? You really aren't my old Jackie anymore." She shook her head and looked back at the kids.

"You mean she hasn't visited you yet? I'm shocked." Bella muttered under her breath. Now she was really mad at him. some dream this was. "Who's baby?" She asked quietly, nodding towards the baby in his arms.[/size][/ul]