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[Riley Pearson]

I looked over to him again, "Do you really want to know?" I guess I could tell him.. it wasn't too big of a deal.. was it?

[Fitzy Patricks]

"I am kind of curious now...." I shrug slightly. "Sure, why not?"

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged, taking another drink.
"I just.. we were talking, and I think it sounded like I was pressuring her to kiss me." I said, after a moment. "I wasn't, or I didn't mean to."

[Fitzy Patricks]

Maybe I've had too much to drink - unlikely, though it's not like I do this very often - because somehow my first reaction to that is also to laugh, shaking my head.
"... Well, I can see how she'd be pissed at you then. You and your cousin both, hm? You just can't take a hint."

[Riley Pearson]

I felt slightly better when he laughed and looked over to him.
"I just wanted some clarification." I said shaking my head faintly, thinking about the whole thing with being first and second best.. I probably wasn't going to mention that. "What do you mean?" I asked a moment later, when he mentions my cousin. Shelby, maybe?

[Fitzy Patricks]

"Nothing in particular," I shrug, wondering how and why that slipped out. "Just seems that you're alike, is all. Looking for 'clarification' to the point you become seriously irritating and worthy of being yelled at."

[Riley Pearson]

I shook my head faintly and looked over to him. "Alike? Me and Shelby?" I asked, slightly wondering where he was getting this.
"No.." I shook my head faintly, "... I honestly don't really remembering specifically." I said, not being sure how i would describe that without a lot of detail.

[Fitzy Patricks]

"Just a bit," I shrug again. "At least with this sort of thing."

[Riley Pearson]

"What sort of thing?" I asked shaking my head faintly again. "I don't see how I'm like her."

[Fitzy Patricks]

I shrug again, not really caring to explain if he's too dense to follow what I've already said.

[Riley Pearson]

I shook my head. "I'm not like her with relationships, if that's what you meant."

[Fitzy Patricks]

"Seems to me that you are, to an extent." I shrug. "Neither of you know when to give up."

[Riley Pearson]

"You just.. don't understand." I said shaking my head faintly, not really liking the comparison to Shelby. "Anyway, I tried giving up and it didn't work."

[Fitzy Patricks]

"I don't understand what?" I ask, kind of amused now.

[Riley Pearson]

I sighed a bit, ".. When I was with Riyann, I.. it was sort of like Arden was second best, to put it simply." I started before giving a faint shrug, "And I don't really think that she is anymore.. so I thought maybe she'd change her mind.. or something." I said before taking another drink. ".. It was stupid."

[Fitzy Patricks]

Exactly what that has to do with what we're currently discussing, I don't know... but it is interesting. I raise my eyebrows briefly. "If Arden hasn't changed her mind by now... like she does with everything else... then trust me, she's not going to. Not for several years anyway."

[Riley Pearson]

That was basically the reason why I wasn't fully giving up, hopefully he got that's what I was explaining.
I sighed and shrugged again. "I'd rather just put up with it and see what happens." I said quietly, staring at my bottle. ".. But I know, I should give up." I added with a faint nod. "And how do you know?" I asked, glancing to him for a brief moment. "She changes her mind fairly quickly if you haven't noticed.."

[Fitzy Patricks]

I laugh again slightly, shaking my head. "And despite this penchant for fickleness, she managed to despise me for only about fifteen years, never once changing her mind. So believe me... I know that it's rare, but there are some things she stays firm on. Just to keep you guessing."
I pause a moment, noting distantly how bitter that just sounded, and shake my head again. "And there's where you remind me of Shelby. 'rather just put up with it and see what happens.'"

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged faintly at his example. ".. Right.." I hadn't really thought about that.. and he had a good point with saying it. Why was I even bothering? "She probably won't change her mind then.." I paused and took another drink. "But what happens when I do go and give up and she does change her mind?" I ask looking back over to him.
"You have no idea how much that bothers me." I said shaking my head. I really didn't like being compared with Shelby. "I don't see how that reminds you of her."

[Fitzy Patricks]

"If you had to put up with her showing up at your door to alternately tell you you're a bastard and she doesn't know why she ever bothered, and then to ask you if you've maybe changed your mind...." I shake my head. "Then you might get it. But, as for your situation...." I shrug. "So what if you give up and then she changes her mind? Why would that matter to you?"

[Riley Pearson]

For some reason, what he said next sort of confused me. "You lost me a bit." I said shaking my head faintly. "Shelby's done that to you, you mean?" I asked, taking another drink. If that was the case, I was slightly curious why that was reminding him of me.
"It would matter because that's just... not fair." I shook my head. "I don't want to give up and if I finally got up to doing it and tried to get over her again.. and then she just comes back to me." I shook my head. ".. I dunno." It's just not pleasant, maybe?

[Fitzy Patricks]

I shake my head uncomprehendingly, then shrug. "Go ahead and annoy her then, if that's the way you feel about it. Though... again, speaking from experience... if she does decide to throttle you, you brought it on yourself."
And I really don't think I need to answer his first question, seeing as it seems kind of obvious.

[Riley Pearson]

He didn't respond, so I was guessing that I was right. "Well, how is that like me?" I asked, still feeling confused about this. "I've never walked up to Arden and told her I never should have bothered.."
"I don't want to annoy her." I said quietly. "Throttle me?" I asked. "How do you mean?"

[Fitzy Patricks]

I sigh faintly, shaking my head. You are dense as bricks. How does she put up with you?
"You do drive her nuts though... I'm just guessing, added on to what you said... and so, if she snaps and decides she wants nothing to do with you despite your years of friendship and whatever else...." I shrug again. "Just don't be surprised."

[Riley Pearson]

"I don't mean to though." I said again shaking my head. After talking about this, I had to admit that I was feeling quite stupid and pathetic.. more than usual, at least. ".. Would she really do something like that?" I asked a bit quieter again.

[Fitzy Patricks]

"Normally I'd say that you probably know her better than I do... but now I'm not so sure." I shrug slightly. "Never thought that I would."

[Riley Pearson]

"I'm just.." I paused as I searched for the right word, "Messed up right now." I said shaking my head a little bit. "And it doesn't help that I've basically liked her since hogwarts."
I shook my head again. "I don't know anymore." I commented on what he said about him not being sure.
"You have, then?" I asked, "Just.. abandoned people?"

[Fitzy Patricks]

I half snort, mostly inaudibly. "If you weren't so bloody thick, you might have figured out that I did that to your cousin because she was acting much the way you seem to be with Arden," I mutter.
And if what he says is true, then he's an idiot not to have ditched his nut of a wife a long while back. But there are only so many insults you can throw at a person all at once.

[Riley Pearson]

"Sorry I don't keep myself updated with your or Shelby's life." I said shaking my head for a moment, looking away from him. "No wonder she was so upset.. if that's what you did to her."
"I just.. It's hard. And it took me a long time to see that I actually liked her again." And then I insisted on staying with Riyann. ".. I'm so stupid." I muttered to myself.

[Fitzy Patricks]

"I'll agree with the last bit," I mutter, taking another drink to try and drown out the flash of guilt at his 'no wonder she was so upset.'