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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 19, 2008 15:55:05 GMT
"... I've always told her that she should do whatever it takes to stay alive..." I said quietly, thinking about all the times that I had told her that. "I don't even know if that was the case..." I added quietly with letting out a small breath. Myabe I should've asked her more questions.
I looked down at my hands a little bit longer, before glancing back up to her, seeing some worry in her eyes as she looked down at her hands. ".. You okay, Arden?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 1:55:27 GMT
"Fine," I say immediately, shaking my head. He doesn't need to hear my problems... especially when they're just worries, and maybe nothing is wrong. Inwardly, I snort at that idea in disbelief, but try not to let on and instead backtrack to what he just said, but I don't think I took it in quite well enough to reply.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 2:00:38 GMT
She said she was fine awfully quickly and I think I've known her long enough to know that something was probably wrong, but is she said she was fine she more than likely doesn't want to talk about it. Which is why after a moment, I just nodded faintly. "If you're sure.."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 2:04:20 GMT
"Yeah," I nod, frowning faintly and not even knowing myself what I mean by that. But then I shake my head. "I'm trying to be supportive, don't want to go and rant at you."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 2:06:32 GMT
I shrugged faintly, looking over to her again. "I don't mind ranting.. You can if you want." Plus, maybe ranting would take my own mind off my own problems.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 2:10:22 GMT
"No... it's silly anyway." I shake my head again, still frowning. "I'm sure it's really all fine."
Ha.... an inner voice snorts derisively again. You are not.
But I shouldn't be selfish right now, on top of being such a bad listener.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 2:13:24 GMT
".. If you're really sure..." I said quietly, giving her a slightly worried look. "But really," I began, putting my hand on top of hers, If you change your mind.. I'm right here." I told her, giving her a faint half smile, and squeezing it gently for a second.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 2:15:45 GMT
"Thanks." I smile faintly, pretty sure at some point in the next few minutes... as much as I'd rather not... I'm going to blurt it out. "And... same, obviously. Is... there anything else you want to say?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 2:22:14 GMT
"No problem.." I said with another faint half smile as I moved my hand off of hers. I nodded a little at what she said. ".. Thanks.. and.. right now, I dunno..." I said running a hand through my hair slightly before shaking it a little bit out of my face. There were a few things I could probably say, but I wasn't sure if I really felt like saying anything at this exact moment. ".. Nothing right now I don't think..."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 2:26:18 GMT
I nod again, biting my lip, and wondering if I may as well just spout off my own worries then.
But I won't, and so I get to my feet instead just to be doing something.
"Want some tea, by any chance?" I smile weakly. "I think you've got me addicted to its calming influence."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 2:30:19 GMT
I smiled weakly over to her and nodded, letting out a faint chuckle at what she said about the tea. It really is calming, I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks it. I nodded slightly, "Yeah, I could use some tea.." I said quietly.
"It's nice isn't it?" I asked, not really expecting an answer to it. "I don't know why, but sometimes just making it helps.."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 2:35:41 GMT
"Probably just in our minds," I shrug, shaking my head as I grab the pot off the stove to refill it. "But I guess that's where the worry is anyway, right?"
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 2:40:02 GMT
I nodded a little with a small sigh. "Yeah, probably is." I said sitting here as I watched her take the pot off the stove. "Right.. I guess I don't know where else it could be..."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 2:42:33 GMT
"Mm...." I nod, setting it back now and just staring at it, as if it might do something interesting.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 2:48:37 GMT
I nodded a little bit, frowning slightly as I looked back down to my hands, tracing a few shapes over the top of her table. "... You weren't.. doing anything before I came over, right?" I asked her curiously. I didn't want to interrupt her.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 2:51:47 GMT
I laugh slightly, shaking my head. "Nothing important. I... actually wanted someone to distract me. Not that I wanted it to be like this."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 2:53:23 GMT
I smiled faintly again and then nodded to what she said. "Well, it's still a distraction I guess." I told her looking over to her. "Glad I decided to knock and not just turn around..."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 3:02:54 GMT
"Same," I nod, but more so because I'm glad he decided to talk to me rather than potentially do something stupid, as he has on occasion. "But why were you going to turn around?" I ask, snatching up the teapot in the middle of the sentence as it starts to whistle.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 3:05:34 GMT
I shrugged a little bit, slightly wondering if she started to think about the stupid things I've tried to do in the past. Really, they never crossed my mind now.. I had kids to take care of. A family and I couldn't do that.
"Um.. Just.. I don't honestly know really." I said, shaking my head faintly.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 3:09:53 GMT
I pause, tilting my head at him with the teapot in hand. "Yeah... I can understand that," I say after a moment, nodding as I start filling the mugs. I don't know if I want any any more than before, but I may as well pour it anyway.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 3:11:40 GMT
I nodded a little bit, "Yeah.. but I was really relieved to see you were home.." I told her quietly, looking over to her and watching as she poured the tea into two mugs.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 3:14:16 GMT
I nod again at that, pretty sure I get it. "Don't want you doing something stupid," I mutter after a moment, handing him one of the mugs.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 3:16:04 GMT
"Thanks.." I said quietly, taking the mug from her hand when she handed one of them to me. I heard what she muttered and bit my lip faintly, frowning slightly more as I looked into the mug I was holding. "I wasn't planning on it..." I said back to her quietly.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 3:20:19 GMT
"Good," I nod, eying him carefully. I'm pretty sure he hasn't done anything stupid in a long while... but then again nothing like this has happened in a long while. Not since the war.
And again I'm struck by the fact that, basically, it's starting up again, and again my heart skips a beat because that's very scary.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 3:22:31 GMT
I nodded a little, thinking about what happend a little over ten years ago. ".. I was stupid.." I said quietly with a small shrug. "I didn't know how to handle anything.."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 3:29:13 GMT
"Understandable," I shrug, once I've figured out what he means. "We were kids, basically."
I shrug again, looking down into the cup that I haven't yet taken a sip from but kind of like having 'cause it's comfortingly warm.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 3:31:52 GMT
I nodded slightly, "Basically.." I said as I looked into the mug a little more, almost feeling like it was helping me think or concentrate. ".. I did so many stupid things... I think you were a bit less stupid than me though.." Or more than a lot less..
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 3:35:45 GMT
I bit my lip, shrugging into the teacup. "I'm not really sure I can agree with you on that... not with the number of times I blew up at people... tried to shred my arms...." I shake my head again, sighing. "Pretty much everyone I can think of did stupid things, didn't know how to deal."
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Post by Riley Pearson on Oct 21, 2008 3:38:08 GMT
I looked back up to her as she spoke, tearing my eyes away from my tea and taking a small drink of it, burning my tongue slightly as I did. I shrugged a little bit. "Maybe we were equally stupid then.. I knocked up my girlfriend and then asked her to marry me."
"... But yeah, I guess everyone did.." I said agreeing with her.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 21, 2008 3:42:52 GMT
"Different type of stupid," I shrug, then nod, finally deciding to take a sip of tea and promptly wincing at how it is.
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