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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 30, 2008 14:52:41 GMT
I'm still very unsteady on my feet.
Maybe wandering around on my own wasn't my best idea. Then again I'm certainly not known for my well thought out plans. Most of mine are spur of the moment anyways.
Pushing a strand of hair back out of my face, I lean against the wall, trying to catch my breath. I've only been walking for a few minutes and it feels as if I've been on my feet the entire day. Maybe Ian was right, I should slow down. My stubbornness won't let me. I've spent too much time locked away, time is something I don't have anymore. I'm twenty-eight years old, I'm certainly not getting any younger.
The kids are with Claire this morning. Lord knows I need a moment to myself. All three of them have taken to following me around the house. Alex won't let me out of his sight, Poppy is constantly being my shadow, and Abby has taken to clinging to my leg and will burst into tears the moment I leave the room.
Ian's just as bad. I'm not made of glass, as I keep telling him, but he won't listen and I'm basically banned from doing anything until I get better.
Pressing my palm against the brick wall, I push myself off it, seeing as standing on my own seem to big of a task, and I knock into someone.
"Sorry," I murmur, brushing my hair out of my face.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jun 30, 2008 19:59:03 GMT
Where is she now? Turn around for one second and she runs off. Maybe Zoe's right, I'm a terrible mother.
Shell for the past half hour had been looking through a couple of stores and the street to catch where Jessie had ran off to. Even since Jay's passing, she had been even more rebellious towards her over the past few weeks.
Stopping at a display to glance around for Jessie, she notices a pregnant girl that couldn't be more than eighteen. Shell sighs a bit, closing her eyes thinking about a week ago when Zoe told her that she was three months pregnant, planned to drop out of school and she either didn't know who the father was or she was too ashamed to tell her, seeing as when Shell kept asking she wouldn't say anything about it.
"Mum, can I please have this?"
Shell blinks a couple times and looks down at James, holding a chocolate frog. "Sure James, just grab two more for Liese and Vi." She smiles turning around and bumping into a woman or at least she thought she did.
"Oh no, it's fine. Probably my fault." she smiles until she takes a better glance at who she had just ran into. "Maddie? How are you feeling?" she asks softly, as she bit her lip again. Shell had a feeling that she wasn't going to answer or snap at her for her dumb question. She knew how Azkaban was as a young child, three years of her life in that terrible place and she was still having nightmares about it. "I meant. Since being out of there." she corrects herself as James handed Shell the chocolate frogs.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 1, 2008 16:04:42 GMT
I have to close my eyes very tightly at this point, or else take the risk of fainting again. It seems like even the simplest things nowadays take a lot of effort.
Even picking up Abby takes more effort then I remember.
"Sorry, sorr..-," I murmur again, then stop mid sentence when I realize who it is I'm actually talking to. Yes, it's been more then ten years, but then again I'm a champion grudge holder.
"I'm fine," I murmur, leaning against the wall again.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 1, 2008 22:36:12 GMT
Shell bites her lip, looking down at James to avoid looking at Maddie for the time being.
"Are you sure you're okay Maddie?" she asks softly taking a glance at her seeing that she was leaning against the wall again.
"I know my opinion doesn't matter, but don't think you should be out and about right now." she says softly again, looking back to her redhead son.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 2, 2008 14:15:52 GMT
Does it look like I'm fine? I'm too tired to even snap at her.
Chewing absently on my bottom lip, I keep my gaze fixed on the other people walking by. It's just my luck though, that it has to be her that stops to help me. My eyes glance over her son, and it's only now that I notice he has redhair. I don't recall any of her other's having red hair so I'm not surprised.
"I'm fine," I mutter again.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 2, 2008 21:09:12 GMT
Shell sighs, finally looking up at her shaking her head a bit.
Well, you're obviously not seeing as you need a wall to keep you standing or at least stable.
"Where are you going to? I can help you Maddie..."
If you swallow your gryffindor pride and get stop being stubborn.
James glances up at Maddie and frowns slightly before Shell sighs again. "I know we still don't get along, but you need help right now. Come on Maddie."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 3, 2008 17:52:30 GMT
"I'm going around," I mutter. I really had no place that I needed to be at, I just couldn't take another minute at home. Lord knows how much I loved Ian and the kids, but they were all getting a bit too smothering.
"I don't need your help." I reply simply, taking a step forward and away from the wall to prove my point.
Suddenly there's a sharp shooting pain in my back and I cry out in pain, tears springing to my eyes.
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 3, 2008 22:50:11 GMT
Shell nods lightly, "Just around? No specific thing you need from a store or anything like that?" she asks. Shell knew she was asking for trouble with this, but seeing how injured and weak she was she couldn't just leave her there, she had been in Maddie's shoes before.
Crossing her arms over her chest she shakes her head when she watches Maddie push herself off the wall. "I wouldn't do that..." Shell says softly before wincing at her cry.
"Apparently you do need my help, no matter how much you don't want to admit it."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 7, 2008 18:27:35 GMT
"Just around," I mutter, gently wiping the tears away. I wasn't going to let a little back pain reduce me to tears. "If I stay in the house any more I'll go insane," I mutter.
I love my family but sometimes I just need sometime away from them and if I have to reduce myself with sneaking out like a teenager then so be it.
"I can manage."
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Post by Shelby Crescent on Jul 8, 2008 6:31:59 GMT
Shell sighs, leaning against the wall as James walks over to Maddie. "Are you okay lady?' he asks softly with a faint smile on his lips. "You can have my chocolate froggy if you want." moving his hand up to hers to offer the chocolate. Shell couldn't help but smile at that, even if Maddie was being stubborn still.
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