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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 28, 2008 15:47:11 GMT
Shell was sitting in the middle of the living room with a huge cardboard box between her tan legs as she was sorting the many picture frames inside around so they could all fit in well enough so she could put even more inside.
Tucking a brown curl behind her ear she sighs, leaning to her right grabbing a few more frames before coming across one of her and Riyann at her's and Riley's wedding. They were dancing to a slow dance just laughing and goofing around on the dance floor. She sighs, biting her lip before jamming it into the box.
Shell frowns a bit, leaning the box before glancing over at James standing over her with a frown now on his lips as well. "James sweetie, can you go get the tape? It's upstairs on mommy's bed." she says softly before walking him run off upstairs. A few seconds later she heard a small knock on the door. Shell stands up, pulling on her shorts down some before opening the door, instantly dropping her glaze to her feet. [/blockquote] |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 28, 2008 15:54:40 GMT
The twins were at home with Riley today, still not being able to come and see Shelby and her kids before they left, which I felt bad about, but they weren't going to learn anything if I brought them over and let them run around playing and everything, but I felt horrible for doing it to them, I really did.
I had paid some muggle to drive me here so that I could come and see them, mainly Shelby, before they left, not that I blamed her for wanting to get away from me, just wish it wouldn't have to happen.
Biting my lip softly I stepped up to the door and knocked softly, feeling a small knot form in the bottom of my stomach, she could just as well shut the door in my face, maybe she'll yell at me or tell me to just go home. It didn't change anything though, I still wanted, needed to see her before she left. Maybe she was already gone, but judging by the fact that I heard footsteps behind the door and looked up to see Shelby now look at her feet, I knew it hadn't happened quite yet.
"Hey Shell." I whispered softly, now doubting that she was going to yell at me.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 28, 2008 16:06:08 GMT
Shell nods walking back to her box, sitting back down with a huff before playing with the ends of her pink tank top before looking at the photo, now with Riyann and Shell dancing around in many circles with huge grins on their faces. "Here, I don't want this. You have it." she says softly handing it out to her waving it in her direction.
"I told you that was the last time Riyann, that you were going to see me. Why are you here?" she asks folding in the box sides before getting up and sitting down on the box still fumbling with the bottom of her shirt before glancing up at her for a few seconds with a completely blank expression, hardly even moving or blinking for that matter. [/size] |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 28, 2008 16:15:18 GMT
I followed after her to where she sat down, a box in front of her now and I frowned slightly, biting a little at my lip. Seeing her hold out a picture, I frowned slightly more and took it, looking at the two of us. "You really want nothing to do with me." I whispered under my breath, more to myself, wondering if she heard me or not.
"Yes Shelby, and I didn't get to say goodbye, you left me there." I said, slightly glaring at her with a few tears in my eyes and then letting my expression relax after seeing her glance up at me after fumbling with the bottom of her tank top.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 28, 2008 16:23:43 GMT
Shell sighs, glancing into the box to make sure there were no more Riyann related photos. "What was your first guess love, that is the point..." she mutters, before tucking her curls behind her ears.
"Once again, that was point Riyann. For I wouldn't have to." she says again before shrugging at her ignoring the glare and the tears in her eyes. "I have a box of your stuff in this room somewhere. I was just gonna ask Andra or Briar to give it to you, but since you're here." Shell nods, finding the box and handing it to her before sitting back down onto the box. [/size] |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 28, 2008 16:34:38 GMT
"You're acting like such a child." I said, shaking my head a little, either that or I was and she really could forget she ever even found out my name.
"You also told me I wouldn't see you for a while, not forever Shelby." I said, not looking at her anymore, really wondering why I'd ever fallen in love with her before this, why I didn't want her to leave, or why I even came back to say goodbye. "Whatever." I mumbled, taking the box from her and putting the picture on top of it since it was shut, keeping my eyes from her and just looked around the room.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 28, 2008 16:45:33 GMT
Shell frowns at her before glancing at Riyann with a shrug. "I don't really care Riyann. And saying whatever is any better." she says rolling her eyes and sitting back down on the box with her arms crossed over her chest.
Shell knew she was acting immature about this, but she couldn't help it. A person she loved had moved on and was still trying to hang onto her. In a way, it seemed selfish for Riyann to want her to stay around, but on the other hand it was selfish of Shell to want to leave after her choice in the matter. "You still don't get it do you? The true reason of why I said I loved Draven more?" she asks, hearing her voice getting softer and weaker by the second. [/size] |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 28, 2008 16:51:49 GMT
"You never seem to care about anything." I muttered, watching her again. "Well since I don't see what harm it was doing why wasn't it Shell?" I asked, raising an eyebrow, really not wanting to be like this, though I couldn't help but to be bitter.
"I dunno, you wanted to lie to me, maybe break my heart a little, make me go back to my husband?" I asked a little coldly, knowing that I really did only go back to Riley because I loved him. I didn't really care that her voice was softer and getting weaker, she did this herself, and I knew I wasn't going to be able to stop her, so I could just well at least make her not regret leaving, or in some ways regret it.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 28, 2008 17:03:10 GMT
"Oh I care about enough things. Just not things that involve you." she mutters back at her, staring at her the same as Riyann was doing. "You're so selfish and hypocritcal. That's why." she says with a nod, crossing her arms over her chest still.
"Sorta, but no." she says softly, leaning forward and taking her face into her own hands. "Because Riyann, I knew you were going to leave me for him. It was just a matter of time. I didn't want to get hurt so I lied and said I loved Draven more. But of course, my plans backfired and I'm the one that's heartbroken." Shell whispers, feeling a few tears slip down her face as she let go and put her own face into her hands. "I knew I couldn't say goodbye without being a crybaby in this..." she whispers mostly to herself before feeling her shoulders bob up and down a little. [/size] |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 28, 2008 20:11:06 GMT
"Right Shell, if I'm so selfish, doesn't that make you selfish?" I asked, raising an eyebrow towards her. "How is saying whatever mean I'm a hypocrite?" I inquired a moment later, shaking my head at how stupid this all was, and I was sure that we both knew that.
"And I wasn't heartbroken Shelby?" I asked, shaking my head a little. "I told you you were going to leave me for him and you promised me you weren't going to, that you loved me, yet you did it anyways. I told you I might leave Riley for you, I did." I whispered the last part, if anything that made me from selfish, at least in one point of view, from Riley's I might've been selfish, wanting two people that loved me. "I sacraficed everything for you." I took a step away from her, now wanting to leave more than anything, I couldn't even say anything to what she next said.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 28, 2008 23:38:42 GMT
Shell stares at her, ignoring the first part of their agrument. "It didn't seem like it. You went off with him and never tried to ask me why or anything else. You just accepted it. It was clearly obviously that you love him more Riyann." she mutters, watching her move away. "You did not sacrifce everything. That love you had for Riley. If you did sacrifce everything we would't be here like this right now!" she yells breathing deeply before walking towards her.
"Riyann. I knew it was going to hurt. But it was going to hurt a lot more if I didn't lie." she explains, but everytime she would try to it seemed so much selfish and illogical than in her head. "Please you have to understand with my past. Always getting hurt in those situations... no matter hard I tried to ignore my thoughts they got the better of me." Shell whispers softly letting her head hang on her shoulders. "That's why I"m trying to get rid of every memory of you. It hurts far too much." |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 28, 2008 23:50:10 GMT
"Because I knew it was coming." I said, shaking my head a little. "I knew it was coming and I decided I didn't want to be hurt anymore, so I got over you as best I could. I've already hurt Riley enough, I couldn't keep doing it Shell." I whispered, stepping back again. "I did too. I didn't see you sacrifice anything, you just went off with Draven." I yelled, as she started walking towards me. "Shell stop." I said when she ceme closer. "Just go run away like you want to, leave me alone." I whispered, shaking my head. Funny thing was I'd come here, and now I was telling her to leave me alone, maybe I'd just had enough.
"Right, and you mean it would only have hurt you more." I muttered, shaking my head a little, mentally beating myself up. I told Riley I was over her. I knew I loved him more, I told him all of this. "So I was automatically like everyone of those situations Shell?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows together in disbelief. "I was no different?" I asked, keeping myself from yelling again. "Well maybe I should just do the same." I whispered, moving and dropping the photo down on the ground as I took another step backwards, not wanting to take my things with me either.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 29, 2008 0:25:05 GMT
"See? Wasn't I any different then? Who else knows rejection more than I do Riyann? And there you go you hypocrite. You were hurt and yet you go off with Riley after you hurt him. I felt the same damn way, but my hurt wasn't about Draven. It was because of you. I was afraid of hurting in after everything and I just wound up doing that anyway." she says walking closer to her still. "You're the one always running away Riyann. First you try to keep me at your side but now you're pushing me away. You can't ever make up your mind."
"No Riyann, you weren't. It's just years of being shoved aside for someone else they loved more sorta gets stuck to your mind. Always that self doubt and fragile trust. It just took control Riyann... and I'm sor--..." she jumps hearing the frame and her stuff fall down to the floor. Shell glares at her bending down to pick up the photo and the glass that broke as well to only scratch her hands. "I hate you Riyann." Lier. "I hate you more than I hate my father." Lier "Why don't you just go off and break someone else's heart into a million pieces since you're good at that." Stop it Shell. |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 29, 2008 0:39:13 GMT
"I dunno." I said softly, shaking my head a little. "Whatever I'm a bloody hypocrite." I said a little louder, wanting to yell at her again, but not quite doing that yet. "I went back to make things right, and don't make it seem like this is all my fault." I yelled at her, shaking my head a little as I kept taking a few steps backwards as she continued. I already knew that I ran away from everything, whenever it started to get bad. Because I still love you. I wanted to yell it at her, because I did, but I couldn't and I wouldn't, I'd ignore it and it'd be better off like Shell said her leaving would make it better for everyone. "Maybe I thought it'd be worth it. I shouldn't have bloody come." I muttered, rolling my eyes.
"Right, bloody sorry for not being enough, for not being any different than your past loves that you thought you loved." I yelled. I didn't even notice the frame make a noise, or the glass break, only saw her jump in the middle of saying sorry, in the middle of the appology I wasn't going to accept.
Hearing her say I hate you, I swallowed the lump that was in my throat, shaking my head slightly, biting my tongue to keep myself from saying something back, something stupid that I'd regret, biting my tongue to keep myself from letting the few tears pass my eyes. I couldn't take the rest of what she said and turned away from her, hatred burning in my eyes as I did. I hate you, I hate you, I hate me more, but I hate you. I thought furiously as I started for the door.
[[Can't think... sorry]]
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 29, 2008 0:48:25 GMT
Shell sighs, noticing her walking towards the doorway. "Go on, run like you always do Riyann. That's the only thing you're good for." she mutters, standing up though ignoring her bleeding hands and the blood trickling down her palms. You were always good enough Riyann. More than you know love." Shell as much as she would have loved to see her walk out, races to the door in a quick motion, twirling Riyann around and practically pinning her against the door.
"Riyann. I'm. I'm. I'm sorry... Why do you think I'm moving? I made the worse mistake of my life and there's no way of fixing it. How else am I supposed to react to this?" she asks softly, biting her lip as she was feeling slightly dizzy now due to the rate of her blood loss and how much had already fallen. "Please Riyann, you have to understand. I love you more than anything when you don't love me at all. We can never be together again..." she whispers as she glanced up at her with tears stinging her eyes. |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 29, 2008 0:58:48 GMT
I didn't answer her, just continued walking away. Thanks for pointing out the obvious Shelby. I could at least think it, knowing that it wouldn't have to be known by anyone else that I really did believe that I was only good for running. I always have, my whole life, it's all I've been good for, and finally someone else is figuring that out to, so maybe I could congratulate her on the discovery. One thing I hadn't expected though, was to be twirled around, slightly dizzy from the sudden movement, by Shelby's bloody hands and pinned against the door.
"Shell, you're bleeding." I whispered, trying to ignore everything else she was saying, trying to either have her let me go or for her to stop the bleeding. None of it mattered anymore. Just so long as I bloody well got out of here at some point. I kept my eyes away from hers.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 29, 2008 1:05:03 GMT
"Riyann look at me, please." she whispers in a teary sounding voice, ignoring what she said about her bleeding. Shell would get to it eventually, it didn't matter to her right now. Waiting a few seconds, she put a finger under her chin and gently turned her head so Shell could look her in the eyes. "Riyann, I'll let you go if you can honestly say you don't love me anymore." she whispers, feeling the sting in her wrists growing more and more with every second. "Just tell me that and I'll never bother you again Riy. I promise." she whispers again softly. [/size] |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 29, 2008 1:10:17 GMT
I didn't look at her, pretending that I didn't hear her, acting like a child as I did, shaking my head faintly, trying to get the sound of her teary voice out of my head as it tried to rip me apart inside. "No Shell, you're bleeding." I muttered after Shelby turned my head to face hers, after she told me to honestly say I didn't lover her, also I kept my eyes from her, looking to the wall behind her, though I was facing her as best I could. If she stopped the bleeding first, then we'd go from there, otherwise I'm going to stay silent. Why should it matter if you'll let me go? Come back and I'll do what I do best, run away. I thought, somewhat bitterly and a little bit sarcastic.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 29, 2008 1:22:37 GMT
Shell shakes her head lightly, but even that was taking some effort to do. "Riyann, this isn't anything compared to..." she stops, blinking her eyes some before trying to focus back at Riyann. "Don't worry about it love, alright?" she nods, stumbling back some and falls to her back, breathing deeply. This seems to be it Shell. You'll go off with no one that loves you. Just want you always wanted. Rubalyn's voice rings through her head, laughing hysterically before she loses conscious on the floor. She was still breathing, but it was weak and very shallow. |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 29, 2008 1:30:09 GMT
"Shelby." I whispered softly as she tried to convince me it was nothing, or not that bad compared to something else, though she hadn't finished that. I didn't even, couldn't even, tell what was happening, one moment she was trying to convince me not to worry and the next she's falling after stumbling back and then she's on the ground with me kneeling next to her, trying desperately to think of the bloody spell that I learned from watching Riley, but nothing's coming to mind. "Come on Shelby." I whispered softly, wrapping her hands with my shirt slightly. I could call one of the kids down. I could try and fail horribly at driving her to the hospital, or I could apparate to St. Mungo's like I really shouldn't. "Shelby, stay with me hon." I whispered. "Isaiah, Jenny." I called, slightly starting to become hysterical and paniced because they're really isn't much that I can do.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 29, 2008 1:50:58 GMT
Jenny walks down the stairs only to stop at the bottom, her blue eyes bulging at the sight of her mother laying in the floor, bleeding unconsciously. A few seconds later Isaiah walks down bumping into Jenny before seeing the same thing. "Mum?" she whispers walking to her side and kneeling down, biting her lip. She was just in as much shock as Riyann was. She glances over at Isaiah just standing there. "Mommy, please." she whispers again, she hadn't called Shell that since she was five.
Finally Isaiah snaps out of it picking Shell up before glancing over at Jenny. "Drive us to the hospital Seri, now!" he yells before rushing out the door and to the car. "Come on, Riy!" Jenny adds hysterically before running out to the silver car and hoping into the car as Isaiah was sitting with Shell across his lap, both of them with tears running down their faces before driving off once Riyann was in the car. |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 29, 2008 1:58:03 GMT
I faintly heard voices and wasn't paying very much attention, not until Shelby's body wasn't infront of me anymore, and I looked around to see Isaiah going out with her, and Jenny called after me and I started out to the car, getting in after a short moment. As Jenny started driving I couldn't help but think that this was all my fault. If I hadn't have come over, if I wouldn't have dropped the picture, had I not have yelled at her, had I not done a lot of things. It's all my fault. I could feel the tears as they feel down my face and I just looked back at Isaiah and Shelby, hoping that she'd be alright.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 29, 2008 2:19:39 GMT
Once in the parking lot, Isaiah gets the door open and rushes to the emergency room. It was a muggle hospital but it was just down the street. Jenny locks the car and takes Riyann's hand rushing off as well but Shell was already taken into the back with Isaiah in a special waiting room. He glances up at Jenny and Riyann shaking his head. "What did you do Riyann?" he mutters before Jenny gasps at him, "It's not her fault Isaiah! Leave Riyann alone."
"Shut up, Seri. We both know it is."
"It's not her fault. Mum's clumsy we all know that!"
"Why do you even care Serenity?"
"You're so arrogant. I hate you!"
"Well, isn't that a suprise? I hate you too."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 29, 2008 2:31:19 GMT
I watched as Isaiah took of with Shelby, biting my lip softly as I can't seem to get the thoughts that it's my fault out of my mind. Getting out and shutting the door Jenny locks the doors and I grabbed her hand lightly, going with her as she lead me into the hospital. I hate hospitals. I can't help but to think that, because I really do, I can't stand the places, not unless it's for something I need to, like something like this.
I could barely hear voices, though I could make out what one of them said, not sure who it was from, but hearing the person ask me what I had done, and I could only guess it was Isaiah and Jenny deffending me.
Trying to just stare ahead of me to the floor I heard their yells getting louder and finally snapped my head up to look at them, my vision blurred with the large tears that were falling past my eyes. "Will you to stop?" I asked like it was completely absurd, and at the moment it was. "It's not helping any to argue." I said, before moving and putting my head in my hand, my elbows resting against my legs.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 29, 2008 2:45:42 GMT
They stop after a few more snaps at each other before Jenny falls quiet, biting her lip before sinking into a huge couch, pulling her legs up to her chest. Isaiah however walks over to Riyann with a glare piercing at her. "No. You know it's your fault Riyann. We both know that." he whispers before walking out to call the house telling Zoe or Ashlyn to pack up the kids and come over to the hospital.
Jenny glances up at Riyann before standing up and walking over to her chair that she was sitting in and bent down wiping her tears and some of the blood stains away. "Riyann, it's not your fault. It's gonna be okay. Mum's a fighter. You know that." she smiles meekly at her before kissing her cheek. "Wanna sit with me on the couch over there? We can talk about baby names or about boys we think are cute in the quidditch world." she whispers with a teary laugh. One things she learned from Logan was to never see the negative in an already bad situation. |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 29, 2008 2:51:55 GMT
I really can't hate Isaiah, not after everything he's been saying to me, the looks he's been sending me, and just the fact that I know he hates me, no, instead I hate myself and blame myself even more as he walks out, to where I wasn't entirely sure.
Barely looking up, I noticed Jenny come over and wiped away some of the tears and some of Shelby's blood. "Yeah it is." I whispered softly before nodding when she said it'd be okay. It had to be before I went and did something stupid. Barely having noticed her kissing my cheek a moment before I looked up at her as she spoke. "Sure." I whispered softly though I didn't want to be there at all, I'd rather go see how Shelby was doing, still I pushed myself up and went towards the couch, grabbing Jenny's hand lightly as I did.
[[g2g, night]]
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 29, 2008 3:04:32 GMT
Jenny shakes her head a bit, before sitting back on the couch and cuddling close to Riyann. "No it's not Riyann. Quit saying that." she says leaning her head onto her shoulder, thinking about if they were stablizing her or if they were filing out the death certificate. "What's taking them? Shouldn't they at least tell us how's she's doing?" she asks softly before noticing Isaiah walking back into the room with a frown about forty minutes later.
"She's okay, weak but she's at least calm and stable. They said she's not awake though..." he says softly walking over to the chair and sitting down just staring at his bare feet. He didn't even have time to put shoes on. "We can see her whenever we want they said." [/size] |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 29, 2008 15:28:19 GMT
I put my arm around her shoulders gently as she cuddled close and stayed quiet since she told me to stop saying that it was my fault Shelby was here. It was though, so I could just as well keep the thought. Actually I had started falling asleep slightly before Jenny spoke, asking what was taking them. "I dunno." I whispered softly.
Looking up I saw Isaiah, hearing only a few words that he had said as I watched him sit down, but I nodded, catching that she was okay, not awake, see her whenever. At least I caught the words that told me something about what he said.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 30, 2008 3:50:21 GMT
Jenny smiles lightly to herself, glancing up at Riyann. "Can we go and see her Riy?" she asks softly tucking a brown curl behind her ear as she still had her chin on her shoulder glancing at her with her blue eyes. Isaiah leans his elbows on his knees looking at the two. "Yeah, can we?" [/blockquote] |
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 31, 2008 0:26:35 GMT
I looked at Jenny as she asked, not entirely sure why she was waiting for me to answer to if we could see her mum, about to answer when I heard Isaiah ask the same thing, now wondering if he was being serious or not. "Course." I murmured softly, nodding slightly.
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