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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 2:50:02 GMT
So far I'd been close to normal around the twins and Riley's parents, which was always good, except I still had the voice in my head that was arguing with me. I was surprised that Riley was still here, that he hadn't just sent me off to St. Mungo's.
It's because you're not yelling at yourself all the time. "I should." I muttered softly, rolling my eyes slightly. Even if the voice said it would stop so that Riley would trust me enough to get another wand, it wouldn't. Just constantly commenting on everything, getting louder when I tried to ignore it and such.
Why should I be quite if we're not any closer? "Just shut up." I whispered, a pillow held close to my chest, sitting in the middle of Riley's old bed.
When Riley was around I tried my hardest to be as normal as I could get, I had recently taken a week off of work just to take a break, knowing that I really shouldn't go lock myself in my office, but it left me at home. Or as close to home as it has been for a while. Which left me in the house with the girls, though Riley's parents took them out today, or maybe it was just his mum.
He will send you off. I let a groan pass my lips before moving and then I burried my head into the pillow. "No he won't." I yelled, though the words were muffled by the pillow. That was the comment I'd been hearing most of the past couple of days, or such like it. Well he will. I just simply shook my head slightly, too stubborn to agree, and the voice was too stubborn to give up on the subject.
Boredly I started humming softly to myself, wondering why I even locked myself up in the room and had it so it was still dark, wouldn't it make more sense to go out and do something.
No it'd give me more to do. You don't want that. "I know." I muttered, hating being like this, locked up by my own doing, staring at the door all day incase someone suddenly came in, though it's not like I could do much if it was someone I didn't like.
So getting off the bed, I held the pillow to my body before opening the door and going out into the hallway.
Somehow I found my way into the kitchen, hand grabbing onto a knife and then I turned right back around.
What the hell are you doing? "I though you wanted me to do this." I muttered, making my way up the stairs. I wasn't doing anything with the knife, just holding onto it for safety reasons. Odd safety reasons at least.
Shutting the door tight behind me I didn't even bother with locking it and looked around, trying to find somwhere that I could go, not wanting to go back and sit in the middle of the bed, waiting for something, or anything.
Could always hide in the closet. I laughed softly at that, only because that's what I used to do before I'd come to Hogwarts, before my adoptive parents had died, and it was amusing. I'd always hide in the closet whenever they were annoyed with me. Whenever Frank was annoyed with me.
Smiling a little I moved, just now noticing that I'd dropped the pillow by the doorway, and opened the door to the closet, looking around at the small shape, small compared to the closet I had used in thier house. Either way I moved and sat down as I shut the door, letting my eyes shut slightly to the blackened space, finally not being swamped with so many thoughts.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 15:31:40 GMT
They told me to just go home early. Which, right now, am very thankful for. I didn't feel like being at work right now.. plus, I wasn't really doing very well at my job today. So it was probably best for everyone.
I walked inside the house, shutting the front door behind me. "Hello?" I called out, not really loudly, but loud enough to hear if someone was downstairs, or just happening to be listening for something. I set down the few things I had with me and looked around the house. I didn't hear or see anybody and was slightly confused before I figured that my parents probably just left with the girls and maybe Riyann was sleeping or something.
I looked around downstaris just in case and then made my way upstairs, loosening my tie as I went. All the doors were open except for mine so I walked over to it and opened it quietly, epecting to see Riyann asleep. When I didn't, I was a little more confused, but just shut the door behind me and shrugged it off.
I loosened the tie the rest of the way, sliding it off from around my head and tossing it on the bed before walking over to my closet. I opened the door, jumped for a moment, not expceting to see her in there.. especially holding a knife.
I raised my eyebrows faintly and crouched down by her. "Riyann.. Are you okay?" I asked her, slightly more concerned that she was sitting in the closet now. Why was she even holding a knife? I didn't get it and I wasn't sure if I wanted to know. But nevertheless, I was worried and I was sure she'd be able to tell if she was paying attention to it.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 15:47:50 GMT
I heard the front door shut and started listening, trying to figure out who it was and if I should be worried about it, so far I was just trying to listen to where they were going, not caring about the sudden call out of a hello or really hearing who it was, just hearing the footsteps going throughout the whole downstairs, causing me to frown slightly as they made their way up the stairs.
I sighed softly though, and then tried my hardest to stay silent as the footsteps started towards Riley's room, my grip on the knife tightening slightly, but I didn't do anything else, because seriously, what if it was just Riley? This would be a scare enough.
Riley's at work you dolt. I bit my lip when I heard the door shut behind the person. Really I should not be freaking out like this. Still, I held the knife faintly tighter and slightly closer to me when I heard the footsteps coming closer, willing myself to breathe normally. Seeing Riley at the opening of the door I just about jumped, and I threw the knife on the otherside of the closet, hoping he just wouldn't pay any mind to it, because that's all I'd need, him to be freaking out over a knife.
I smiled a little towards him and nodded, moving a little so I could wrap my arms around his neck. "Yup." I said, smiling slightly more, kissing his cheek quick.
So quick to lie. I ignored the voice and smiled softly. "Missed you." I murmured.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 15:57:12 GMT
She tossed the knife aside almost as soon as I opened the door and I let my eyes follow it for a moment before she looked over to me.
She smiled and I smiled a little back, letting her wrap her arms around my neck and feeling her kiss my cheek.
I was still worried about the knife, but she seemed okay and I was hoping that everyone else was okay too. Once I thought about everyone else, I wondered how good it was to have thought that. To have assumed that since she has a knife she just offed one of my family members.
That's not really a good thing to think about your wife.. even if she has gone a bit loopy.
But I hadn't really noticed anything lately. She's seemed fine, so maybe I had no reason to worry anymore.. I was still keeping my eyes on her though.
"Missed you too." I said quietly back to her, pecking her lips lightly for a moment. "Um.. Mind if I ask why you were holding a knife?"
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 16:04:51 GMT
I could only watch as Riley's eyes followed after the knife, but then I kept my eyes on him, really not wanting to draw attention to the fact that I had the knife in the first place, because then it'd just about seem that he could have reason to just as well send me off. Don't much want that.
Do you think he's actually starting to believe everything's getting at least a bit better? It wasn't a question that was asked with a bit of sarcasm, just out of true curiousity and I shrugged faintly. If he did then good, if he didn't, then we'd have to work longer.
I smiled slightly more when he said he missed me too and pecked his lips back before he spoke.
"You already asked so I guess not." I smiled a little with a faint laugh, pecking his lips quick like he'd just done to me. "Safety Reasons Love." I said softly before hugging him slightly more.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 16:10:22 GMT
I smiled a little more when she pecked my lips back, even though I was still worried and chuckled faintly when she laugh.
"Saftey reasons?" I asked her as she hugged her a little more and I retunred the hug. "You're sure you're okay?"
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 16:15:34 GMT
"It's not like I've had a wand Riley." I muttered, wondering why he was thinking that of all things was odd. "I don't like it." I whispered, sighing softly, thinking that this could possible be the time where I asked if we could go get a wand. Which I don't entirely know why I have to ask. I should be able too. I'm a witch and I don't have a wand when I really should, especially for work, and really there isn't much that can stop me from getting the wand.
You're starting to figure it out. Why do you need to get his permission to get a wand?
"And I'm fine." I said to answer his last question.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 16:20:16 GMT
"Right... sorry.." I said shaking my head a little and pulling away slgihtly before pushing a few pieces of her hair behind her ear. "I guess I wouldn't like that much either. I started to wonder if she should even have a wand really though.. Part of me said it was only fair that she got another one and the other part was telling me that she's already held a wand at you, do you really want her to have one twenty-four-seven?
I nodded slightly, "Um.. maybe we should get you a wand then.." I said quietly, keeping my eyes on her. If not having a wand was forcing her into a closet with a knife, then maybe it was best she had one.. anyway, it's not like I could stop her from getting one if she really wanted to. I never checked her in anywhere from what had happend earlier, so really, she was allowed to have a wand.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 16:32:13 GMT
I just nodded a little when he apologized, really that wasn't what I was looking for, but I wasn't much looking for anything I suppose. I smiled a little when he pulled away and pushed some hair behind my ear. "It's rather annoying." I said softly, shrugging a little. And it really was. I bit against my lip, wondering if he was considering it, hoping that he really wasn't going to object to the idea of me getting a new wand.
Not like he's got much to object on.
"Do we have the money Riley?" I asked softly, biting my lip again because now I was giving him a reason not to let me, money. Which really seemed stupid, I'm a witch I should be allowed to have a wand no matter what.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 16:36:28 GMT
"I can imagine.. I don't like not having a wand either." I said quietly with a small nod to her after she shrugged.
"Um.." She asked if we had the money and I gave it some thought. "... I think so.. I've put in a few extra hours every now and then, plus helping at Hogwarts." I said with antoher slight nod. "Yeah, we should be fine. You need a wand."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 18:03:49 GMT
I nodded slightly, a small smile on my lips. He didn't like having his wand, of course he's going to sympathise on this whole situation now.
I listened, waiting for him to speak after saying um and then listened when he did. "Okay." I said softly, smiling a little, my head resting lightly on his shoulder since a short while ago. "Thank you." I said with a grin and kissed his neck lightly a few times.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 18:24:30 GMT
I smiled back to her before she rested her head lightly on my shoulder and nodded a little when she said thank you. "No problem love.." I said quietly to her, smiling a little more as she kissed my neck lightly a few times. I let out a few soft chuckles as she did, still smiling.
I really wasn't positive what of all happend the last however many days, or when she started talking to me again for that matter. One day, no talking and being distant, the next day, smiling, talking and kissing me. I was kind of lost of how that happend.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 18:33:49 GMT
I smiled, biting my lower lip against it slightly. "Love you." I said, smiling softly. As I kissed his neck he let out a few soft chuckles, causing me to grin. I knew that when all of this happened that I was going to somehow forget about everything that he did and how hurt I'd been, and then we'd be over it, and well I was over it. We didn't even talk about it.
We're getting a wand, we're getting a wand. I smiled a little more at that, we were getting a wand, and then we'd see how everything else went from there on out.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 18:42:03 GMT
I nodded slightly, "I know.. love you too." I said back to her, feeling her grin against my neck. Things seemed better. Were they actually better? I wasn't sure, but I guess I wasn't complaining much. I looked past the fact that she had pointed the wand at me, not sure if I should have really, but I did, and maybe now that she gets her own, she'll be less likely to do that again? Or would that be more likely?
I wasn't sure, but I guess we were going to see what was going to happen. Hopefully it wouldn't be anything else bad.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 18:47:39 GMT
I didn't say I know like I usually did, I just decided that I loved hearing those words and if I shut up I could know and hear them at the same time. "Why you back so soon?" I asked softly, pulling away slightly so I could look at him, a smile still gracing my lips, really I was wondering if it was just he got off early or if this was going to be routine to make sure I'm fine and not killing anyone. That was doubtful, but it could still happen, everything was changing, so he should be able to check up on me.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 18:52:15 GMT
"They told me to come home." I said quietly, nodding a little bit as I answered her question, smiling a little from seeing her smile. Something I really did miss seeing. "H-Having an off day, I guess. They probably figured they could get more done without me there.. almost removed someone's bones earlier." Though it was nice that I could check on her, maybe I should start coming home on lunch breaks just to see if she's okay.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 18:56:28 GMT
I nodded, wondering if I could've been the reason for his off day. Biting my lip softly I tried to think of something to say. I laughed softly when he said he almost removed someone's bones. It might not have been funny, but Riley almost doing that, it was a funny thought. "That's no good." I said, smiling still. "Something you want to do then?" I asked softly, moving again so I was resting my head on his shoulder lightly, kissing his neck a couple times again.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 19:01:50 GMT
I chuckled softly again as she laughed. It was kind of funny now that I think about it, it wasn't at the time though. "Nah, definately not good.. I think I'd be home for a different reason if I did that.." I said with another soft chuckle.
"Um.. other than putting away the knife.. no, not really.." I said smiling a little, with another chuckle, as she kissed my neck a couple more times. "What about you?"
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 19:05:58 GMT
I smiled, hearing him chuckle, really I had been missing this, even if I thought that I had a reason at the time to just ignore him and not even make an attempt at smiling or talking to anyone really. "And we don't need that." I said with a small smile.
I bit my lip softly when he said other than putting away the knife no. I didn't exactly want the knife to be put away, but I smiled and kissed his neck again. "I dunno." I said, laughing softly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 19:13:07 GMT
I smiled and shook my head a little bit. "Nope.. but I might be getting some hours at Mungo's soon.. so if something did happen, I'd be there too." I said, mentioning for what I thought might've been the first time I mentioned anything about Mungo's. I did have an interview and after a day for two said they could use another set of hands once in while. But if Riyann didn't want me to take it, I wouldn't.
She smiled again as she kissed my neck and I laughed a little when she did. "You seem to be liking kissing me now though.. unless you want to get a wand."
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 19:20:46 GMT
I nodded a little when he mentioned getting work at St. Mungo's. "Just don't be gone all the time." I said softly, smiling a little towards him. This was the first that I'd heard about him getting hours at St. Mungo's, he'd never brought it up before this.
I smiled when he said that I seemed to like kissing him, and then kissed him lightly again, trying to think if I should go get a wand now or not. "Either works." I murmured softly.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 19:24:46 GMT
"I'm not planning on it.." I said with a small smile to her, shaking my head a bit. "You're okay with it?" I asked watching her a little closer now. "I really don't even know if I'm going to take it yet anyway.." I had been offered the job before this little part happend and now that it did, I wasn't sure how long I should be gone.
She kissed me again and I chuckled a little bit. "I choose you choose." I said quietly back to her, smiling softly.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 19:31:51 GMT
I nodded a little, smiling slightly again. "Good." I murmured softly. "Course." I whispered softly, smiling slightly towards him, there wasn't a reason I shouldn't be. "Do what you want." I said, nodding a little.
"You always say that, and I always say you choose, and well i say you choose." I said, laughing softly, kissing his neck again a couple of times.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 19:39:05 GMT
I smiled back to her and nodded a little. "Okay.. thanks love." I said, leaving the smile on my face. I wasn't sure what I was going to do yet, but I guess I would figure it out in time.
I laughed a little at her reasoning, tilting my head very slightly as she kissed my neck again. "Hm.. Why do I always have to choose then? Can't I choose that you choose?"
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 19:42:59 GMT
"You're welcome." I said softly, smiling towards him, wondering what he'd do, say no to the job because of me or not. Hopefully he wouldn't base his decision off of me. I'd be fine, he should know that.
I felt him tilt his head a bit and grinned, nipping lightly at a spot before shrugging slightly and pulling back from his neck all together. "Because." I said, shrugging a bit again.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 19:49:42 GMT
I smiled, still thinking about it for a minute, weighing my reasons. More time with Riyann and the girls, less money or vice versa. Maybe I'll wait till I go to pay the bills and then decide.
I smiled and closed my eyes lightly for a second as she nipped at a spot on my neck. I opened them as she pulled away and smiled to her, shaking my head a little bit. "Because you're cute and can get anything you want?" I asked, finishing her sentanced with a soft laugh before kissing her lips lightly.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 19:58:06 GMT
I watched as he opened his eyes after I pulled away and giggled softly. "That about sums it up." I said softly, hearing his laugh and grinning slightly before he kissed me lightly and I kissed him back, wondering if this was him making up his mind, and if so I really didn't mind his choice.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 20:04:59 GMT
I grinned softly, laughing a little bit again as she agreed with me. I really hadn't made up my mind yet. Which was funny considering what the options were. I kissed her back again, smiling softly as I pulled away again. "Maybe we should just do both..." I said with a small chuckle.
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Post by Riyann Servansikk on Aug 13, 2008 20:09:36 GMT
I smiled a little more as he laughed, giggling softly myself. I felt him kissing me back before he pulled away, seeing the smile on his face and I raised an eyebrow before he spoke. "Good, because I'm not done with you." I said, laughing a little and kissing him again.
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Post by Riley Pearson on Aug 13, 2008 20:13:42 GMT
I grinned softly as she giggled to herself and raised my eyebrows slightly at what she said, still smiling, "Oh?" I asked her with a small laugh before kissing her back again.
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