Oh.. It's you...;;Shelby

[Riley Pearson]

"Well it sounds like you should be able to have anyone you want then." I said slightly bitterly as we sat there. "And I think my heart's broken enough, thanks."

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell just looks at her hands letting out a deep sigh. She had heard that so many times over the years and she hated it. Even Riyann said that she could get anyone she wanted to fall in love with her. "I think you should still talk to her, about why she exactly left Riley."

[Riley Pearson]

"Well, I'd like to, but I'd rather she want to talk to me in return." I said shaking my head a little. "And I don't want you near us when I do talk to her."

[Shelby Crescent]

"Fine by me. It's not my fault that she fell in love with me Riley. It's not like I convinced her to leave and everything else." she says crossing her arms. "But if she wants me there, then I will be."

[Riley Pearson]

"I don't care.. you had a choice whether or not to get involved with her and that's close enough for me." I said still not looking at her. "Fine, but I don't want to hear you."

[Shelby Crescent]

She shakes her head lightly just glancing over at him. "I was drunk Riley. She knew that and still carried on. You of all people know your decisions are impaired when you're drunk." she says with a sigh. "And if you start insulting me I'm speaking up. I'm not gonna put up with that."

[Riley Pearson]

"I know it does and I still don't care Shelby." I said shaking my head a little. "I wansn't planning on insulting you."

[Shelby Crescent]

"So, it's okay for you to have sex while you're drunk, but not me? Aren't you a hypocrite." she says rolling her eyes. "Right, calling me names already, I bet anything that you would if I was there, and most likely if I wasn't."

[Riley Pearson]

"I never said that.. okay, you obviously love her and I know you can't really help something like that. But do you understand what I'm going through? I don't care what you've been through right now, I just want you to know that you've taken the only woman I've ever loved away from me." I said explaining myself a little more. "And I'm not sure I can forgive you for that." I shook my head slightly.
"And I said I wasn't going to, so I wasn't okay?"

[Shelby Crescent]

She looks to her hands again, frowning slightly. "I know how you feel Riley, trust me I do. If I could I wouldn't be in love with her. It's just I don't know. I don't understand how or why I could ever think of her that way but I do. I'm sorry." she glances over at him with a frown still. "And okay then. I believe you."

[Riley Pearson]

"And honestly, in times like these, I wish you would just ignore that stupid follow your heart thing." I said continueing to go on anyway. "And I don't think you understand how much I need her. How much I rely on her. You've had a ton of people who loved you in your life and I've had one. Who I keep losing, over and over again." I said feeling a small knot form in my throat, my eyes burning slightly. "And thanks for believing me I guess..."

[Shelby Crescent]

"It's not stupid! Don't you dare say it is. You know it's the only thing that I have that reminds me of my mum." she says in a whisper looking down at the grass. "Never say that." she mutters ignoring everything else that he said, except the last part. "It's fine Riley."

[Riley Pearson]

"Fine I won't call it stupid.. Did you even hear any other word I said?" I asked looking over to her again. "But I do think that maybe it should be ignored when you're in love with your cousins wife."

[Shelby Crescent]

"No. It doesn't matter anyway." she says with a shrug. Shell shakes her head, bringing her legs up to her chest. "No. I read that letter of hers. I never told you that, but she did write a letter explaining that." Shell glances over at him again.

[Riley Pearson]

"Excuse me?" I asked raising my eyebrows slightly. "It doesn't matter?" I asked looking over to her. "How does everything I said not matter?"

"What letter?" I asked shaking my head a little bit.

[Shelby Crescent]

"I don't know Riley, just forget it okay?" she says softly again, looking at him with a frown. "I don't know."

"She wrote it to all four of us. Leslie, Nat, Fiona and I. It explains everything that saying meant to her seeing as she was the one that always said it. Pretty much said that no matter where you find love fight for it no matter the outcome good or bad." Shell sighs, biting her lip.

[Riley Pearson]

"Well, it was important to me." I said shaking my head slightly. This was another reason I didn't much like Shelby. Anything you say isn't important if she thinks she has something better to say.

"Do you really think she'd want you to steal your cousins wife?" I asked looking over to her, trying to keep myself calm. I was getting extremely annoyed with her. "Her and the girls are all I have. She's preggers! All I want is for us to be happy and for you to leave us the fuck alone. Because maybe it's not always about you."

I hadn't noticed it until now, but I did realise that I was using the word fuck quite a bit lately. Kind of funny since I rarely used to say it. Though it does seem to help feel slightly better when I feel like throwing something.

[Shelby Crescent]

Shell shakes her head a bit looking at him. "Well, it's not to me so oh well." she mutters, crossing her arms over her chest lightly and looking back to the grass.

"Once again, I really don't care. I'm just listening to my mother's advice. It says no matter the cost for love. You still have the girls and I know she's preggers. We were discussing names for the baby if it was a boy. Justin Tyler. Funny thing is when I said after your brother, she shook her head and said for my baby cousin."

That last thing he said sent her over the edge. "Always about me. Always? Excuse you Riley, but I did my part in the war, sacificed everything I had for all of us could live in peace. I always put my kids and family first and myself last, so don't you tell me it's always about me. I hide everything that's bothering me inside and never let anyone know my true feelings and emotions. So if anything, it's always about you. All I've heard so far is I want this and I want that from you. And I've been talking about Riyann's happiness, not mine." she yells before slapping him hard across the face. "Maybe you should leave her the fuck alone so she can be happy for once in her life."

[Riley Pearson]

"You could at least listen to me." I said shaking my head a little bit.

I couldn't even express in words how I was feeling right now. I knew that I still had the girls, but who was the one who had to explain to them that their mum left us? That she probably wasn't going to be at their birthday party at my parents house? "I should be the one discussing names with her. She's carrying our baby. And I don't care whose advice you're following. Maybe it wasn't meant for all occasions."

"And I didn't do my part? I helped you." I said looking at her. "And maybe you shouldn't hide all your feelings because honestly, I think that it makes you seem fake." I added with a small shake of my head. "And I think it'd help if people actually knew what was going on with you once in a while."

"I'm not going to deny that I don't use those phrases a lot and I'm sure I am being really selfish right now... but I am scared. I am scared, okay?" I asked looking over to her. "Riyann is everything to me, I need her. I haven't been without her in so long and I'm sorry, but I'm not going to leave her alone becuase I love her and I know she loves me. She told me she did." My eyes were still stinging from earlier and a few moments before she slapped me, a tear fell from one of them, grabbing her hand after it hit the side of my face. "I know she was happy with me."

[Shelby Crescent]

"Hey I simply asked if she thought of any names and we started talking about it." she sighs lightly looking at the giant squid splashing about in the lake. Well, to me in does. Love is love. What happens happens... I can't help it alright?"

"I'm not fake. I just don't let people in Riley. Everyone has their own problems and I don't want to be a burden for anyone. You spend three years in Azkaban and see how it effects you. Pretty sure you wouldn't even survived or you probably would have gone crazy or something along those lines. Then you'll see why I hide from people. All people have done in my life is attack and shun me because of something I couldn't control. Sorry that I'm scared for letting everyone know everything about me." she snaps bitterly.

"I know that she loves you. But she says she loves me too. We're both stuck in this situation that we don't want to be in because she doesn't know who she loves more. It sucks and it's terrible to be in this position." she sighs, trying to pull her hand free. "Was is the keyword there Riley. Was."

[Riley Pearson]

I just shook my head, dropping that whole thing. Shelby was stuck on her own thoughts and there was no way I was ever going to get her to agree with me. "You can always help it." I said quietly.

"Well, maybe they all had a reason to attack and shun you." I said back to her, just ignoring the other half of what she said about Azkaban. I wasn't here to give her sympathy or hear her sob story.

"I know the situation." I said shaking my head a little, and letting go of her arm, slightly roughly before I did something stupid. "And could still be if you'd leave us alone."

[Shelby Crescent]

"You can not! It's love Riley you can't just ignore it!" she yells tempted to hit him across the face again.

That did it right there, all her efforts in holding back. "I was attacked for things I had no control over Riley! Yeah let's just attack a little twelve year old girl who was innocent that just got out of Azkaban! I didn't deserve anything that happened to me in the past and you know it! You're just being a selfish bastard cause you didn't get what you want!" she yells again this time slapping him harder than before with her other hand.

"I wasn't the one that came onto Riley. She came onto me. Being drunk and all, wasn't going to help it either. Keep in mind she was sober, but I'm sick of this." she mutters standing up and walking away from him a bit before turning around and drawing her wand right at him. "I've had enough of your selfish and childish ways Riley."

[Riley Pearson]

"I'm sure you could." I said back to her, just shaking my head.

Personally, I thought I had every right to be selfish about this. Like I said before, Shelby's had so many turns at love and I got mine and she took it away. To me, that's what seemed selfish, I didn't care how she looked at it. I definately think that Riyann's stubborness has rubbed off on me though.

I didn't comment on what she said and grabbed her hand again after she slammed my face, it stinging more than first time due to the few tears that had fallen prior to being slapped.

I felt a few more tears come down, just shaking my head to myself. I let her get up, not wanting her to have the last words but wanting her to leave more than anything I didn't really care at the moment. She pulled her wand at me and I raised my eyebrows slightly at her. "Go ahead. I don't care anymore." I said shaking my head slightly, letting the tears fall down my face. "I can honestly tell you that I want another reason to hate you."

[Shelby Crescent]

"I have in the past, but this time I couldn't." she mutters slightly, wincing her eyes a bit.

"On second thought, I rather just leave you miserable and leave right now for you can see how it feels to be me for a change. And I hate you as well. You're not perfect Riley no matter how much you want to believe." she mutters, putting her wand away and walking back up the hill to the castle.

[Riley Pearson]

I just ignored her first statement and watched her put her wand away. I had almost wished she would do something to me. Then I'd have some kind of pain to get rid of everything else I was feeling.
"I never said I was perfect." I said before she started to walk away.