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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 2, 2008 19:32:57 GMT
I wasn't sure if my choice as of now was stupid, idiotic, or the right one. Meaning I still didn't know who I loved more or if I should stay with Shell or go back home with Riley and the twins.
But right now I was waiting on Shelby, sitting down in the living room on the far end of the couch with my feet up and tucked close to me as I held my knees to my chest. As usual I was in a tank top, today just a plain black, nice fitting one and I wore a pair of jeans that sported a few holes here and there, a large one showing my right knee that was otherwise hidden under the fabric.
Biting my lower lip nervously I sat there and thought about how over the past couple of days I had been crying, crying over what I left behind and I felt sorry for putting Shelby through that.
Today, however, my cheeks were only slightly stained with tears because of what I decided and I had to forget the other half, for now at least. I hadn't bothered to cover up my slightly puffy eyes that were result in crying, I hadn't bothered to cover up the tear stains, because I didn't want to appear as something I wasn't. Hurt. Even if I did it to myself.
[[It's kinda crappy. Sorry ^^]]
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 2, 2008 19:54:35 GMT
Shell walks down the steps glancing at her couch and noticing that Riyann was there. Shell instantly frowns knowing that something had to be up seeing as it was late into the night already. She walks down all the way and kneels down infront of her with the frown still on her face, just taking her hand.
"Sweetie, are you okay? Do you need anything?" she asks softly, standing up and sitting down right next to her, placing an arm around her shoulders and the other around her front resting her head on Riyann's shoulder, kissing it softly. Shell had a feeling that the reason she was here was that she told Riley and they had a huge fight, but she wasn't sure why she would just come out and tell Riley just like that. There had to be a reason why she did.
"Riyann, can you hear me honey? Are you okay?" she asks again, kissing her shoulder lightly once more before noticing all the tear stains pn her cheeks and how puffy her eyes were. She had to be crying a while for her to look like that. Shell wasn't sure what else to say to her, but she wasn't going to ask about Riley. That might just make her start crying again and she was sure they both didn't want that. Not now at least.
[[awww, it's fine. Mine's crappy. ^^]]
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 2, 2008 20:03:49 GMT
I saw Shelby, and only smiled weakly when she asked if I needed anything, she was always there for me and I shook my head barely, feeling her sit down next to me as I shut my eyes lightly, feeling her move an arm around me from behind and her other around my shoulders and I let a small, quiet sigh.
Hearing her speak again I shook my head and moved so I could see her a little. "Shell?" I asked softly, moving a hand to wipe my eyes slowly. Why did I have to love both her and Riley so much?
I could feel a few tears sting my eyes as I thought about Riley, but I kept my eyes on Shelby, trying not to think about everything. The last time I had seen him he had been going off to go and get drunk and he left me alone thinking that I'd honestly just stay and wait for him to come home and then wait for him to sleep off the firewhiskey I was sure he'd stained his breath with so that we could talk about stuff? "Will you run away with me?" I asked in a small whisper, being serious about it. I'd thought about not doing it and I had finally decided I wanted to.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 2, 2008 20:16:44 GMT
Shell closes her eyes a bit, biting her lip still. She definately wasn't expecting that, but she couldn't say she was shocked either. They had been talking about it for a while now but Shell never thought they'd actually go through with running away from their hectic lives full of emotional chaos.
"Ummm. Sure?" she says softly, trying to think of where they could even go. Shell practically was recognized anywhere and if Riley looked for them he could simply ask and he'd find them. "You have to help me pack some and wake up the kids so they can pack as well. We can go to..." she closes her eyes again, still blanking on the house until she remembered where she hid all those years ago from the ministry, wizards and witches that didn't believe the Daily Prophet about her innocence as a child; the Vassler house. "We can go to Vassler's old place, it's still in my name, or Jenny's technically, but I'm sure it's fine." she nods just looking at her with a faint smile.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 2, 2008 20:23:41 GMT
[[Your post was good by the way. lol. not crappy. And Zoe moved in with Riyann and Riley before she left him. so there's that fact.]]
I watched her as she shut her eyes and bit down against my lip, now starting to think maybe she didn't want to, that she might've changed her mind and really did love Draven more, despite the fact she told me otherwise. Or maybe I just caught her off guard.
Hearing her answer I smiled softly, the feeling of doubt gone from my mind again as she started thinking and telling me what we had to do, what I had to help with. and I nodded, letting her think and keep speaking, biting at my lip when she started saying where we could go, but she paused and I shut my eyes lightly for a moment. "I love you Shell." I whispered before moving a little and kissing her lightly on the lips.
Riley and I weren't technically over since we're still married, but we were over, and it hurt to even think that, so maybe we weren't, but that hurt to because I loved Shelby.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 2, 2008 20:36:58 GMT
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Shell smiles lightly just nodding a bit. "I love you too Riy." Kissing her back just as lightly she stands up and heads for the stairs and starts walking up the huge flight of steps to her room where she grabbed her magical bag and started putting everything into it. It was one of those special bags that was jinxed so it was as big as a circus tent inside but it still was light as its appearance lead on to be.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 2, 2008 20:41:04 GMT
[[Me too. cuz now Riyann's not gonna get to rp with her unless she's outa the house or decides not to live with Riley.. lol]]
I smiled a little when she said she loved me too and nodded a little bit, watched her get up after kissing me back. Biting at my lip again I sat there for a few moments as I heard her feet starting on the stairs and just thought about what I've done and was going to be doing. Wondering if this meant I just wasn't going to see Riley again. Probably.
Sighing softly I pushed myself off her couch and felt my bare feet touch the floor and just looked down at them, moving my jeans out of the way so that I could see them, for some reason starting to think of Riley and how I kept looking at my feet when I didn't know what to do or was ashamed.
Shaking my head a little I looked up before starting slowly up the stairs so I could help Shelby pack.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 2, 2008 20:48:39 GMT
Shell glances over at the doorway seeing Riyann standing there with a glazed over face. She bites her lip and frowns a little. "Here, take this and put anything you can find that looks useful and place it in here. Don't worry it's a special kind of bag that I jinxed years ago from my Ruby days." she says whispering the last part of the sentence. Shell remembers when she tried teaching Jenny how to do the bag trick but she couldn't ever do it, actually none of her kids could yet. It sorta suprised her seeing as she did this when she was around seven.
"We don't have to go through with this sweetie. It's written all over your face." she says softly, placing the bag on the bed and walking over to Riyann with a faint smile. "I understand if you love him more and you're just upset and were confused before. I've done it too, trust me I have definately been in your shoes. So, if you want to be with him and feel that you'll be happier with him than me I get it." she nods a little kissing her cheek before turning around and sitting on the edge of her bed.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 2, 2008 21:04:46 GMT
I took the bag from her and nodded a little. "OKay." I said softly, standing there for a moment more, my eyes glancing around the room to see where I should start packing things.
I looked up at her and shook my head lightly. "I want to Shell." I whispered, now nodding my head a little. "I want to be with you." It wasn't a lie. I really did, I just wanted to be with Riley as well, I just couldn't have them both, could I? Then there was the fact that whenever we faught it was like he couldn't stand me and then goes off to get drunk. "I want to be with you." I repeated a little quieter and walked over to where she was sitting on the bed and sat down next to her.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 2, 2008 21:22:47 GMT
Shell smiles lightly turning to face Riyann and kisses her on the lips for a few seconds. "Okay then." she nods giving her a quick hug and rushes off to the kids' rooms to wake them up and start helping them pack their bags.
After everyone gets up and ready, packing everything they could into their suitcases they haul them into Shell's room so they could place them in the small bag that Shell handed to Riyann before. All of them look at Riyann and weakly smile, not sure what to think of the situation. They didn't know what was going on between Shell and Riyann but they knew something was up if Shell woke them up in the middle of the night to leave to a house they haven't visited in at least ten years.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 2, 2008 21:28:09 GMT
I watched Shelby as she smiled and kissed her back lightly before she pulled away from me and I watched her hurry from the room and bit my lip, staying sitted where I was, not sure what to think, or what exactly the kids were going to think. I hadn't exactly thought about this part of the whole deal.
They all had father figures walk out or, in Jay's case, die and now they had me.
Odd when you think about it.
Seeing them come in I smiled back, biting my lip a little and held the bag out so that they could put their things in, at least I was assuming that's what they were going to do.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 2, 2008 21:41:23 GMT
Jenny smiles taking the bag from Riyann and starts shoving their suitcases into the bag. After she was done she closes the bag and hands it back to Riyann and sits down on the bed right where Shell was before. The rest of them follow Jenny sitting down around Riyann. James leans his head onto Riyann's lap and Isaiah leans agains her back as he had Vi and Liese in his arms.
Shell walks in with a handful of cloaks of assorted colors and hands them to their appropiate owners. She swings her royal blue one around her and pull up the hood, tucking her curls into it. The rest do the same again, except for James. "Alright, Jenny and I are going to seal the house with protective magic spells so no one can break in or anything like that. Magic or not." she nods over to Jenny as she stood up letting the twins sit down along with Ashlyn. "Okay so everyone out of the house!" Shell nods as they start moving for the door.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 2, 2008 21:47:07 GMT
I smiled a little at Jenny when she took the bag and then set it at my feet, moving a hand lightly through James' hair when he put his head in my lap, feeling Isaiah lean against my back and smiled softly down at the tired James.
"Here James." I said softly moving him a little and helping him put his cloak on with a small smile as everyone else did the same. When everyone started getting up I moved and picked James up and then the bag, starting out as well, biting my lip softly. No going back now, which is fine. I hope.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 2, 2008 23:51:13 GMT
Once everyone was out of the house, Jenny and Shell cast the spell at the same time making an invisible bubble around the place. She glances over at Jenny, just watching her look at the house with a frown. Once again, they were on the move. Throughout Jenny's life she had to move place to place. Shell walks over and hugs her tight before taking her hand and walking back to where Riyann was standing.
"Okay everyone grab hold of the portkey." she says holding placing both Jenny and her hands onto the old rusty mailbox that was never used. This portkey went directly to the Vassler house into the living room. They all nod, getting a freehand and putting their hands onto the mailbox before feeling a shoosh past them and landing in the living room.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 2, 2008 23:56:49 GMT
I watched Shelby and Jenny for a little while, biting lightly at my lip. It was my fault that they all had to get up and move, well mine and a little bit of Shelby's, because she did agree to it.
Nodding a little I held on to James and reached out for the portkey as everyone else did and smiled lightly as he decided to reach out as well, not quiet touching it and I laughed faintly to myself and kissed the top of his head.
I looked around when we were in a different place and saw the living room of another house. The Vassler house, at least that's where Shell said we'd go and I looked at her with a small smile.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 3, 2008 0:05:03 GMT
Jenny looks around and sighs as does Shell. They both hated this place. Jenny was born here, grew up here with Logan and Graciela. Shell on the other hand was only here cause of the Ministry chasing her years ago. Jenny glances over at Vi and Liese, nodding her head to the stairs as she started turning on the old lights in the house as she made her way up to her old room.
Ashlyn and Jessie followed behind them, along with Isaiah, Theodora and Julia. Shell was assuming that they were over here enough by now to go to where the bedrooms were and settle in. Shell walks over to James and Riyann, lightly kissing James on his forehead. "Come here little man, time for bed again." she whispers, seeing him yawn in Riyann's arms. Shell smiles and takes him from her and walks up the stairs to where Molly's and Dakota's old nursey was. Briar left it the same when she left all those years ago so it was okay to use.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 3, 2008 0:13:08 GMT
I watched as everyone started making their ways around the house and sighed softly to myself, feeling a little more than out of place at the moment, which was just plain awkward for me.
Smiling towards Shelby i let her take James from my arms, smiling a little more when he yawned and felt a little more guilt fall over me and causing me to think about the twins and how I hadn't just left Riley, but them. After a moment I grabbed the bag, doubtful that anyone was going to unpack tonight, but didn't feel like going up the stiars empty handed or feel like leaving the bag there and started up after Shelby.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 3, 2008 0:23:04 GMT
Shell walks up the stairs and down the hallway, noticing an old dusty picture hanging on the wall. The glass on it was shattered, but it was a photo of Logan, her and Jenny from about fourteen years ago. Logan had Shell in his arms with Jenny in hers having bright smiles on their faces as Zoe and Isaiah waddled in and out of the picture with a baby Ashlyn in Logan's arms.
She sighs, shaking her head walking into the old nursey and setting James down onto one of the small beds. "Here you are. Now sleep tight okay sweetie?" Shell whispers to him kissing him on the cheek and turning on the old night light before leaving his door open.
The kids were walking going in and out of four bedrooms talking amongst themselves and getting ready to go back to bed. Shell walks into her old bedroom that she shared with Logan and sighs turning around noticing the old mirror was still shattered. "We're gonna stay in here if that's okay for you Riyann." she whispers, just taking off her cloak and skirt before getting into the bed.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 3, 2008 0:31:29 GMT
I set the bag down in the hallway for whenever somebody decided they needed their things and watched as Shelby tucked James into bed and I felt a couple tears fall down my face before wiping them away before Shell came out of the nursery, leaving the door open.
Barely taking any notice to the everything that was going on I bit my lip, turned and followed Shelby, still feeling more than out of place. "Yeah, no it's fine." I said, nodding my head a little, looking around the room for a moment and seeing the shattered mirror and bit my lip before going over to the bed and got into the bed with a small and faint sigh.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 3, 2008 0:45:01 GMT
Shell glances over her shoulder, scooting as close as she could to Riyann. Glancing at the mirror again she closes her eyes letting out a deep sigh. "Logan broke that." she whispers softly nodding in the direction of the mirror. "With my body. That's why I have those faint scars on my back."
After a few seconds she heard a faint whine in the room. Opening her eyes she notices James walking into the room with his teddy bear in hand. "Mum can I sleep with you and Auntie RiyRiy?" Shell smiles a little moving away from Riyann some. "Come here sweetie." she says softly picking him up and placing him between Riyann and herself, lightly stroking his red hair.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 3, 2008 0:48:57 GMT
I nodded faintly when she explained the mirror and shut my eyes lightly, not really wanting to imagine Logan doing that, but I could just picture it happening. "H-he." I started, wondering what I was going to say. Apparently he was dead so it didn't matter anymore, right?
Looking up from where I was laying I smiled softly, seeing James. "Hey little man." I said softly when Shelby picked him up and let him lay between the two of us. Moving a little I kissed the top of his head lightly with a smile.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 3, 2008 1:22:05 GMT
"He got mad when I said I was leaving him and Jenny. I snuck back over here later that night and took Jenny." she explains biting her lip lightly. She didn't tell anyone that but Nick and Jay, which she thought in a way was odd. Did she really think of Riyann in the same way as her husbands?
James smiles over at Riyann and then Shell closing his blue eyes lightly when Shell runs her fingers through his messy hair. "I love you mum and RiyRiy." he says softly falling sleep again. Shell looks over at Riyann and kisses her lightly. "I love you too." saying it to the both of them before smiling at her.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 3, 2008 1:27:32 GMT
"He was a right arse, wasn't he?" I asked in a small whisper, not knowing what exactly to say or if she was looking for something specific from me. Then there was the fact that I didn't exactly want to be talking about a dead man like that. To late.
I watched James with a smile, seeing him smile before shutting his eyes to go to sleep. "Love you too." I whispered, locking my eyes with Shells after she kissed me and then looked down at James. I loved them both, so it had been directed at both of them, just like Shell's had been. Looking at Shelby for a few more moments I smiled to her before shutting my eyes lightly to get some sleep, trying not to think about how I just abandoned my own kids.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 3, 2008 2:11:09 GMT
Shell just lays there silent, looking at her hands. "Yeah... right." she says softly after a few minutes before falling silent again. Even though he did that to her all those years ago, a part of her still had feelings for him. It could just be that he was the man that had her virginity, gave her Jenny or maybe it was that they repaired this house together. She didn't know.
Shell smiles at Riyann for a few more minutes as she too closed her eyes to get some sleep but she took Riyann's hand into her own, squeezing it slightly before drifting off to sleep.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 3, 2008 22:45:39 GMT
I smiled weakly towards her, knowing that really it wasn't the greatest choice of words and I sighed softly, wanting to go and take those words back, but at the same time I could know that she really didn't hate him like her drunk self stuck as a 14 year old said she did. Or said that she only stayed with him for Jenny.
I felt her take my hand and smiled a little more, squeezing her hand back lightly before falling asleep myself.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 3, 2008 23:07:37 GMT
The next morning, Shell wakes up with James practically laying on top of her. She laughs slightly, kissing his forehead and glances over at Riyann, but Liese was laying there and then Vi and then it was Riyann. She looks to her other side, with Jenny curled up right next to her with the twins at the end. Isaiah and Ashlyn were in the room but took residence on the couch, with Ash leaning against Isaiah under a blanket. It reminded her of when they were small but she frowns a bit as Zoe was still at Riley's.
She shakes her head out of her thoughts and reaches over the kids and nudges Riyann. "Hey, Riy wake up..." she whispers, wincing slightly at the fact that Liese and Vi were wincing their own eyes and moving a bit around. "Riyann... wakey wakey." she whispers again, seeing James yawn slightly making her smile again.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 3, 2008 23:13:54 GMT
I felt someone nudge my arm and shook my head a little, not wanting to get up, more so because I wasn't used to sleeping at night again. Then again, I think I quit that job, maybe. Either way I don't think I'm working there, probably got fired for skipping out on the past few nights without calling in or whatever.
Then I heard someone telling me to wake up and reluctantly opened my eyes, before finding out that I had just rolled off the bed and I shut my eyes again, not particularily wanting to wake up anymore, plus the floor could be comfertable. "I'm up." I muttered softly before finally pushing myself up into a sitting position, looking around to see all the kids were in the room, if not on the bed I was just in then sleeping on the couch and it made me chuckle softly, shaking my head a little bit as I did.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 3, 2008 23:24:22 GMT
Shell smiles up at Riyann just laughing a bit. "Morning Sunshine. I'm guessing you're not a morning person." she says softly glancing over at the clock seeing it was only eight in the morning. Shell puts her arms around James and sits up just looking over at her as James puts his arms around her neck. "So, you think you can deal with this?" she asks softly glancing around the room and then back at Riyann with a weak smile.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Jul 3, 2008 23:28:32 GMT
"Not used to it love." I said softly with a small shrug. "Usually not early morning person though." I added with a small smile. "I think I can." I said with a small nod, looking around at everyone as they slept, looked back at Shelby and smiled back. "I'm more than pretty sure I can." I said in a small whisper.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 4, 2008 0:16:33 GMT
Shell nods and nudges Vi and Liese. "Hey sleepy children wake up." she says with a laugh before Jenny sits up and yawns before smiling over at Riyann. Jenny glances down at the end of the bed and nudges the twins with her feet. Soon everyone that was in the bed was awake talking amongst themselves before getting up and walking down the steps except for the still sleeping Ash and Isaiah, Liese and James. "I hope so too." she says lightly sticking out her tongue at Liese shortly after.
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