beautiful peace;

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] A sob shook her small frame. When he reached towards her she moved back some more. "You shouldn't be getting drunk off your ass anyway! Don't you have a family?"

"Oh really? Don't you remember what we did ten years ago? What I did for you? Ryan looked pretty pissed to me. There's no telling what he'd say to me. He-" She stopped when he said Ryan was gone and another sob shook her body.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He trailed of another small tear appearing, Jack crossing his legs pushing himself up against the head bored. "I don't get drunk. I only had about two drinks and Shelby found me there, I just went for a scotch." He told her bitting his lower lip gently.

Jack nodded. "I know don't you think I know that. It's been ten years, ten years that I have been faith full to you. And you know what my reputation was, but after ten years I have only had a couple of slips and I'm sorry" He told her in almost a shout. Wrapping his arms around himself, placing his head between them. "Tristian was there when he died, he told me a few days ago. I should have been there when he died I should have told him it was all alright." Jack cryed quietly.[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] More tears started to flow from her eyes and she held back another sob that knotted in her throat. "Figures, she can't keep a guy. So you just decided to sleep with the girl that I hate most?" Hate was a strong word, after all they had made some sort of truce a few years back, but now all that was forgotten. "I don't give a damn what you drank! You should have been here!" She shouted. God she hated seeing him cry but it only made her feel even worse and heartbroken. The sob that she had tried to hold back now shook her body.

"Just a couple? Who else have you slept with behind my back?" Isabella stared at him, trying to calm down and trying to think of where they were supposed to go from here. "Tristan?" She whispered to herself. That's who she would go see. She wanted to comfort him with the situation with Ryan, but she couldn't force herself over there and she didn't want to be held by the same arms that had touched the woman who killed her baby. Bella stayed silent for a minute and rocked gently as if it would help calm her down. It was true that she had taken a risk and given him all of her. That was no excuse though...

"You said she thought she was pregnant? She could have had your baby?" Bella looked down at her stomach and and warpped her hands around her waist. "I really can't believe you, Jack." She shook her head and crawled off their bed. The kids were at her mum's so she was fine for a while. "Tell me, did you ever love her? Love her like you love- loved me?" She wrapped her arms tighter around her waist.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] Jack told her, his finger tips pushing his newly dyed black and red hair from his now reddened face. "It didn't happen like that." He told her in almost a shout, no way did he do it because she hated Shell it just sort of happened. Shouting back at Bell he shouted, "I didn't to it every night only twice, every other time I'm late home it was because of work.."

Looking at Bell with a frown he said, "No one." His head looking back into his lay. "What?" He asked her, hearing some sort of mutter come from her lips.

Looking back at Bell another tear falling down his other cheek. "She wasn't and she was to late for it to have been my baby it would have been Dravens.." He trailed off taking another deep breath still watching her hold her arms around her self. "I can't believe my self.." He cryed standing up trying to walk a little closer to her. A larger frown falling onto his fore head, "Yes i loved her but I loved her as a friend thats it. The love I do and will always have for you is nothing like what I ever had with her.."[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] Bella was tired of glaring at him now and her throat was sore from holding back the sobs. "Oh really? Then how did it happen? Why did it happen? She's a slut Jack! Slut. She probably decided to manipulate you just so she could find someone to sleep with since I'm sure Draven left her."

Bella shook her head and stood their looking at the floor. "Nothing. I just ca- can't believe he's gone. That he would just-" Her lower lip trembled. Get a grip, Parker. "How did he..." She didn't want to finish to say the word that would probably send her into a waterfall of tears.

"She still shouldn't even of had doubts. I'm having your baby, not her. It needs to stay that way." Isabella stood there and looked at the floor, not even noticing he was coming towards her; not even caring. "Friends to sleep with friends. If you loved me so much then why are you telling me this? We should be packing to leave. Packing to-" More tears started to stream down her face and she fell to the floor. She tried to hold back some of the tears and wiped her face off. You are so over dramatic. You should just leave right now.[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/i] you when you know full well that I do love you. The reason is that I told you, I could of lied and not of told you, but because I hate what I have done I chose to tell you because I am great fully sorry!"[/b] He said, the last part in almost shout's. His eyes just red and puffy but not crying any more. His legs walking closer to her. "I don't know how it happened It just did. And you knew I was a man whore Bell, you knew I had a reputation, that I have my slips now and again. I haven't cheated on you in ten years. Ten. And now that I have I can't believe that I have! Yeah and she probably did!"

A tear falling down his cheek Jack watched her face. "I think he was run off... Or some thing... I didn't quite want to here the rest." He told her another tear falling quickly another one following it. One hand brushing up, to wipe his nose that was now running as well. I should have been there with Ryan the night that he died, but I was working. Stupid work, I just... His chest taking deeper breaths to try and stop the tears from running abruptly down his cheeks.

Jack nodded at her words. "I know Bell, I wouldn't want It any other way.." He told her truth fully. His arms crossed trying to calm his his chest down softly, Stop crying you idiot just stop it.. Jack watched her face with disgust. "I know, we should be leaving right now I still want to go with you but- But I'm telling you this because how ever much I want to go there with you, I couldn't contain myself any longer. I needed to tell you, to try and fix are married to try and keep us stronger together so that, you wouldn't leave me because of the terrible things I've done." Jack told her watching her full to the floor, Jack fell to her knees, kneeling in front of her putting his hands out to touch her but not quite going all of the way. He didn't want to push her further away then he had already done.

"Bella please."[/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/i] me we wouldn't be having this conversation right now!"[/b] She shouted back. "Stop saying your sorry. Your not. This is stupid, Jack!" She had noticed him looking at his arms. "Why did you do that? When did you do that? You know how I hate when you do that sort of thing. Have you really changed back to your old ways?" What she wanted was to take his arms and find some sort of spell to heal them like Madame Pomfry had done her old scar's when Ryan had left her. She wanted to jump in his arms and kiss every inch of his face and tell him it didn't matter, that they would get through this. But they couldn't. She couldn't. Was this what Ryan had felt like? "I don't see the future Jack. I trusted you enough not to hurt me. But I guess I was blind. Blind by love. You might not know what that word means though. If you knew that she was just using you then why did you sleep with her? I'm not a good enough wife for you?"

Her heart skipped a few beats and her breath became shorter. She didn't blame him for not wanting to hear the rest, but she wanted- no, had to hear how he... died. Why did she still have feelings for Ryan? She didn't even know she had any for him until now.

Bella didn't either, but it seemed like her choice didn't matter as much. Figures that Shelby would come and take something else she loved. She should have never trusted the woman. Whore. But wasn't Bella the same thing? She had cheated on Ryan with Jack. That didn't count though! Did it? They weren't married like they are now... "I don't want to go anymore. I don't even think I should be here. It seems that you both are willing to risk your marriage to stay together so why stop now? You probably even screwed her here at our own house and you didn't even care. You both have children. Children who will also know that their dad is away on a teacher's conference and don't know when he'll be back. I'll lie for you, but I don't know what I'll tell them after the lie gets old."

Was she really willing to lie to her children just to get away from him for a while? Bella pushed away his hands and stared at him for a moment. "You and Shelby have a lot in common. Maybe you two are good for each other. Whatever you have planned just leave me out. I think we might need some time a- apart. I don't think I'm quite ready to forgive you. Maybe I won't ever forgive you, who knows? The kids will probably be at Liane's and I might go stay with a friend for a while. You and Shelby might actually make a good couple. If you can ever find a good enough excuse as to why you slept with Shelby, let me know."

Bella didn't quite know where to go. Tri might not even want to see her. A few tear's escaped from her, now red, blue eyes and she looked at her hand. No they weren't getting a divorce really, just a break. It might be good for them. She took her wedding ring he gave her and pulled out his hand. It was hot and his skin was always soft. She pressed the small ring into his palm and closed his fingers around it. She looked back up at him and pressed her lips to his for a fraction of a second before pulling away. Bella tried to stand up, using the bed for support because her legs seemed to be asleep.

{{sorry its soo long, i got carried away xD ;D}}[/size][/ul]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He told her his breath short and clammy with stick breath. Looking back at his arms Jack rolled up his blue checked shirt shelfs up to his elbows staring at his cuts. "Why? For the same reason you did after Rayden died. The fact that you ever let that women near you. When? A few days ago, when I was working late, came home you were already asleep so you didn't notice. And Ruby tryed changing me back to my old ways, said you had joined her but I didn't believe her. This mouth has just been so hard.." He trailed off a little shaking his head, his finger wiping his eyes and nose again. A tear crashing down when she said she couldn't see the future, "I can't lose you Bella, I just can't, thats what love is, when you know you can't live with out the other person. And I know I can't live with out you..." He said quietly taking a calm breath in. "Of cause your a good no great wife, I just got caught up in the moment!"

Jack nodded again looking back down to the ground. Stupid Idiot! Why did you do this you have been going through a rocky patch but still Jack! His thought un-twined his mind all he couldn't think of was Sorry of how sorry he was, that he couldn't shouldn't didn't want to lose her. "I figured that much. And we stopped because It was a one time thing just a couple of night stands, I don't want to be with her nor does she with me. We know who we truly love me with you and her with Tri" He shouted to her a cough throwing it's self out another few tears falling. "Yeah we did do it on the bed..." He muttered slightly not wanting her to hear it, not wanting to make this any harder than it already was. Looking back into her eyes Jack shook his head. "I can't help working late I can't help it, thats why I was going to suggest to you would you like me to part time... As we can dip into the trust fund that we have, from all the money we have earned over the years.." His voice quietening slightly knowing that, that wouldn't probably never happen now.

His hands pushed away Jack watched her more tears falling this was it this was the time Jack had bee waiting and hoping would never happen. "I would never be wit her, never. Only you but turns out I've lost you, lost every thing haven't I?" He asked her his head glaring at the floor wanting to punch it wanting to just go and ran him self over, the guilt becoming to much to bare. "Okay Bella, I'll um get the kids on sunday. Bring them home tell them what has happened I'm guessing I deserve them that much." He said his head still to the floor trying to steady his breath once more.

His hand pushed open Jack watched her wedding ring fall into his finger tips. Looking up to her face Jack raised an eye brow. "I'm guessing were over then?" He asked her. Looking back down to the ring then to his, removing his wedding ring Jack played with them in his hands rubbing them and staring at them for a dew more moments. Jack then started to take off his chain, running them onto it, before tying it back up onto his neck holding both of the rings tightly into his palm, pushing his back against the bed roughly.

[[Yeah... Umm.... (: ]][/ul][/size]

[Isabella Parker]

[/b] What now? She winced at the memory of the night in the forest. The day she had tried suicide, she barely remembered. Out of instinct she looked at her own wrists. She hated bringing up Rayden. "A few days ago? Ruby?" She sighed and ran a hand through her head. Now she was a lot calmer than what she had been a few minutes ago. Ruby had talked to her, but it was more along the lines of forced her to Ruby's side. Ruby scared her to death so she was afraid to say no. "Your not the only one who's had a rough time this month. If you were having such a hard time why didn't you talk to me? You know that I'm always here for you." She muttered and looked to the floor again. "You really should have thought of that sooner. And I guess you need to learn to not get caught up in the moment then."

She was tired of hearing the same words from him. It killed her just as much as it did him. How could anyone just ignore this though? She couldn't go on with her marriage knowing that there was some trust and other things going on. It hurt her a lot to know that some other woman had been in his arms. "Tristan?" She whispered, another knot forming in her throat. Stupid. Of course he has a girlfriend. Why bother him? She glared over at the bed they had spent many nights together on. "I understand your job, hon. I could even get Liane to help us out if I needed to." With a lot of persuasion. "We need the money I know." She sighed and looked back up at him.

"No, don't think that way, Jack. I l- love you. I really do. I just don't- I need time to think about this. You really hurt me." Bella have a small nod. "You do. The kids still need a dad. I can't stop you from seeing your own children."

Isabella smiled weakly and stared at him. Her lip trembled and she couldn't produce anymore tears right now. "Y- y- yes. I really love you." She walked from their room and into the hall. Bella took her wand and apparated to Hogwarts. She might find him there if she was lucky.[/ul][/size]

[Jack Clark]

[/b] He said. You just talk to my bloody cousin, you just talk to over people never me do you? he thought with another small huff. He shook his head once again, looking at the engraving's on the ring he had given to Bell. Always with you. But now he wasn't going to be with her, it was probably a good thing that she gave it back then! Not bothering to answer the rest of her question's Jack sighed bringing his knees up to his chest.

Jack frowned at her whisper. "Yes Tristian. He's planing to be with Shelby, or some thing.." He whispered back to her, running a hand through his black and red hair. Shaking his head a little more. "I should be at home more, I know I should. I should also stop sleeping in my class." He laughed a little, a smile finally falling back onto his face. Jack shook his head again. "You don't love me any more, other wise you would of kept the ring.." He trailed off as she left the room, him himself standing up and walking over to the bath room stopping the bath from running.

I really love you the thought kept running through his mind kept replaying in his head, I really love you. Jack pushed the bath room door shut behind him leaning onto it. Looking down at the rings, Jack deepened his brow angrily. I really love you. His fist reaching up to the chain ripping it from his neck throwing it down to the ground. "Really love me my ass. Your probably going to find some one to cheat on me with right now, not that I don't deserve it." He said bitterly, jack's mind looking back at her figure at the baby that was growing in side of her he sighed again, watching the bath water sway from the wind from the open widow to the side.

Jack's head forcing it's self up and down in a nod, as if to agree with the bath. Walking closer to it Jack removed his trousers, his shirt already off from before. He pulled off his socks, then stood into the warm water of the tub watching the mirror softly before sitting down, a tear following his check down as well. Jack's arms brushing water over his legs, which had pushed them selfs up to his chest once again. Jack's chest breathing a deep breath in, before his body pushed it's self back into the warm water. His eyes watching the water float around his body, trying to peer through the dancing waves to the roof top. Bubbles of air, leaving his mouth and his eyes closing to sleep.

This was the night that Jack fell asleep in the bath.

[[Not much, didn't really know what to write to that. Lol. And by the way in case you were wondering, Jack isn't dead he wakes up in a few minutes. As shown in another thread at the house! xD]][/ul][/size]