Stupid Tears;;Shelby

[Riyann Servansikk]

[/i][/b] Though I do want to stay, I just want this to never have happened, or maybe to go back ten years and make it so I never drank that potion Shelby gave me. Riley could have his chance with Arden and I wouldn't have ever gotten rid of Sydney, of course there would be no Sydney.
You can still kill yourself and make that happen again, though I suggest you wait until after the kids are born. Give him the chance he doesn't deserve.
Suicide then? Few months to wait.

"Not now. He doesn't deserve it." I whispered softly, shutting my eyes lightly to the desk, trying to decide what I was going to do with everything.[/size][/ul]

[[Uhm, couldn't think.. so rambly much? I think... haha]]

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell was walking down the hall, looking for Riyann, now with some scars on the insides of her arms. She hadn't seen Riyann since the incident in the hospital and wanted to clear the air with her and apologize for what she had done at the house. After all, if you think about it, it was her fault in a way, shoving the photo that she didn't want anymore because of some childish actions of moving away to try and forget about her.

Walking into Riyann's classroom she notices she was in class, but there was no professor, no Riyann. Looking at the desks she noticed that they had some kind of essay to do. Letting out a deep sigh she walks over to Riyann's office and knocks before walking in. "Professor Pearson? Are you in here?" she asks softly before realizing the tears on the desk. It honestly broke her heart everytime she seen her crying. That was another reason why she wanted her to be happy and why she left so she could be happier with Riley.

Shell frowns walking over to behind her desk and gently putting a hand on her back, slowly moving it up and down to comfort her. "Sweetie, what's wrong?" she asks in a whisper, her teeth biting into her lower lip as a way to prepare for the answer that Shell was hoping was either a false rumor or a terrible mistake.

[[it's okay. ^^ I like the art of rambling. XD]]

[Riyann Servansikk]

[[Haha, sweet..]]

[Shelby Crescent]

Frowning even more, she sighs a bit shaking her head. "No you don't. What happened?" she asks softly, somewhat regretting it now. Shell knew something bad had to of happen if she said she hated Riley. After all, she said she loved him more than her. Maybe now she hated the both of them.

Shell bites her lip again, before deciding to lock the door in case if a student walked in. She didn't want them to see Riyann like this, and she was pretty sure that Riyann didn't want to be bothered by the first years and their essay questions. If anything, Shell would go answer them if they by any chance did knock on the doors.

[Riyann Servansikk]

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell frowns a bit more, while still biting her lip. When she noticed Riyann's locking with hers, her heart dropped fast knowing some of what may have happened and it wasn't the right time to ask if her assumptions were right.

Walking back to the desk she kneels down and hugs her, kissing her tear stained cheek lightly before leaning her head into her shoulder. "It's gonna be okay sweetie. I know it is. I know that he loves you more than anything. Believe me." she whispers into her ear. As much as Shell wanted herself to convince her otherwise of that, somehow to get Riyann back with her she rather her still be with the man that made her happy, but right now it that would seem impossible to do. "Is there anything I could do for you? Just name it and I'll do it."

[Riyann Servansikk]

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell leans back a bit, wiping her tears away hating to see her cheeks even tainted with them right now. "I can do that. After all, he doesn't like me. I would even bet that he hates me." she says softly before frowning a bit at her smile. Normally, she would had smiled back, but Shell knew that smile way too well and wore it way too often herself in the past and to her dismay right now as well. "He doesn't love her. I just know it. There's no reason not to love you Riyann. Trust me on that." she whispers giving her the same smile now before looking into her eyes. "Are you sure you don't want me to do something for you? Maybe some nasty food that you're craving or Ralph the animal cracker lion?"

[Riyann Servansikk]

[/i] "He has to." I whispered, shaking my head and then feeling horrible when she said there was no reason not to love me and I had to trust her on that, because she loved me too. "I'm sorry." I whispered, giving her that same small, weak smile filled with a small bit of sorrow and the rest of it filled with nothing. "I'm not hungry." I said, shaking my head a little. Haven't been since I saw them.[/ul]

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell sighs some, brushing back some of Riyann's hair. "I don't think that matter Riy. We never really got along, even as kids. And after what I've done to him, I think he'd rather never see me again." she whispers, giving the same faint smile back to her again. "No, he can be confused. We both know emotions and thoughts can throw us for a loop. I can't see him in love with her or having to love you." she says after a while.

Shell looks up at her again, shaking her head. "Don't be sorry. You've done nothing wrong this time. He's the one that should be apologizing to you, not you to me." she says hugging her again. "Have you had anything to eat though? Remember the baby, he or she has done nothing wrong as well." she whispers before looking at her slightly. "Do you need somewhere to stay for a while? You could stay at my house or the Vassler house if you want."

[[gah, I fell asleep... XD Sorry!]]

[Riyann Servansikk]

[/i] It was true, I hadn't, and I nodded faintly again, hugging her back. "N-no." I whispered, biting my lip a little as I looked at her. "It's more than one." I whispered, feeling the couple of tears fall. And I can't tell him anymore, can't even face him. "No, thanks. I'm, I'm still staying at home. For the kids." I added the last part for an explanation, nodding slightly.[/ul]

[[tis okay.. but I've g2g.. night]]

[Shelby Crescent]

"I'm sure he hates me more than you think Riyann." she says softly, biting her lip. She really didn't care that Riley hated her or if they would ever be friends again. The more and more she thought about it why was she sticking up for Riley when he just broke the heart of someone she loved? "You don't know that for sure Riyann. Arden in my book always seems distant and too serious all the time. Sure she's a loyal friend to some, but that all she has really that's a good quality unless I don't see something that everyone else does." she says remembering that Riyann and her were somewhat friends before this.

Shell leans back and looks at her slightly shocked. "Twins or is it more?" she asks giving her a faint real smile. "I'm sorry that multiple births run on both sides of our family and yours as well." she says, brushing her hair back more behind her ears. Shell nods a bit. "I understand. You don't want to take the girls away from Riley even after what he did to you, right?" she asks again, knowing she was asking a lot of questions, but it would be better for Riyann to talk about it instead of bottling it up.

[Riyann Servansikk]

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell shrugs and lcontinues to look at her. "I really don't care though if he likes me or not. But it doesn't matter Riyann." she says honestly before closing her eyes at her next statement. Riley never had to see them kiss or anything past that. It had to hurt a lot more though, or at least she thought it would. Shell opens her eyes again and wipes away her tears as she let out a sigh, unsure what to say now.

"Three? Are you sure?" she asks, biting her lip slightly. "Maybe you can have joint custody. You have them for a week and then he can have them for a week. Then you decide on the holidays and then just switch them each year. That's what Jay and I were going to do..." she says softly before looking at her closing her eyes again. Shell wasn't sure what else to say. It couldn't be helping her in anyway, or at least that's how she felt. Before she knew it she kissed her lips lightly before hugging her. "I just know everything will work out okay?"

[Riyann Servansikk]

[/i]
Walking in on them possibly hurt more than I thought it could have, and I watched as Shelby closed her eyes when I said that and I just watched her, feeling another tear or two slip down my cheek before she opened her eyes and wiped my tears away.

I nodded alittle at her question and shook my head slightly when she suggested joint custody and said how it could work. It could work, the only problem was I didn't want to do that to the kids, not only going to be twins, and I still loved him, even through this. "I don't want to do that to the kids." I whispered, wondering why I was hiding that I loved him. "I still love him." I whispered even quieter. When she had said it was what Jay and she were going to do, I bit my lip a little at that. If he was still here, would I only be second best? I couldn't help but think it, I shouldn't have because we weren't, there wasn't anymore us. I shut my eyes lightly before she kissed me lightly, I wasn't sure what I was going to do, kiss her back or not, but there wasn't even enough time to give me to react. Which was probably for the better. I hugged her back and nodded slightly, not sure if I believed it or not.[/ul]

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell just frowns a bit and sighs, thinking to Riley's and hers meeting in the classroom. It wasn't that great of reunion she had to admit but she wasn't going to mention what he did to her and what she did in return, or at least not yet. Shell hugs her a little tighter before burying her head into the crook of her neck, before kissing it lightly like she used to for a few seconds but stops herself, pulling away figuring that Riyann probably didn't want her to do that ever again.

Shell sighs a bit, nodding to her statement of not wanting to do that to the kids. Shell didn't either. She was actually trying to fight to keep their marriage apart but he wanted away from her to be with Andra. She hated to admit it, but sometimes she was glad he drove off that bridge and into a lake. Hearing her say that she still loved Riley she felt her heart drop some. "Even after everything?" she manages to squeak out and failing to hide her true emotions about the subject.

Shell frowns a bit just staring up at her when she heard her loud thought. "Riyann, you were never second best." she whispers, leaning back some and giving her a smile. "I told you that I loved you more than anything and I still do." she whispers and without thinking about it, kisses her again on the lips this time wondering what would happen.

[Riyann Servansikk]

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"W-what?" I asked, not really believing she said that because I was practically positive that I hadn't said that out loud. It almost made me feel a little worse, because I didn't know that about her. I told you that I loved you more than anything and I still do. The words echoed through my thoughts and I was about to say sorry or something before I felt her lips against mine. Part of me wanted to kiss her because it was Shelby, part of me wanted to kiss her to get back at Riley and pray that he walked in, and part of me wanted to pull away because I was still heart broken. I'd barely kissed her back before pulling away, looking down at the ground as I did, feeling horrible now.[/ul]

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell nods, instantly dropping her eyes down to the floor between them, feeling her heart crack a thick line through it but it didn't shatter which was the worse feeling you could have. On the verge of breaking but still having hope that the person you love will have you back.

"Wh-why? After what he did... you still prefer him over me." she says stopping herself. Shell knew being selfish right now wasn't going to help anything. Knowing that saying that they could just turn around and kiss again or for all they knew Riley was in love with her. After all, he never said that he did or didn't when she confronted him about that question.

Shell sighs a little, biting her lip before looking up at her. "H-he. He punched me in the jaw Riyann." she whispers slowly. "I know I slapped him but he still punched me in the jaw hard enough that it was bleeding. Pinned against the wall and everything." she says with a sigh after Riyann barely pecked her lips back and standing up to sit in a chair, just putting her head into her hands silently.

[Riyann Servansikk]

[/i] "I-I can't help l-loving him." I whispered under my breath, feeling a tear or so fall down my cheeks again.

"Wh-what?" I asked, really not believing that I was hearing this. She spoke up again, explaining that she slapped him, but he held her against a wall and punched her. I shook my head a little, not wanting to believe Riley would do that. I never thought he could do that to anyone, and he knew that I loved her, maybe not as much as I had thought before, but he knew I still did, yet he punches her?[/ul]

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell just laughs slightly, glancing up at her. "Yes you're loving husband the sweetheart that he is punched me in the face." she mutters, rubbing where he punched her. It had to be bruised on the inside seeing as it bled for a while. "I told you that he hates me. Probably would be jumping up and down if I died right now." she adds, shaking her head at her.

"Yet, you still love him. After everything." she says standing up and walking to the door, resting her hand on it. "I still have a husband too you know. But I still love you more than him. Riley's such a charmer you know. Maybe that's why you love him. Said that Draven probably got up and left me seeing as he's been gone for a month." she says laughing again before turning around.

"But you love him." she says with tears in her eyes sliding down the door and laying her head into her knees, not caring if she was being selfish or like a child right now but she had finally cracked and couldn't do this anymore.

[Riyann Servansikk]

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell shakes her head, just staring at her. "I bet you 50 galleons on that." she mutters, that positive about her statement. Riley and her never got along as kids and only tolerated each other when they got older but now with everything unraveling... she knew that she wouldn't care if he died honestly. It was only right for him to feel the same.

Shell just keeps her head in her lap, feeling the caps of her knees getting soaked from her tears. "I-I'm the one that's always s-second best Riyann. N-not you." she mumbles, biting her lip to keep the sobs inside and not echo through the classroom although by now the class had to be over.

[Riyann Servansikk]

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell laughs again, glancing up slightly when she felt Riyann's arms around her. "I was with Logan, Chris, Nick, Jay, Ian, Kyra, Draven, Jack, Briar, you..." she says biting her lip again before looking down at her knees again. "That's all I am. The second rate whore that everyone loves for a temporary term and then gets shoved away." she says scooting away from Riyann.

"I don't need your sympathy. We both know it's true, just like you know you don't love me." she says shooting a glare towards her. "Just go on, be miserable with a man that could love Arden more. I won't be here if it falls out that way. Not that time. I won't settle being second best knowing that if Riley doesn't love her and stays with you that you wouldn't have gone off with me." she says tempted to yell by now, but she knew it would make her temper rise making Rubalyn take over and she didn't need that right now.

[Riyann Servansikk]

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell sighs, just looking down at the floor blinking away the tears that were still falling from her face. "No, I pour my heart into things only for it can get broken and shattered in the process." she murmurs, just staring at the ground still but the volume of her voice was increasing rapidly.

"No you don't! You would be with me not that bastard!" she yells turning to face her, as her eyes narrowed. They almost appeared to be black now. "I hate you. Never can make the right decisions. Except, you made a wise choice in kicking me out." she says with a smirk. It was clear that Shell left the building or at least state of mind. "Broken Shell's heart again I see Riyann. You know that's not very wise seeing her other mind is somewhat sick and twisted." she says laughing a bit as she crawled back to where Riyann was sitting.

[Riyann Servansikk]

[Shelby Crescent]

Ruby just stared at her with a smirk before standing up and walking over to the window of the office. She placed a hand through her curls and made a face when she noticed the teaching robes taking them off and setting them on a chair.

"So, you just insist that her heart has broken on its own like usual? And why is she even here? She said that she was never going to see you again. Fickle she is. There must be a reason why and important too. Care to explain to me?" she asks walking back to the desk and leaning against it with her arms acrossed over her pale blue t-shirt and capris.

[Riyann Servansikk]

[Shelby Crescent]

Ruby shrugs just looking at her, shaking her head. "I meant why would she come? What's wrong with your life that she would come back to see you?" she asks raising an eyebrow at Riyann. She sighs a bit before sitting back down next to her and frowns a bit. "Well?"